But yeah I told Bash to kill himself in April last year, because I was incredibly depressed and suicidal, very obviously in a bad place, and Bash started mocking me and telling me I was attention-seeking, so I snapped at him and asked him why he didn't kill himself. That's not an excuse — just a retelling of the situation. Some people have brain damage and can't distinguish explanations from excuses.
Not proud of it, neither do I regret it, I actually wouldn't feel any emotion if Bash did top himself (other than possibly slight relief that I wouldn't have to deal with his presence anymore), but on principle I obviously think telling someone to kill themselves is really shitty, and above all else, highly irresponsible.
What can I say? I'm a shitty person and I see no reason to not be in this world. May as well embrace your innate characteristics instead of fighting them, because nobody praises you for doing well, they only criticise you for failing. Nobody truly cares about anyone else, it's all theatre because we don't want to be alone. Well, I am alone, and I don't care about pleasing or placating anyone anymore. My life is one long road to suicide and at this stage I don't care what happens.