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but did you read that post?

100, pft, she still young.

i still so tired

Originally posted by Dave_97
L.A.M. -

" I keep coming back to this dark place.
to this place of meaning for me.
I built these walls, I shut out the light.
this home is mine.

I asked for this burden.
I demanded these tests.
I wished for meaning.

I always thought there was a sense of beauty in the darkness.
a still, black, cold embrace.

If i could break myself down, could i rebuild?
my constant questions left unanswered by a world i despise.
It wasnt supposed to be like this, it wasnt supposed to go so wrong.
it consumed me, chaos held its ground.

a look in the mirror brings pain, sight into myself as a being so hideously wrecked by the mistakes of a guilted past.

this beauty i held to close to my heart, destroyed me.
ive damned myself to this state.

with all my dreams shattered.
with all my heroes gone.
what is there in this abyss?
my self.
my pain.
my life. "

not too bad i think.

bumping this shit.

where's that from? hmm

cant ****ing believe this facepalm
today is gonna be terribad, i know it facepalm

why will it be so bad?

i wrote it, its the base concept/theme for the book i never finished.

Everyone was in a bad mood this morning. Especially my sister cause she was up late playing COD so she was extra bitchy. I was able to cool the flames by letting my parents and brother go on and I drove myself and my sister out to the party.

Pretty nifty. It's very deep and leaves a lot of room for expantion.

i started writing it when i was 16.

but now im thinking about redoing it, you know, adding some fiction elements to it.

the father character was so bland and so unhuman, so im going to use myself as a mirror for him.

i hope i can get into the groove to write this again, i really do.
ive learned a lot about writing since then, and even though its the last thing i ever wrote, im hoping i can get over this hump.

why did i pick such a great time to quit smoking? i cant be a writer and not smoke.
what the dick.

whatever, imma try it.
stick to my convictions and all that.

everyone is always in a bad mood on sundays.
its why i dont believe in sundays.

only monday part one and part two.

also, i screwed that up, its not L.A.M.
its N.A.M. I always did that, even when i first started it and would talk about it.

but, with DSSG on the down, and supnoir still not going anywhere, all thats left is my own thing, or SCHLIVD (i use codes for titles of things, So that i dont tip off the CIA and they dont steal more of my ideas)

It's very interesting. If you ever released it, I'd definitley read it. hmm
I hate having to come up with titles, I always have trouble.

well.... that was.... interesting to say the least
weird, but not in a bad way
i need to sleep on this shit, i dunno how to process it at the moment

i dunno if i'll do it or not.

its so hard to sit down and write a book.

Originally posted by Dave_97
i dunno if i'll do it or not.

its so hard to sit down and write a book.

ive clearly got the talent for writing, i just dont because i cant really get into that groove.

well, once you find the secret formula for that groove, hopefully you can get to writing

hopefully.

i havent told anyone im thinking about it yet.
i just want to write up a few pages and hand it out and watch all my friend be like "What the ****, YOU can write?"

😂

they dont really know me that well, even though we;'ve been friends for years, i just cant talk to them.

that has to suck some ass

im so uncomfortable around them.