Love life used as a political tool
Ok, let's say that I was never switched, and all of this stuff was encouraged for me to think it in order to place division b/t people. Let's say that the same folks who did it had their own sexual interest in me, but I didn't respond and so they did everything to make a fool out of me and the person who I love.
The person who I love is white, he isn't a racist, never was. I am not a racist, never was. But our care for each other was used as a game. And I was encouraged to think those crazy thoughts, which in the end was just to message the ego of a few men who wanted to sleep with me and divide the person who I love.
They scared the guy out of town, and placed me in a position that I can't even rent from an area near by work, and most people know about the person who I am in love with, they know about the disappointment and the public attacks, which I just realized has nothng to do with IR ralationship, as black men date white women all the time, I see it, and I never ever bother them. White men date Asian and black and hsipanic women, and I never bother them. But my love and relation with this person was put before too many people.
See it started at the work gym, and the guys who were checking me out were all white, now, little did they know, they guy I love, I love him FOR HIM, not b/c of his skin color, but a few racists started to think that I only wanted him for his race or skin color, and if that was the case, any white male would have done the job, so apparently it's more then about race. Well, all that crap started to make a lot of Asian men very jealous, as they wanted to flirt too. Well, I wasn't attracted to any of the men, black, white, or Asian. All of this focus on me and not on the few Asian guys int the gym caused a few of them to get angry. Not sure if this was done on purpose. As, I never viewed Asian men as nothing more then men first, same with white man, they are men before they are anything else. Well, I always felt they were just bouncing their energy off of me to really make the white women jealous at the gym who normally wouldn't pay them attention, so I didn't mind being the "wing" man for them, and any person who has an ounce of brain would know that if I am not talking to these men at all, not even outside of the gym, I obviously am not interested in them and this is all just sport, mainly just to put more attention on the women who want to play competition. All of this started causing problems, as other black females started doing the same thing and wondering why it wasn't as effective. When really, I am not sleeping with these men, I have zero interest in them, and it was all in sport to help these guys out and it was working, the females would get hot and bothered over nothing and at times, it was funny and I saw how they tried harder to win over the effections of these guys looking at me, so it was all in game, but it ended up effecting my personal life.
NOw, certain folks know how that both of us have deep feelings for each other, and is using a divide in order to help themselves.