Obi-Wan remembers. He is eleven. He is sparring with Master Qui-Gonn. Green blade crosses blue, recoils, returns, again and again, sparks flying as the two Jedi strain against each other. Kenobi is struggling. His master is everywhere, flipping through the air, cutting him off, anticipating every advance, every attack. Kenobi’s blade might as well be aimed at the floor.
Kenobi gathers himself, redoubles his effort and concentrates on a low thrust, aiming at Qui-Gonn’s waist. As always, his Master is way ahead of him. Knocking the blue blade aside with strength that Obi-Wan cannot match, Qui-Gonn calls on the force to flip forward, over Kenobi. Obi-Wan swings wildy as his master flies overhead, but Qui-Gonn catches the blade easily, using the momentum from Kenobi’s swing to rotate in the air and land at Kenobi’s back, Obi-wan tries to turn, but he’s too late. Qui-Gonn’s blade at his neck freezes him. He bows his head, a concession. The two step apart, breathing heavily.
“You must do better Padawan.” Qui-Gonn’s voice is patient, as always. “When you over commit to the attack, your defense is easily broken. Your defense is your life Obi-Wan. “
“I will do better Master. “ Obi-Wan has more to say, but he knows better than to argue with Qui-Gonn. He bites his tongue.
“See that you do. I cannot take you with me on missions where there will be danger if I must protect you at all times.”
“Yes, Master.” Obi-Wan is unable to keep his frustration from slipping into his words. Qui-Gonn gives him a long look.
“Say it, Padawan. You disagree?” Obi-Wan does. He struggles for words, trying to sound intelligent. If he has learned nothing else from his training, he has learned that few things could make someone look and feel as foolish as disagreeing with a Jedi Master.
“It seems, Master Qui-Gonn, that if I am constantly defending myself, and never attacking, that I will never have a chance to defeat my opponent, and he will eventually break my defenses. Soresu makes it impossible to win! If I could study Ataru like you and Master Yoda…” Kenobi was unable to keep the eagerness from creeping into his voice. He sounds like a petulant child, and he knows it, but he cannot resist. “How can I ever become a master with a lightsaber if all I ever do is defend myself?”
“So.” Qui-Gonn’s face is as impassive as ever. Obi-Wan holds his breathe. Has he gone too far? “You think that using Ataru gives a Jedi an advantage over someone using Soresu?”
“I do, Master.” Obi-Wan realizes that Qui-Gonn is not agreeing with him, but deep inside, Kenobi knows he is right, if he could just use the superior form, he would be less of a liability to his master in combat situations. “It is a superior form, after all! None of the council members use Soresu!”
“Very well.” Qui-Gonn steps back and raises his lightsaber in a salute. “Use Ataru. I’ll use Soresu. Take the offensive, Padawan. Attack me.”
Obi-Wan knows that Qui-Gonn never jests. He also knows that whenever Qui Gonn seems to give him his own way, it usually ends badly. But still… the opportunity he was being given is too much to pass up, it’s finally his chance to show his master what he can actually do.
He feels a trickle of sweat run down the back of his neck as he brings his blue blade up into a salute to match his master. A moment of shared respect, and then the Master settles back into the familiar defensive posture that Obi-Wan has been trying for years to emulate. A slight pause as Obi-Wan tries to figure out the best way to attack his master, and then he launches.
With a fresh energy born of eagerness, he rains blows down upon his master. High, low, a thrust. Acrobatic leaps, changing angles, sliding footwork. Overhand, powerful strokes, as Obi-Wan makes pass after pass.
At the center of Obi-Wan’s fury, Qui-Gonn stands, parrying. Easily, patiently, without a hint of distress.
Qui-Gonn counters easily, almost lazily, batting aside his student’s attacks unhurriedly, never so much as shifting his footing. Obi-Wan becomes more and more angry, pulling back to hammer his attacks home, taking chances, leaving himself open more and more as he attempts to land a winning blow, to absolutely no avail. Finally he slows and comes to a stop, frustrated.
“Finished so soon, Padawan?” Qui-Gonn’s face reveals nothing. Obi-wan’s shoulders slump.
“I cannot break your defenses master.”
“Did I ever attack you Obi-Wan?”
“You did not, Master.”
“Do you feel as though you defeated me?”
“No, Master.” Obi-Wan is beginning to feel very small.
“If your opponent cannot defeat you, you cannot lose. Do you understand?”
“Yes, Master.” Obi-wan understood. He understood he could never be as good as Qui-Gonn. His master had made it look so easy, his blade, it seemed to Kenobi, had barely even been moving.
“Now, back to your training. Use the proxy droid. Only defend yourself. See how long you can last.” Qui-Gonn heads for the exit. Obi-Wan grits his teeth in frustration and readies himself to face his robotic opponent. At the door, Qui-Gonn pauses and looks back. “Obi-wan. I’m counting on you. Stay in that circle.”
The words register, even though Obi-wan struggles to keep a reaction off of his face. A renewed sense of determination wells in him as Qui-Gonn exits the room and the proxy droid prepares its attack. Defend the circle. That’s all he has to do.
The droid rushes toward him, lightsaber high, a leaping slash, and Kenobi catches the blow near the tip of his blade, forcing the attack down, and harmlessly away. The proxy doesn’t hesitate, not wasting time to raise the blade, and instead cutting at Kenobi’s ankles, attempting to throw off his balance. Obi-Wan resists the urge to leap over the blade, remembering how his master never moved his feet. He brings his blade down perpendicular to the temple floor. The proxy’s blow, without much power behind it, fades away. Obi-Wan sinks again into his defensive posture as the droid begins to circle, looking for an opening. He won’t find one, Kenobi decides, not today. He takes a deep breath and steadies himself as the enemy begins another attack.
“There they are.” Anakin’s voice jolts Obi-wan back to the present.
Right. Ryloth. Over the ridge came the enemy. In the early days of the war, Obi-Wan would be issuing orders, counting enemy numbers, trying to figure out enemy attack patterns. Now he only hunkers patiently in his trench, listening to the beating of his heart, to the pounding of the enemy’s troops as they pour over the ridge. It truly doesn’t matter what the enemy tries, his job will be the same. His job will be simple. Defend the circle.