Originally posted by SurturYou don't get how my suicidal stuff has gone. I used to be depressed and suicidal because I was crazy and I hated it. I hated being suicidal.
don't even lie and say u had the same level of suicidal thoughts when u thought u had a homosexual relationship with eon
I was happy for a while. I opened up, and let people in. Eon broke my trust and hurt me. Lots of other shitty things happened. (This is NOT Eon's fault.)
I don't care about them anymore. I want to die because this world is awful, because my life has been nothing but pain or build-up to pain. My pessimism and suicidal ideation is now rational, not emotional. I am no longer scared of committing suicide. It now seems the most rational solution to me.
It's not so much finding a reason to die, but that there is no reason to live, at all. Love is shit. Sex is shit. Friendships fade. Nobody truly understand me. I am not good at anything. Nothing is fun. Everything is boring. I'm tired and done with this blasphemous charade called life.
Originally posted by SurturLiterally my suicide method is an overdose from illegal drugs tho
Scrib you ever see kill your darlingsdid those gay beat generation guys kill themselves? no! They let drugs and alcohol take their natural course!
Neal Cassady died on some train tracks from drugs not from suicide