Con Gordo, Fallen
History and Background
Con Gordo was found on Coruscant when he was not even 1 year old. He never met his parents and he spend the formative years of his life in the Jedi Temple. As a child Con already lacked any sort of emotions, he didn't experience any jealousy, anger or joy which was valued by his instructors but should ultimately lead to his fall to the darkside as he was unequipped to deal with them when they finally surfaced.
When he was 13 years old he competed in a tournament in the Temple to impress a few visiting masters. He was chosen by Master Raskae, an adventurer often assigned to dangerous, hands-on missions throughout the Republic. Over the years he developed a bond with his master and learned much from the skilled Jedi. During this time his blind sense of duty evolved. Not understanding many of the Jedi teachings he clang to an idea of how he believed Jedis should behave which should guide most of his decisions for the next 8 years.
When he was 15 years old his Master was sent to a diplomatic mission on the planet Daku, arriving there he was trapped by local rebels and Con had to take it upon himself to find his and free Raskae. In a final showdown he first felt the dark side increase his power. It was a exciting feeling, the anger and hate, almost overwhelming for someone who hadn't felt anything before. His kinetic power seemed to have doubled and he defeated his enemy and saved his master with ease. However it started a deep longing to experience the same again, which would only grow over time.
The only other thing in that time that made him feel connected to his own emotions in the time was experiencing new worlds. During the time it was the only passion he indulged in, and thanks to the standing of his master it was a pleasure he could feel often. The constant travelling made him very well versed in the customs of the different worlds and peoples of the galaxy a skill which would prove incredibly useful in his later life.
Shortly after his 17's birthday they were assigned to protect the votive of light, a powerful Jedi Artifact at the Museum of Zehat. In a surprise attack his master was cripplingly wounded and Con was unable to protect the artifact. Enraged and believing himself to follow the will of the force Con made his way following the thieves to the planet Vono'k, going directly against the wishes of the Council.
At Vono'k he got entangled in a fierce civil war, and under the promise of information he chose to aid the rebel group, in the hope of restoring peace to the world. For three years he fought a war he had little interest in, acquiring many previously unfamiliar skills. 2 years into the war he lead a squad into the deep jungles of Vono'k where he encountered the powerful Dark Jedi Ker Orlogg. During the ensuing duel, Orlogg shook many of his believes to the core and forced him to unleash the dark side, which just further intoxicated him with the unknown emotions. From that moment on he longed to feel the dark side and through using it felt an addicting connection to his passions, that were otherwise unknowable to him.
After winning the war he was rewarded with the information he had come for so long ago. By that time he had little interest in pursuing his former goal and all that kept him going in that direction was the still faint sense of duty and connection to his old master. His investigation lead him to Luon where he had to join a criminal organization and in pursuit of the artifact had to cross lines he previously hadn't even considered. [story in progress in retrospection]
A few years after his time on Luon, he worked random jobs throughout the Republic to support his travel-lust. One such mission lead him to Galaet, where he was assigned to assassinate the benevolent king of said world. He managed to sneak into the King's chambers at night when he was surprised by his ten year old son. On instinct he drove his lightsabre through the boy killing him instantly and awakening his parents. The situation threw him into a state of confusion, because of which he only barely escaped the king's guards, abandoning his mission in the process. The incident made him questioning his believes, and for over a year he did nothing but spend his time in a backwards bar on Tatooine, falling into a deep depression.
When he one day overheard of a bodyguard mission to Coruscant he seized the opportunity to once more return to the place of his birth and youth. However he had no intention to work there, his goal was to meet his master again after so many years, which put him in danger of being arrested by the Jedi. Against the odds he was able to briefly find his paralyzed master and have a discussion about his life, in the quest to understand more about himself. His master ultimately told him that there was no way back for him, which Con realized he had already known. When Raskae confronted him to a duel he easily disarmed his weakened master and took his lightsabre from him as a last souvenir of his old life, bidding the only person he ever cared for farewell forever.
2 years after his last trip to Coruscant he was involved in a smuggler ring on the twin planets Demean, when he was attacked by a mysterious Bounty Hunter, he closely escaped his attacker, but was found again in hiding on Demean II, this time the bounty hunter had brought a squad of Osokans, he was able to defeat the Bounty Hunter but was overpowered by the many Osokan attackers , as he passed out he was sure to have found his end. Which ensured his surprise when he awoke at one of the hideouts of the his smuggler friends. He had been rescued in a last second attack by the smugglers, who helped him flee republic space.
Since then he has worked together with a group of darksiders based on the savage planet Epireus. For almost 3 years he has been with the group now and through the years he has become more restless, dreading the situation he is in that so limits him from pursuing his passion for the worlds of the galaxy which just further pushes him into the darkside, fueling his anger, the emotion that comes most easily to him. In the last months he has even started considering leaving his beloved republic space into the unknown, only the hope that the situation will improve either through Kuylen or Adelmo keeps him hanging on.
Opinions on the Force
Rather than seeing the force or the darkside as a tool to more power, his reason for it is the immense passion he feels through channeling it. Ultimately all his decisions are based on the longing for feeling connected to himself, and the two only things enabling this were the search for the new situations, expressed through his desire to travel and the using the dark side. Traditionally anger has come to him easiest, but has always been the least exciting. Consequently he has been most interested in how different emotions and passions can fuel his force power. He understand that the dark side is a choice he made and he will have to live with as a constant addiction. He doesn't see it as superior just as the better way for him.