siriuswriter
Senior Member
erm, first of all, i don't believe in black and white scenarios, i believe that everything is grey.
that being said. at a time, i was a true christian. i felt comfortable in that identity, i was really interested in learning more about the bible and why certain denominations believe certain things and not others.
but, i changed. as in, my mind progressed, my thoughts progressed, my brain followed those questions and realized that i'd never find answers, and that what was being said as the Truth were things i didn't believe. for example, when it comes to who jesus "saved" and who he did not, i started thinking about people who would never be given a chance to accept that. like, mentally ill people. how could they possibly understand the depths of all the meanings... and what about indeginous tribes that missionaries would never reach?
so i put that together with the thought that god is supposed to be all loving. i could put those two together; a loving god would not send someone to hell just because of the random chance of being born within distance of a church.
before, i truly believed. i found a more mature mindset that was much more comfortable and made much more sense to me than believing in god at the age of sixteen.
when i was a christian, i could never have forseen the events in my life that would make me come to my present conclusions. if i was able to see ahead in my life, maybe things would have turned out differently. if i hadn't experienced life the way i have, things might have turned out differently.... but they turned out this way, and i feel most comfortable with the spirituality that i have now. sometimes i look back and say how could i have believed that? if there was a way to look forward and see me today from back then i would've said how can i believe that in the future?