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Originally posted by rudester
No. Why do you ask? Crystal meth destroys brain cells, multiples very fast and damages nerve veins causing a shit show of basic motor control. It also includes memory recall when you stop taking it, so that you become dependent of it!

Poppers is even worse. Poppers has the basics chemical compound they use to bond plastic. It increases heart rates, and can damage brain function over time. If you have a heart condition already you are just speeding up the damage. Highly flammable. Not meant to touch the skin as it will burn your nose. Deadly if you consume it.

Viagra and Poppers are a death wish. Viagra works by triggering the heart rate and poppers does too, when combined together you create the perfect conditions for heart palpitations that can lead to a heart attack if you stimulate the heart to much. This is why you never ever create a chemical cocktail, because drugs aren't meant to be taken together!

So to answer your question! No, I do not take any form of party and play because I do not want to end up ugly, old looking and retarded because I did something for a minute.

Drugs leads to homelessness, speeds up aging, creates mental health issues, and makes people not want to be near you. It's also expensive, alienates your family and friends, plus increases chance of getting other STI infections.

but im proud of you for remaining sober! dont do things just bc others do

Right now you are able to communicate with me, this might mean you haven't reached a point where you're nervous system is damaged and you have a strong tolerance, but it's only a matter of time before you understand what you lost.

You lose yourself. You lose your health. You lose the ability to distinguish right from wrong, you become irritable easily, you pick fights with anyone because you become overly paranoid. You stop paying bills like the internet because you want to get more drugs. You start to age faster then people you're own age. Your skin gets jaundice and becomes like leather all yellow. You experience rapid weight loss. You weaken your immune system and you start to get Chlymedia, Gonorrhea, Syphilis, Harpers, HPV, HIV, and other STIs. Then one day you find yourself living in a tent not being able to feed yourself thinking about the good old days.

Drugs are a choice Mang.

look, drugs are all about variety, restraint and moderation. i just binge every now and then, i'm only addicted to cannabis (which isnt good for me either!). other drugs i dont take nearly enough to **** myself up, other than physically, i could give myself a heart attack with all the coke i do

trust me. everything in moderation, including moderation!

besides, i know a meth addict who has been using for years, has no psychosis, memory loss, they hold down a high paying job and are romantically stable. some ppl can just function on drugs.

Originally posted by rudester
Drugs are a choice Mang.

Originally posted by Scribble
look, drugs are all about variety, restraint and moderation. i just binge every now and then, i'm only addicted to cannabis (which isnt good for me either!). other drugs i dont take nearly enough to **** myself up, other than physically, i could give myself a heart attack with all the coke i do

trust me. everything in moderation, including moderation!

besides, i know a meth addict who has been using for years, has no psychosis, memory loss, they hold down a high paying job and are romantically stable. some ppl can just function on drugs.

I have had friends who've said that very same thing and now they are homeless and practically vegetables.

You asked me why I don't do drugs. I did do drugs in my 20's. It was short lived experience because I found out I had a heart defect
. I should have gotten HIV many times over but some how never have. Also work in the medical field for many years and saw first hand what each drug does. I even had a crack head meth addict neighbor and watched his body being taken away after an overdose.

However, I am also religious something many people would be skeptical about but I have had such a religious upbringing that it's taken me a long time to form my own beliefs and my own perspective about what God is.

One of the best experiences of my life was meeting one of my friends who happens to suffer from a mental condition. Funny thing is he has the mind of a savant genius but the personality of a young child, pure of sin. He knows not to sin and is always stern when he does anything he considers a sin, why even looking at girls will result in a bible study. And for some weird reason I want to be him, to have a child like innocence and go back to being pure! My god there was a time in my life were I would hang out with evil sinful people and i realized that wasn't what I wanted to be. I had cultivated this idea of who I wanted to be but everytime I tried something went wrong and I would get stuck. Things wouldn't go my way. I reached a point where I was broke and alone, and all I wanted to do was find drugs and sex. I am choosing to be the person I want to be so that I can slowly become someone I'm proud of. I'd rather be alone and lonely then be in a room full of dead people who don't deserve my attention!

Being queer is hard. But I think you don't have to be a cliche of all queer culture. You can find meaningful relationships but you need to set boundaries and have high standards for yourself.

I'm rambling on. Drink some juice or make a smoothie so the meth can hold on to something in your stomach. Lemon water, tumeric and ginger is a good detox.

If you are doing meth alone that's just weird 😂

Originally posted by Scribble
some ppl can just function on drugs.

Your Keith Richards, Ozzy Osbournes, your Lemmy Kilmisters when he was still alive out drank and out drugged pretty much anyone.

