Obsidian Fury
Senior Member
Throttle watched the combat formations that were taking place. He shook his head with a sigh and kept on limping forth. He watched back on each of the troopers who had been the missfortunate souls that had gotten in his way.
Throttle had always been known for a short fuse and also that when angry, he could do the most unimaginable things. He could not care less about the stormtroopers, but when a squad of his commando had gotten slain by an unexpected party of Jedi, that was not mentioned in the details, it simply put- ticked him of. Had he known them coming, or known there'd be a chance that they were present, he would've been ready for them, but this risk had not been mentioned.
He could, however, not blame Aya, even though she was then one that had providen the details of the mission. Why not? That was due to many reasons. One would be that in some strange, to him unexplainable way, he had grown quite the attractivity to her. Another, and of course, the most obvious and true, but the toughest one for him to admit- how would she have known?
Throttle then fell to his knees. Not out of pain, or the injuries that he had suffered. Not because the soldiers, that were in fact his allies- only with their guns raised towards him- and with all right- no, not because of that. Neither did he fall to his knees because he wished to die. No, his judgement was stronger than that. HE was stronger than that.
In his anger and with his skills, had he wanted to, this base would fall. Strategical destruction, hostile manipulation and warfare- that was the life of Throttle. Yet .... he knew that would not dampen his anger. Not all revenge in the world would.
Darth Banis had taught Throttle to use anger instead of give into remorse and sympathy. Throttle had climbed the ladder of position trough his temper. They both knew- him and Banis- that it would one day be the death of him.
Was today that day? Was now that time? He doubted it. These soldiers did not have the guts to shoot him. They feared he would live, and they feared what he could do to them if he did.
Then why was Throttle angry? It was the most simple thing, and the only logical explanation why violence and destruction could not dampen his anger. Usually, he could take it out on any nearby trooper. Now he had taken it out on both the Jedi that he encountered, and numerous Imperial Alliance troopers. Not this time. This time he was angry .... with himself.
Throttle then fell to his stomach. Again, not out of pain or injury, nor out of fear for the soldiers surrounding him, or fear of death. He fell to his stomach and Throttle, for the first time in his life- cried.
The wartorn warrior, the currently mentally destroyed elite soldier, the proud trooper, and the personfied weapon of mass destruction was angry with himself and he cried. He laid straight on the ground, laid on his stomach with his hands over the back of his head and his legs stretched right out. He laid down and cried.
He cried because he did not know why. That was the true reason. He was becoming a mental wreck and he did not know why. He was too afraid to admit that he was angry with himself. Too stubborn. Too proud. He was supposed to be perfect. He was supposed to be Ray Throttle. He was supposed to be the Black Hole Elite that could kill an armed Jedi with his bare hands. Supposed to be the man that when struck down, would get right back up again. The man that feed on anger instead of falling victim to it.
But what was he? A man in tears. A man in distress that not even he himself was aware of.