help

hi everyone im really deprssed right now because i lied to my good friend I LIED TO A FRIEND!!!! i NEVER EVER lied to a friend before ok this is all how i got f***ed up on saturdy it was the day of her birthday party but i had 95 dollers i wanted to spend and so did carrie (my best friends gf) so i woke up at 830 and drove to stephens (my best friend) so his mom bought me a pack of smokes & a beer for when i came back (i refuse to drink and drive even if its 1 beer) we went shopping and when we were eating i told stephen how i waz a lil pissed at jessi & danielle for trying to bribe me with money not to go to amys (i like to always keep my word when i say ill be somewhere i WILL be there) but stephen always knows how to get through to me he was like jenny i dont care what you do its all up to you but you should tell amy your sick and dont feel like going anywhere or something and tell your mom your on your way to amys then just spend the night at my house & that we can get as drunk as we want so thats what i did i got reallyt drunk took 15 pills (dont even know what they were called) and went out all drunk high & drugged up and stole a fishing pole a cd player a 50 cent cd headphones a tackle box with alot of s**t in it and we got the boat to start and rode that around....ok none of this is even the point the point is im taking all these drugs and getting really drunk then lying to really good friends breaking promises with other best friends and worse of all cheating on my boyfriend when im drunk or high or both i dont know what to do anymore...all these drugs are taking over my life & breaking up my friendships & tearing the best relationship ive ever had with a guy and worse of all this s**T is going to end up killing me what should i do cuse i have no idea....

Errr... I am afraid I am not well versed in dealing with real-life problems like these... though I can offer you sympathy and a hug, if you want?

Ok. Kinda confusing but I think I got the point. How about coming clean with everybody?Asking for help in the real world.

I was indeed confused for a second as well. Best thing to do is what Kes said; come clean. If your friends are really your friends, then they will find it in their hearts to forgive you. The best thing to do now is get help with your drug problem. 🙂

thanks for your help you guys it really means the world to me but the thing is i dont know how to get the help i need because i dont want my parents finding out...

Ok, let's start with the basics.

Can you simply stop taking the drugs or is that now too hard?

You need to do some soul searching, find out if you are at the place (in your life) where you really want to be. (sounds like you're not)

Plus, I am super pissed and angry that someone's "Mom" would buy you smokes and beer...I am not preaching here, but that is totally irresponsible... 😠 😠

*same suggestion as the people here: stop taking*

How old are you?
Is there a friend that is a bad influence? Cos if there is its best you stop seeing that person.

It seems like you are irresponsible and know you are doing wrong. I don't take a lot of peoples sympathy when it comes to drugs and drinking. Yes you were influence by the wrong crowd. I been through hell with people I am with but I make sure I don't do anything I regret.

People expecially teens like myself (thank god I am getting out of that) complain about peer presure and all that crap. I been through peer presure and I survived. These teens think they can do all this crap and not worry about it. Jesus Christ think of your family.

Sorry I just deal with so many of my friends doing this type of stuff that it pisses me off. And I am the one that cleans up the mess.

I am sorry you are going through this but I think you need to tell your parents and stop lying.

And no parent should be buying you drinks.

I sound like an adult and I am only 19.

Wow I need a break.

yeh. A vacation maybe.

See what immature people do to yeah!

lol

Hmm. I am not sure a confrotational attitude is 100% useful, though.

MGG, CAN you get off the drugs under your own willpower?

Sometimes a "slap around" is what is needed though...

Tell your parents before they find out on their own...that is your first step in getting straight.

It was usefull for my friend... When I yelled at her... But I don't know how usefull it can be online.

Trust me it sounds better when you are face to face.

Anyway I am sorry if I sound mean but hell it is the god affull truth.

She doesn't know either of you. A 'slap around' will most likely only alienate and then we cannot help at all.

True... Trust me I thought of that before I posted that up but everytime I end up saying I am sorry... It ends up not doing anything. Plus the fact I dealt with a lot of this issue wether online or off. Ussually direct answers help.

Not that what I said was a good thing for I am sure I could have worded better but hell I needed that out of my sytem.

MGG: Just pm I will talk to you (I will not flip out). I dealt with this before.

That should help.

Better then yelling.

thank you guys so so much for your advice thats all i wanted was advice thank you everyone fopr helping me out i can say yes i am hanging with the wrong crowd but the thing is this crowd is like my family they are my family there the only real family i got and if it wasnt for all these people i would have killed myself (i was verey sucididal before i met these guys)

love
jenny