Originally posted by rudester
I have had friends who've said that very same thing and now they are homeless and practically vegetables.

You asked me why I don't do drugs. I did do drugs in my 20's. It was short lived experience because I found out I had a heart defect
. I should have gotten HIV many times over but some how never have. Also work in the medical field for many years and saw first hand what each drug does. I even had a crack head meth addict neighbor and watched his body being taken away after an overdose.

However, I am also religious something many people would be skeptical about but I have had such a religious upbringing that it's taken me a long time to form my own beliefs and my own perspective about what God is.

One of the best experiences of my life was meeting one of my friends who happens to suffer from a mental condition. Funny thing is he has the mind of a savant genius but the personality of a young child, pure of sin. He knows not to sin and is always stern when he does anything he considers a sin, why even looking at girls will result in a bible study. And for some weird reason I want to be him, to have a child like innocence and go back to being pure! My god there was a time in my life were I would hang out with evil sinful people and i realized that wasn't what I wanted to be. I had cultivated this idea of who I wanted to be but everytime I tried something went wrong and I would get stuck. Things wouldn't go my way. I reached a point where I was broke and alone, and all I wanted to do was find drugs and sex. I am choosing to be the person I want to be so that I can slowly become someone I'm proud of. I'd rather be alone and lonely then be in a room full of dead people who don't deserve my attention!

Being queer is hard. But I think you don't have to be a cliche of all queer culture. You can find meaningful relationships but you need to set boundaries and have high standards for yourself.

I'm rambling on. Drink some juice or make a smoothie so the meth can hold on to something in your stomach. Lemon water, tumeric and ginger is a good detox.

tonight i'm only smoking meth bc i had some leftover from a month ago. i took a bunch of meth and then didnt wanna touch it until tonight for some reason

also something about my life rn is that the purest, more innocent person in my life is actually my drug buddy

Originally posted by Nuke Nixon
Your Keith Richards, Ozzy Osbournes, your Lemmy Kilmisters when he was still alive out drank and out drugged pretty much anyone.

i just dont think im one for hard drug addictions. ive taken crack, coke, heroin, meth, none of them have particularly stirred me to want more-more-more. i got dopesick briefly this year after smoking heroin for too many days in a row but i didnt buy more. im so-so with hard drugs mostly, none of them call out to me to abuse hardcore style, other than coke, which is too expensive to get addicted to like i get addicted to stuff.

my only real addiction is to cannabis. when the other drugs run out i still have weed, that helps me wanting more of the harder stuff, bc i got my smoke to keep me steady.

i think ppl are just built differently. some get addicted and ruin their lives or die. others maintain jobs and relationships and mostly got it under wraps. drug addicts can be productive when they aren't so addicted to the point of wanting to do nothing else in the day. i have interests other than drugs. they're just to take the edge off life once in a while.

anyway rudester how can u be christian if ur gay?? u know their holy book of love says to kill ppl like both you (gay men) and me (trans/gnc) using stones in the name of God, right? the commandment to kill gay men is literally chapter 3!! god wants us dead!

Point of order there, Chief, as I understand it the stone teh gays thing was in ye olde testament so therefore it's mostly a historical record of what used to be protocol for gays. Now once this Jesus fellow came around and annoyed so many people with his confusing parables and oddly effective magiks, he made the statement;
“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”
Now Christians may not like this but if they do follow his word then they are bound to love teh gays and not stone them unto a painful death. They can still give gays the Eyebrow of Discouragement and may not wish to sit with them at the potluck but that's about it.
Islam is where the real nasty stuff happens, currently in those countries gays get all manner of inconvenient deaths for being themselves, and yet none of the progressive LGBT crowd seem to give 2 shits in the wind for their oppressed brothers and sisters, so I guess we live in Bizarro Clownworld.

idk non-western Christian cultures can be every bit as violently homophobic as islam, just look at parts of Africa. conversely, some muslim countries have backwards if functional trans rights and healthcare. although some force gay men to either die, stop being gay, or turn into a woman so his attraction isnt sinful.

and christ also said:

"Don’t misunderstand why I have come. I did not come to abolish the law of Moses or the writings of the prophets. No, I came to accomplish their purpose. I tell you the truth, until heaven and earth disappear, not even the smallest detail of God’s law will disappear until its purpose is achieved. So if you ignore the least commandment and teach others to do the same, you will be called the least in the Kingdom of Heaven."

no shade to you if you're a christian, my issues are with the religions (i generally despise christianity, islam and judaism) not the ppl who practice them, unless they're trying to u know, oppress or harm me

That's kind of why people have a problem with christianity the counterintuitive statements, things that are commandments but cancel out other things, idk it's a mystery to me. If the religion doesn't run on logic then it's probably not worth doing.
I was raised fundamental evangelical... until I reached the age of reason. I'd like to
think it was good stuff but I know too much about how people suck and corrupt
everything.

