Originally posted by Esau CairnYou don't know what I've been through.
For someone who's still young...you sure think the world's done you wrong & owes you so much.
That's a fool's way of reasoning.Mature the F up,boy.
I'll mature, I'll get my life together, AFTER THE FACT THAT SHE LOVES ME
Don't test me, boy.
But like, why? You must recognize the way you're acting is not normal, or healthy in any capacity. Whatever you're feeling is not love. It may seem romanticized to you but it's not.
If anything, you're presumably terrifying this girl. If you cared for her as much as you say you do, you'd let her be her.
But instead bud, you're acting like, super selfishly and really scary. Nobody wants you to hurt yourself or anybody else but whatever you're feeling is causing you to lash out like this.
Originally posted by QuincyBecause I'm pain.
But like, why? You must recognize the way you're acting is not normal, or healthy in any capacity. Whatever you're feeling is not love. It may seem romanticized to you but it's not.If anything, you're presumably terrifying this girl. If you cared for her as much as you say you do, you'd let her be her.
But instead bud, you're acting like, super selfishly and really scary. Nobody wants you to hurt yourself or anybody else but whatever you're feeling is causing you to lash out like this.
I can't function from day to day.
Not just from her, from experiences. I'm terrified of her getting pregnant, and she already is pregnant yet I'm still petrified and mortified by the fear I had her getting pregnant.
I went off the deep end, I've lost control.
I'm long gone.
Originally posted by Oneness
Because I'm pain.I can't function from day to day.
Not just from her, from experiences. I'm terrified of her getting pregnant, and she already is pregnant yet I'm still petrified and mortified by the fear I had her getting pregnant.
I went off the deep end, I've lost control.
I'm long gone.
Well, Vicodin can be an unhealthy addiction that people need to kick.
I'm not sure I understand what the fear of her getting pregnant is based on. Because it's with somebody else?
Can you at least recognize the territorial and obsessive attitude you've displayed? I don't think there are any sane women who would want that in a partner. It seems like you need to be able to help yourself before helping your situation with this lady.
Originally posted by QuincyShe's my only help.
Well, Vicodin can be an unhealthy addiction that people need to kick.I'm not sure I understand what the fear of her getting pregnant is based on. Because it's with somebody else?
Can you at least recognize the territorial and obsessive attitude you've displayed? I don't think there are any sane women who would want that in a partner. It seems like you need to be able to help yourself before helping your situation with this lady.
I'm getting worse everyday. I can't control how miserable I am how cold everything is to me. You don't know what that's like, I even think there's a term for it. It's like a sociopath, except there is emotional stimuli, sadness.
The only escape is how she makes me feel when she writes these things:
"You are beautiful, unique, amazing. you are the earth and stars and moon. Never settle for someone who treats you like anything less than perfect."
And other than these simple things for me, she's been cold, frill, pale, I'm on off the deep end, I would have killed myself a few moments ago but after she blocked me on facebook I made another account and wrote to her.
If she says nothing I'll have to go to her house. And if she wants to finish me off I can't go on like this.
Because nice guys finish last.
She wants me to be territorial.