On Valentines Day I lost my great aunt who was very much like a mother to me. She was 91 and she was miserable. She kept saying she didnt know why she was still on earth when all her family was in heaven. The day before she died she re-iterated that sentiment and I told her to stop it, that she wasn't going anywhere. She was in pain all the time and that was evident from her facial expression. When the assisted living center called me the morning she died ( I had power of attorney) and I went out there, she had such a look of peace on her face that I knew she was happy and pain free. You are a good grandson and I know it hurts to think of losing your grandpa Ken, but there comes a time when we have to let go and let them be pain free and at peace. You know if the roles were reversed he wouldn't want you to suffer I'm sure. Be strong, its still going to hurt like hell but it will get better. hug