I was a Christian briefly once. Few months, weird spiritual experience. Now I'm a pantheistic heathen. Worship of nature, for nature is God, we are all part of nature, we are all part of God. I see no difference between the divine, the mundane and the infernal; they are all found here on Earth, and throughout the cosmos. Of course there's a God, I'm part of it, and if I am sentient, intelligent, then so is God. I believe in intelligent self-design, that God exists as matter (material) and idea (intelligence) as a self-creating, self-replicating being that encompasses all living things; all of reality.

Jesus, I think, is the most misunderstood aspect of Christianity.

Perhaps he did say: "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another", as you quoted before,

But did he not in the same life state: "Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and one’s foes will be members of one’s own household" (Matthew 10:34-36).

Contradictions indeed! Mao would have had a field day. In fact, I wonder if Mao ever wrote anything on Christianity. I should look it up. I doubt you're a Mao fanboy, but you should check out his essay, "On Contradiction", it's a very clear and simple dissemination of dialectical materialism and in particular the role that mass contradictions play in our daily lives. To note, I'm not a communist nor even a Marxist myself, I just think this essay is really great.

Originally posted by Scribble
anyway rudester how can u be christian if ur gay?? u know their holy book of love says to kill ppl like both you (gay men) and me (trans/gnc) using stones in the name of God, right? the commandment to kill gay men is literally chapter 3!! god wants us dead!

It's really my own belief system and my own relationship with God. I studied the Bible during the pandemic with a bunch of bible thumpers but mainly to fight my own personal demons.

However I did find a church nearby that accepts queers and was welcoming. I am just deciding for myself what kind of person I would like to be.

Originally posted by Scribble
i just dont think im one for hard drug addictions. ive taken crack, coke, heroin, meth, none of them have particularly stirred me to want more-more-more. i got dopesick briefly this year after smoking heroin for too many days in a row but i didnt buy more. im so-so with hard drugs mostly, none of them call out to me to abuse hardcore style, other than coke, which is too expensive to get addicted to like i get addicted to stuff.

my only real addiction is to cannabis. when the other drugs run out i still have weed, that helps me wanting more of the harder stuff, bc i got my smoke to keep me steady.

i think ppl are just built differently. some get addicted and ruin their lives or die. others maintain jobs and relationships and mostly got it under wraps. drug addicts can be productive when they aren't so addicted to the point of wanting to do nothing else in the day. i have interests other than drugs. they're just to take the edge off life once in a while.

You don't need to take drugs every single day to do serious damage, you're body has a way of recalling back all those times you did meth. The nervous system is basically the warning system in you're body to tell it when it is in danger, when something is hot and cold etc. As we get older we start to break down and depending how healthy we are and how we've lived, it starts to ware us down. I don't know how else to explain it, but I've seen enough meth heads to know they started off like you. You are just at the beginning stage and here you are thinking you have things under control. Not worth it.

Originally posted by Scribble
Jesus, I think, is the most misunderstood aspect of Christianity.

Perhaps he did say: "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another", as you quoted before,

But did he not in the same life state: "Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and one’s foes will be members of one’s own household" (Matthew 10:34-36).

Contradictions indeed! Mao would have had a field day. In fact, I wonder if Mao ever wrote anything on Christianity. I should look it up. I doubt you're a Mao fanboy, but you should check out his essay, "On Contradiction", it's a very clear and simple dissemination of dialectical materialism and in particular the role that mass contradictions play in our daily lives. To note, I'm not a communist nor even a Marxist myself, I just think this essay is really great.

I think everyone's belief system should be personal. When people take the word of god for themselves and twist those words to order people and tell them what to do and how to live their lives is dangerous.

I do think there are a lot of quacks when it comes to religion in general. However there are good people who actually believe the word of god and won't try and manipulate you into becoming a member but will try to teach you something.

In truth, it's a spiritual journey that you take for yourself. Jesus hanged out with Mary Magdalene and other sinners because he saw them as equals. It's not so much that I want to go around converting people, but rather trying to understand the universal meaning behind the scriptures--what are they trying to say?

One of my favorite passages that has stuck with me for years now is 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

You can take it as a grain of salt and believe in what you want, I will not try to sell you on Jesus.

However when you sorround yourself with winners you are a winner, when you sorround yourself with losers, well. 😊