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we're messed.

i know its because of this city, i know its because of my family.
in quebec i was happy, when i came back i was happy and it steadily declined into all this mess of negative bullshit.
the way i was before, but without the anger.

i know right?

mine's from how i've been treated by others. i was always shoved aside and ignored and backstabbed and whatnot by people and family. not so much my parents or siblings, but more cousins and aunts and uncles and such *le sigh*

maybe thats what life is all about.

maybe its supposed to be this confusing emotional ride filled to the brim with questions we cant answer.

im always going to ask the what if's of the future.
what if there is someone better for her.
what if im holding her back, keeping her from happiness.

my lack of happiness doesnt bother me.
its the lack of everybody elses.

its why i want to be a martyr so badly, i can take the hit, and everybody else can be happy.
i think that's so beautiful in some strange way.
i think too much.

maybe we're just depressed.

meds might do the trick.
according to christie, before she walked out on me, meds helped her.

she takes that all away, just by speaking.

to me, thats the most amazing thing.

ive tried meds before, and they didnt agree with me
sure theyve changed since i stopped taking them, but having to take them would mean that i have to start therapy again, and i hated therapy
but hey, i have a psych evaluation that's part of the surgery pre-steps, so if they think i need it, i wont object
i just hope i don't **** up between now and then and end up driving him away

well, im always gonna listen to the relationship drama. haermm
its what friends are for.

so you know, i am here to e-slap some sense into you.

also, chips are fantastic.

yeah, venting made me happy, and i would've if you werent here to listen.
friendship ftw

with Mike, im starting to feel happier than i have in a long time out in the real world. out there, i just shut myself off, sure, once in a while ill find a person or two who i can connect with on a shallow level, like we have a few similarities, but eventually, it's not enough, i end up driving them away or they just end up ditching me.
but now, i can finally talk to someone without having to hold my tongue on subjects. like, you were the first person i could talk to online, but now it's gone a step further in a another person, a person in real life who i can talk to face to face and i can't help but be happy about it.

Originally posted by Dave_97
well, im always gonna listen to the relationship drama. haermm
its what friends are for.

so you know, i am here to e-slap some sense into you.

also, chips are fantastic.

yeah, venting made me happy, and i would've if you werent here to listen.
friendship ftw

only think better is bacon droolio

seeeee???

love rocks, yo.

that it does
time for some Foreigner w00t

YouTube video

both joel and janna said "have you been working out?"
and not in a joking way.

Originally posted by Dave_97
both joel and janna said "have you been working out?"
and not in a joking way.

oh shit, Evil Dead 2 is on
dunno if ill stay up to watch it all though

i told them that i had been.

evil dead 2 rocks

it doesn, it's like right at the beginning too
im tempted to at least stay up until he cuts off his hand

aww, i was expecting you to say something witty

well normally i am witty.
but, i had nothin

i always hated this part, where Ash's gf's corpse is dancing
the stop motion animation always creeped me out
still does shock

it was well done though

very