I think I killed only like 15-18 or something I just made it seem like I killed a lot I'm going to maybe kill 2-3 more so where somewhere the same. Anyway I'm imagining a scene between Nate and Kal where Nate spills his gut and screams why he is so weak. Kal says something about it being his fault since he didn't see it sooner. Nate brings up his past and Kal says something on the line of at least you saved someone and Nate will grow as a character. :d
I'm happy with your character killing that many, just not in one post. It gives no time for any of the other characters to react. It also makes your posts sloppy and unfocused.
Also - That scene you just described is a bit too much anime filler for my taste. Character development doesn't happen at the drop of a hat. π¬