We all deal with pain in many different ways. I can only speak for myself, when I battled depression, some people just get more bullshit then others, while other people get a free ride. If this was that situation, I must have done sum pretty awful shit to deserve the life I've been given. I've heard so many motivational speakers insist that we can make ourselves happy and for the most part it is true. However, that only follows within reason. So my advice to you, is to go out to some empty field and scream from the loudest part of your voice and shout, FUuuuuuK!
I have a neighbor who I talk to occasionally. He is a man from India, early 40's. He came to this country hoping to find a better life, as soon as he arrived from the plane, he fell down and both his legs stopped working. He hasn't gone back to India to visit his family and is to proud to tell them that he is a crippled. Most days he goes to the lobby to stare at people coming in and out and sits in his chair. The more you talk to different kind of people the more you begin to realize that people got their own problems.