Meet Your Fellow Piratistas

(Sorry about this double post.) I'm having second thoughts on the childhood/teen pictures because we don't like know anyone well in real life. :[ It's just too much.. I took these pics for stuff like this anyway.. as was why I was that for Halloween, so I'm pleased.

I thought I was gonna die just now. Is that everyone else's ..problem. ? :[ Really, though.. something wrong and it's bc of other ppl.. and I'm sure it's a Pirate thing..

So, what does everyone do? You are all playful.. Do you work @ banks? Factories? Do you play all day? I'm just a reactor and now I don't feel well.. for a while. I never felt okay.

What's the purpose in your life? Pirating? Fighting them? ""Hypnotic""? suffering work.. for what??

Oh my.. I don't ever feel well.. I can't see ppl or else.. my body.. my sex organs.. my face.. my eyes.. it's too much strain, I'd go insane..

I mean look at my picture. Do you know anyone else this sensitive?

I'm not a product of my surroundings in that regard, but in how I am not well that is so.

My problem is I don't even feel free to react. Ppl in my life find a way to dig in and make me feel bad just bc of the pressure. And it worries me. I had ppl I looked up to.. It's just too much already. My life is this fight now and I am too ill to do other than stay inside and lie in bed..

I'm always helpful.... I'm just here.. I'm not @ being big and bad and just having sex and "making babies." I was here to have a life, that which I have not..

Obviously I shouldn't or kind of can't strain much more so no chance of having kids, at least not now.

I always feel such a terrible pressure in my body, all these sex chemicals I can't stop and I didn't want that obviously. An elephant never forgets.

Ppl always are just reacting that I wasn't the one who did something when I was the one who wanted to do hard work to achieve something, but I lost all that horizon in my outer life, which means other people.

Adult, yes, but I never got to be who I wanted. Ppl started being mean to me then.

The ppl in my life are bad. They don't react well to the movie of my siggy and yea this one, anything like this, even though I got dragged into Star Wars when the new ones came out.

Now that I saw more and more movies like this everyone just hurts me and stimulates me sexually in ways I don't want. I'm just an innocent object of people's play. Sexually meaning affecting the sexual sensitivities in a bad way. Who knows why and about it with different people, though..

I'm getting sick from ugly people and jealous ugly people. I've met real jewels all my life so-to-speak, but everyone hogs them and keeps me from them, people younger many, my age, and older.. It's really sad in the end whatever is going on.

People have this big problem with me being with older people other than just to have them like report the news to me, or criticize that I can't have what I want even though I did not ask.

Most older people gross me out, like ones who are 5 or 10 or 15 years older.. I never quite get what I want.. which is just the normal, that in the end ok sometimes..

Younger ppl are only about hogging older people but that isn't what I asked.. I mean that's not what I bring up! But that's all that goes on, and it's beginning to disgust me in a way, always has.. ..... eek..

(Sorry for the triple post but I left them hanging and some ppl might be awake..)

I should try to go through my thoughts on my own b4 typing. This is just the story of my life, all I end up saying as I developed to age 11 and 15, this is all I ever say to anyone..

Everyone says I'm crazy and goes on to thinking oh well I will cease to exist, which is really perverted etc. or something.

I just don't have feelings, but that's no biggie really bc I'm kind of a 90's mold in that regard, means it used to be the thing to do and it was a feeling.

Oh, I get it. Everything is based off of, even if you work in the factories I saw on TV (which problem is people who did well in school weren't raised to do that and can't survive with those people is all..) or banks or anything in life or .. that at least you, who are abnormal, can count on having fun watching me tortured like watching old Greek fights, but I don't really want to be there.. I could count on growing up and doing this actually, being either psycho or tortured, which it's wrong to just "hurt yourself" which isn't a term. Why don't people think I'm me because I'm me. It's not because of my parents because it isn't. It's not because of my surroundings because I am completely lonely. My friends from childhood are mean to me and don't keep in touch, but still respond like I'm in their owe like I should have written more, which I did, and they don't write back..

Each thing that happens makes it worse when people physically stimulate me sexually in ways I don't want because they make fun of me rather than me having something to make me stronger, which I think I'm overdone because that was also used against me in rhythm.. (Hm, "in rhythm."😉 Everyone here has a short temper and doesn't interact. We can count on these people to make life, which is this hard, impossible, like I just described if your blood was cut.

(If my time runs out.. I can not add my siggy or compose outside of this or finish since I'm tired even though I'm listening to music now.. for my ears.. I'm so tired to do like.. Oh yes, my main problem is my ears.... I hear the echoes in my head and can't think. My pictures looked different before and after I dealt with it some, so maybe it's the fault of that. It happened when I was at a college dormitory after I quit doing college music.. That's not an injury, though. I can hear, inside my head.. and outside but I'm getting better and better hearing as I am getting better and more sleeping..)

Maybe bc I did work in school and majored in art.. my life is crazy.... I should go back to some art when I'm better.. but it's tooo easy.. I don't want to be treated like I am stupid or different. I can't take it like I said.. I will in the future bc that is what I wanted, but my life is just a trap, meaning, I don't know why I just hurt, because I myself don't hurt, just my body stops and gets upset and killer.

I thought I had an escape in organ but it's not private these days enough and it's not something else.

(Sorry about the addition but I can't believe that was just more than 7 minutes and this is about something they asked.) Obviously anything I do is slavery, a service..

I had to go to the doctor for my ears, so what, they were grumpy and didn't fix it for good but something they did bothered me or whatever, but not really, just not so respectful. My are they just ugly. Yek. Maybe I am elite. No art is good enough for me.... Adult humor and up there the truth, when something's that bad and someone's that picked at or sensitive.

