"Self-success" is a repugnant, barbarically asinine notion
Thinking you're going to go out there and "Win" friends and admiration with your "Winning" attitude is an example of ignorant thought on the highest level.
I don't want to hear it anymore, you don't earn anything in this world, you're either given respect and confidence, or you're not. You don't pull out your mother****ing ass. If you take in the first place it's not genuine, so **** it. Might as well assume control of everyone's thoughts and feelings then.
I believed in mind-control, the law of attraction. I believed that there was a pattern inherent in the grand design that was magnificent, grandiose, and purposeful for life and evolution. I was wrong. Now I'm a little more knowledgeable, whatever value that has, and unable to cope with life or excel.
Stop thinking we're headed for anything but Dystopia. Existence as it is for life, is demonstrated to have no purpose, it's chaos. I don't want to exist as an amoral bastard who hogs the life of others, abandoning them to despair, feeding off of the attention they could have, eat or get eaten, and neither should you.
Just note that the superior ones aren't necessarily the ones who inherit the attention that allows one to actualize, neither are the amoral individuals or the ignorant, just like everything else, it's a chaotic selection.
tl;dr - I didn't get my way and now I'm going back to my tent.