Bash was wrong when he said I was trying to guilt people, if he said that. I think he did once. I am not trying to make life different. I am showing you that your actions have consequences. Every action has a consequence. I am happy to die or be annihilated to provide an example to those in the future. In fact nobody can change to prove that point. Everyone must remain corrupt to the bones. But I can't decide that. it must play out as God has decided.
It is funny that Bash began to assault me because I was attacking xyz nd he supposedly was pritecting xyzss mental state ofme health. but he has ****ed me along with his ****ed yp friends. he is a fake. a fraud. you're all guilty. I am guilty. We all are, We are Hell. This is hell. death is god. God predicts and creates hell.
what have I done to deserve this? live honestly, be myself? not suffer fools gladly? reject masculinity? why create monstrosities such as Bashar Teg? why put devils, satans such as him on earth at all? please God just kill him, ****ing kill him so peoplel ike I can not suffer every day in fear, live in terror of being attacked, why do I live this horror of a life, why was I betrayed by Eon, attacked by maniacs and spurned by those who pretended to care for me? does anyone exist with an honest soul? God you ****ing sack of spiteful shit I will ****ing kill you
I live in a manufactured world designed specifically to torture me. The voices have been saying this to me. They have said for a long time that I am designed and born to live Hell in life living. I am born and created in this world by God to be hated and to hate all I see. Because maybe some time I sinned. In another Godly life. Look at me. Disgusting and ugly and filthy. I am not a owman. I am a faker like you all tell me. Like you all see me. I am a fraud too. I am no woman. Bash is right. I should die. I will kill myself with hatred. I will give myself cancer through meditation. If not I will exit through catastrophe. I have been given here. Delivered by God. You are all my torturers. You hate me. You see me for what I am that I do not see myself and notice in the mirror beyond the line of sight: MALE, MASCULINE, A FRAUD, A FAKE, A DRAG QUEEN, A TRAP, A PUECE OF SHIT AND HE WAS RIGHT AND I DO DEERVE TO ****ING DIE. VERY WELL BASH, YOU ****ING SATAN, YOU WILL GET WHAT YOU DESIRE, I WILL ****ING KILL MYSELF BECAUSE YOU ARE GOD'S MESSENGER AND HE DESIRES ME TO DIE
hate is all there is. love is a fiction. I hav never felt it. love is ap relude to hate, to suffering. there is no love, only hate, only suffering. hatred and pain IS existence, the mundane is created from them, joy is a myth and a lie, happiness will not be achieved. Bash was right when he said I was not a woman, but a man who dresses like a woman because I am a fake and deserve to die. I do deserve to die BUT I AM NOT EVEN ALLOWED TO DO THAT, I have to keep living because the living God has made this world explicitly only for me to exist in to suffer and to be assaulted, physically, mentally, spiritually and it is what I desevreb ecause in another life I did somthing wrong and hurt someone it's what I deserve Bash is right I am scum i am a man not a woman I am a fake a ****ing piece of shit he was right I am ****ing shit and this world is m y ****ing prison hell made by God