On paper I should be a complete basket case. If you want to listen to the "experts" I have a lot of anxiety including agoraphobia, type 1 bipolar disorder, depression, psychosis, body dismorphia, borderline personality disorder(BPD), alcoholism, PTSD, and for awhile they thought I had some slight paranoid schizophrenia and anorexia but I honestly think that's BS. The only ones I think I truly have are the anxieties, bi polar 1, depression, alcoholism, borderline, and body dismorphia.
Some of it is inherited cause my mom an especially my dad aren't the most sane, but they manage to live just fine. My mother doesn't like talking about it and my dad just flat out believes mental illness isn't real and just people being weak. I stopped going to the "professionals" cause I started to realize a lot of it was nonsense and it always bothered me how they said my dreams and goals were unrealistic due to my delusions from illness, not the fact I'm confident. I haven't taken medication my entire life for any of it though cause I can manage when I change into that positive mindset, cause I realize it's all in my head, mainly when I noticed I could bring about my own change from where I'm at in life by actually putting in the work instead of being stuck inside a perpetual state of self loathing. When I became super healthy a lot of those ceased due to the constant excercise, and eating habits, but lately I've been kinda pulled back into it all and have found myself drinking heavily once more.
I would never change how I feel cause though cause the emotional struggles push me to strive for a positive way out, an towards my goals, sorta like my disorders are just emotional weight training. An I'm proud to say I haven't made an attempt on my life for over 3 years and am still hanging in strong, I'd rather live and be able to help others with their issues and make them aware that it does get better and they're not alone in their struggle even though it can definitely feel that way sometimes.
Things could always be worse and I've learned that, like the other night I went to someone's house and immediately left cause in the bathroom they had no toilet paper just a pair of pants coated in corn shit that people used. I'm hard up for trying to find new friends, but not that bad.
Originally posted by YamchaYou should tell the therapists that it isn't their place to tell you what you can and can't do.
On paper I should be a complete basket case. If you want to listen to the "experts" I have a lot of anxiety including agoraphobia, type 1 bipolar disorder, depression, psychosis, body dismorphia, borderline personality disorder(BPD), alcoholism, PTSD, and for awhile they thought I had some slight paranoid schizophrenia and anorexia but I honestly think that's BS. The only ones I think I truly have are the anxieties, bi polar 1, depression, alcoholism, borderline, and body dismorphia.Some of it is inherited cause my mom an especially my dad aren't the most sane, but they manage to live just fine. My mother doesn't like talking about it and my dad just flat out believes mental illness isn't real and just people being weak. I stopped going to the "professionals" cause I started to realize a lot of it was nonsense and it always bothered me how they said my dreams and goals were unrealistic due to my delusions from illness, not the fact I'm confident. I haven't taken medication my entire life for any of it though cause I can manage when I change into that positive mindset, cause I realize it's all in my head, mainly when I noticed I could bring about my own change from where I'm at in life by actually putting in the work instead of being stuck inside a perpetual state of self loathing. When I became super healthy a lot of those ceased due to the constant excercise, and eating habits, but lately I've been kinda pulled back into it all and have found myself drinking heavily once more.
I would never change how I feel cause though cause the emotional struggles push me to strive for a positive way out, an towards my goals, sorta like my disorders are just emotional weight training. An I'm proud to say I haven't made an attempt on my life for over 3 years and am still hanging in strong, I'd rather live and be able to help others with their issues and make them aware that it does get better and they're not alone in their struggle even though it can definitely feel that way sometimes.
Things could always be worse and I've learned that, like the other night I went to someone's house and immediately left cause in the bathroom they had no toilet paper just a pair of pants coated in corn shit that people used. I'm hard up for trying to find new friends, but not that bad.
Originally posted by Jmanghan
Well. For example, I played this game, Gaiaonline, tried talking to people, and was met with "LOL".I hate when people do that when talking about something normal, it just sounds like its a mocking thing.
I have also have trust issues with women.
If a lot of people are like me they type "lol" because they have nothing else to say but they still want to type something.
I have trust issues against women, but it is mostly because I was unfortunate enough to date like 3 hoes in a row.
Originally posted by Kharhmah
Depression, anxiety, my doctor also thinks I could have social phobia as well.
I also have hypothyroidism and PCOS.That's it as far as I know.
edit: I also have an extremely severe case of Batrachophobia/Ranidaphobia
your afraid of amphibians?
guess everyone has there do's and don'ts
there is nothing wrong with being alone in life, yes it hurts and you feel so empty and eventually crave the feeling of fufilness you had with someone close to you.
its the madness of it all, the madness is how you deal with it.
push yourself to breaking point or seep into despair and pain, it makes no diffrence.we all end up needing someone, we need someone to motivate oursselves so we can be better then we are.
but when we have no one... hell is suddenly surrounding you and the thin veiled facade that is reality is your prison