For You
I sit here as my mind takes me to the guy with no love
andI wonder why? That with his shy smile and his lost eyes does he feel like this
Then i see his pain....
As the rage builds up inside i ask myself why?
Why has the love turned to hate...
I sit there and wait for his dad to take his next blow
and i stand my ground and say no!
This is wrong! 'Look at him' i yell
This boy was made out of love not hate!!
He is not a punchbag but your son.
I know you have problems but hitting him aint the answer'
As a cold tears burns into my face i ask my daddy why?
"Why is it that i lock my heart off from all men but he has the key?
Why is it that my unbeating heart now beats?
Why was I brought to this place...was it more than an accident?
Daddy was this all your doing? Did you give him the key to my heart?
Did you clear ther path and lead me here?
Was he given to me for a reason?
If so Why daddy?"
They say love has no limits. That love can move mountains.
But how can my love save him?
Is it right to feel this way?
"Daddy will the love i feel for him help? I hope so daddy....Here goes"
Babe i give you my heart as i gift.....As a way out from all this darkness and pain.
I know right now it means so little but like a seed it will grow.
Love has no limits....Love can move mountains but deep down I hope
That my love will be strong enough to set you free and light up your life.
Somehow your in my heart and thats where your gonna stay
Questions???
I never thought I’d have a reason to question God and his plans,
But this specific event I want God to lead me through it, holding me by the hand.
But since that just can’t happen, I’ll ask him and hope he hears,
And if he does, I want him to send me some answers so I can wipe away my tears.
What kind of plan is this?
Why does it have to be them?
At 17 years old, I DON’T want to have to say goodbye to dearest freind.
Why does it have to happen to such good people, when there are thousands upon thousands of people who don’t deserve to live?
Why didn’t you watch them closer, and push death out of their way?
Why do you need them now, couldn’t you take them a different day?
Will you help me overcome this empty feeling, that I have deep inside?
Can’t you see the tears I am crying, don’t you understand my pain? I have this empty feeling, its making me go insane!
Why didn’t you give us a chance, to say our last goodbyes?
Why’d you take them without a warning, cant you hear all our cries?
I’d do anything to see his face, and to feel his warm touch, its him I miss, I miss so very much!
I shouldn’t have to go through this, it just isn’t right. I don’t want to have to spend each day without him by my side.
What was your purpose for this, what kind of reason do you have? I wish you would of made it clearer so we could all understand!
Now when I visit him, I am the only one who talks. I know he can see me, and want me to not be sad, but its so very hard, because this makes me so damn mad!
I want to say I love you , and I want to hear it back, I wanted to say it when I could of said it to his face.
I want to make sure he knows that no one can replace, that he wont be forgotten or the memories that took place.
I want to say that I miss him, and I want to hear it back, God will you help get through this, for its strength that I lack.
Let him be my angels, that watch me from above, let him be my savior, and you can help he cause. . .
You are the one with all the answers and the big plans for lives, let him lead me in the direction, the direction of MY life.
Let him be around me, let him hear my words.
Let him wait up there for me, when my time has come.
Let him be there waiting, with smiles and a hug.
I don’t want a reason to be mad at you God, but its almost hard not to be, you need to answer my questions God, I beg you and I plead.
Is it so hard for a girl to love her daddy!!!!!
my father...
You never loved me..
you never cared
I dont need you
i care for nothing nor no one
its because of you i feel like this
you are killing me inside
my heart is locked inside darkness
its so cold..
i sit on the ground waiting for someone to hold me
i see your eyes
i shiver...i break...i cry
you never cared for me or my sister...
to me...you are dead...my life...it has no meaning
you are no better then the one with my brothers blood upon his hands
i dont know whats worth fighting for..so why do i?
no one should be scared to dream...to sleep
but its because of you my father...that im terrifide
mother...you stand by and watch...i dont know y
all I want is for someone to free me...im traped
i cry screaming out in pain..no one hears me
i stay alone...its what i want...
i want this...so i dont end up like you
.....my father...
Have I Ever....
Have I ever told you
that if I sit really still and silent,
sometimes. I like to think
I can hear your heart beating
in time with mine?
Have I ever told you
that when I watch you speak to me
through lines and cords,
and bytes and ram,
I imagine, your voice,
whispering into my ear?
Have I ever told you
that I wait out each day
in anticipation, wanting
only an hour or two,
just a second in space and time,
to feel close to you?
Have I ever told you
that there has been times,
when I ached for you,
ached for you so badly,
that the emotions overwhelmed me..
and so I sat and cried?
Have I ever told you
that sometimes,
I will reach out,
touching your name
on this cold screen before me,
wishing I could reach in
and pull you to me?
Have I ever told you
that I would give everything up,
just for one night
to be able to lay near you,
to feel your chest rise and fall
with each breath you take,
just to know that you are real?
Have I ever told you
that I dream of you often,
I dream of you reaching out
and touching my hand,
simply to let me know
that you are there,
and everything is okay?
Have I ever told you,
have I still yet to tell you . . .
that I love you?
is this love?...
i never thought that i would find love.
i have found you
god brought you to me
my chest hurts so badly for you
it burns me
you cry for me...because you love me
your tears...i see my reflection in them
im falling slowly...
catch your tears
never let them fall
soon i will be with the one i love
soon you will see the one i love is you
i will hold you forever in my arms
crying these tears of pearls...
i weep because i chose to..
not because i have to...
tell me...is this love?...
Ya I'm to tired to think up another poem... in Canada it's 7:30pm(Ya i know thats still early..)
Fine...
Footsteps hide the sadness we feel
For I hold the birdon of doom
Because tonight was the night of sadness
For the stars and the moon
When the police arrived to see what happened
They said I was to blame
I told them it wasn't my fault
But they said that my story was lame
Ya I know it's too short but I honestly don't care you guys can add to it if you want to...
I sit here as tears run down my face...
Was it just a game.was it all lies
The soft words you say to me
The poetry you wrote for me
The pictures you gave me...
The tears you shed...
Did I mean nothing! But I good laugh.
Well I gave you songs of love
and words from my heart on paper
I would have given you the world if you asked
you see all that i done was a gift.....kinda like my heart
But then i had that Pm...
that hit me like a stick.........How could you Luke
You told me your heart only beats for me....
Was that a lie too...
God im so confused
i need answers and need them now!!!
That poem you gave me...Is it mine alone
So I ask you all this........before it too late...
Originally posted by White Lady
I sit here as tears run down my face...
Was it just a game.was it all lies
The soft words you say to me
The poetry you wrote for me
The pictures you gave me...
The tears you shed...
Did I mean nothing! But I good laugh.
Well I gave you songs of love
and words from my heart on paper
I would have given you the world if you asked
you see all that i done was a gift.....kinda like my heart
But then i had that Pm...
that hit me like a stick.........How could you Luke
You told me your heart only beats for me....
Was that a lie too...
God im so confused
i need answers and need them now!!!
That poem you gave me...Is it mine alone
So I ask you all this........before it too late...
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