I don't want to think that everyone is a copy of me in a worse situation that doesn't let me help, either, like because they like their parents better.

So, think of what you want..

what you want = what I don't care about or wait on
life = I get stimulated to feel that want that much and that then life is a blank

but obviously that's not what I'm thinking or feeling as a person

The top of my head above my eyes is like ouch..... (not in a tumor way, so get that out of your head bc this is a basic part of what life was supposed to be) a constant pressure like oil pressing and suffocating, and I don't have a problem to be reported to officials, I'm just being an interesting person in case you are sensitive, which you are requesting, to be entertained.

You all wonder why I'm not all that.. I explained there is a reason for everything.. }= ] I have it all in the physical, though.

I'm not awake to a lot of things.. I lived in SE Florida as a little kid. I live din NE Florida as a pre-teen.. I wasn't allowed to think about my life. It was about feeling alive.

(So, I'll try not to have this multiple posting, too.. maybe I can gain some.. will to actually write my posts somewhere else first.. but you know about "what is too much work.."😉

oooh! nice pics tex!

BRIT! so that's what your dress looked like! I'm sooo dying all over it- sooo cute!

hm.. picture.. picture.. picture...

I'd show one where I went to japan guys, but it's on another computer, so maybe next time... 😄 PROMISE.

Japan - f*** I hate Asia.... If you ever were said to be 1/2 Asian you would, too..

Yea, I was happy to be slick..
-born 1986
-NE FL as a preteen (& kindergarten - age 7)
-1/2 Irish 1/2 Chinese

but it's h*** o work but naturally, I wonder what happened, and o yea, that's what I was doing, and it's not bc of being Irish that I forgot, anyone can have that fun

It would be funny if I was born in 1996. Really.. Definitely not to be born earlier. I can't see that. Well, I can't see being born a month or so later, 1986 or 1996.... or 97/8 and I can stop there

Yes, they just copied me....

o sorry, you said you were filipino.. which is.... supposedly just asian?? i didnt see ur album - ur just tan??????

I used to look, well, obviously, my non naked see through skin and dark deep saturated hair.. anyway

well, here they are! 😄

well, one of them anyway.. 😄

my car- in Japan!

ALright, I'm just kidding. I'm not even old enough to own a license yet. 😄 but hey, it IS a nice car... from a Toyota car exhibit. 😄

well, here they are! 😄

well, one of them anyway.. 😄

my car- in Japan!

ALright, I'm just kidding. I'm not even old enough to own a license yet. 😄 but hey, it IS a nice car... from a Toyota car exhibit. 😄

sorry for the double post, but crud, the picture didn't upload. I'm gonna try again later. 😄

Oooh Jaeh - bet you're gorgeouuuuus 😉

is savvy Brit? I is confuzzled 😄

Yay! japan pics!!

Yeah, I'm Bri but I let Jaeh call me Brit as per her request 😉

Oh! Okay hehe

We're learning how to dance this in my dance class now. Did I mention I dance for two hours Monday & Wednesday, and then an OPITIONAL -come-and-pay- 8 hours on a Saturday? 🙂 Anywaaay, this is much harder then it looks but dayum he is hott:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xfpYAFenus

Couldn't find the birthday thread.... but...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLO!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLO!!!! Ahhhh YAY!! 🙂

Texxy I love the Pics!! Ur soo cute!

OO OO I wanna see Japan pics Jaeh!!

Originally posted by piratexrory
We're learning how to dance this in my dance class now. Did I mention I dance for two hours Monday & Wednesday, and then an OPITIONAL -come-and-pay- 8 hours on a Saturday? 🙂 Anywaaay, this is much harder then it looks but dayum he is hott:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xfpYAFenus

I usually did ballet once a week; it was hard for me to get what I wanted. In college, I went 15 1/2 hours a week in college (the college and prep program) the semester I got to the most advanced level. When I came home, I went 4 days a week. I had to take a break because I have to finish growing. You can't do dance really if you aren't already in shape. Because it's about a good looking model. It was always just ballet, but I was starting the youth tap, jazz, lyrical, and modern when I quit. It was gr8, we were gonna do tap to the original Monster Mash..

College dance, in New Orleans, is easy, esp. if you are from there, so it's no big deal other than that I did it. It is pre-professional ballet, however. The kids just aren't mature there anymore.

I actually gained weight doing it at the advanced level because I didn't have time for the gym usually, though I walked around all the time. But I gained weight to a hippo blimp, 5' 140 lbs. + from @ 95-110 lbs.

I think I was framed there not to succeed bc the kids were jealous.. (Did that say it all! Phew! NE FL runaway gets tired of thinking she didn't say something.)

And yes, I look so ugly in the Halloween ones and all of them. But it's just funny to see what a person looks like.

Ew, what DID ppl do to me bc I did not do that.

Yea, I used to look pretty so I was all into naturale.. So, I didn't wear make-up for Halloween. I thought I looked better, but no..

THAT'S WHY I'M A COLLEGE DROPOUT BY 21! If this was life, no, bc life is about how you look when things go wrong, and I looked okay other than that I didn't get enough sleep, but I have to be pleased through and through to do anything.. douih..

Okay.. so, this, buster? And this was after losing all the weight. (I asked my mom if there were other pics on hand so I could view them..)

Every day and sec for the past decade of my life as almost dying from lack of any rest or joy. No wonder I'm just not happy otherwise, as well.

So, when I make my stand in wanting to be more than school, this is what happens, I get hurt. AND (=) I AM MAD AT PPL, SO SAVE URSELF!

Thank you to everyone for the birthday wishes.

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY!