Originally posted by Scribble
There are no positives to being alive. There is only the fact that if I died, it would hurt people. What a shitty ****ing existence this all is.
You won't like this.
Your "Friends" here won't like this.
I will say it anyway.
Just last year you described the happiest moments of your life when you devoted yourself to The Lord and started studying The Bible. Your depression had virtually become nonexistent and you felt very optimistic about the future. More and more you deviated from that until you have arrived at this point.
The lesson should be clear to you.
Give up a lifestyle that has brought you back into the throws of nihilism and depression and embrace The Lord and the word fully.
Surround yourself with like-minded people and don't allow anyone to steer you away from the path.
This may be the last chance you get and when it's over what awaits you is for eternity.