hi my name is alex i luv wat uve writen im the same i want 2 die just like u but uve probably hear all that before....and so hav i........i hope u dont mide but im going 2 put 1 of my poems up here and i hope that ppl who come here 2 read ur poem read 1 of mine 2......
Today is the day the world ends. many ppl in this world ready 4 death. knowing their fate, they are prepared. the days that hav been wasted they regret. pain is the hour of the day. waiting is just a wast of time 4 them. getting old and gray.....living is a wast of death and death is a wast of living.......they stand 2gether as they c the dark hand of death approch. in the end it is dark.....
Originally posted by darkangel6969
hi my name is alex i luv wat uve writen im the same i want 2 die just like u but uve probably hear all that before....and so hav i........i hope u dont mide but im going 2 put 1 of my poems up here and i hope that ppl who come here 2 read ur poem read 1 of mine 2......Today is the day the world ends. many ppl in this world ready 4 death. knowing their fate, they are prepared. the days that hav been wasted they regret. pain is the hour of the day. waiting is just a wast of time 4 them. getting old and gray.....living is a wast of death and death is a wast of living.......they stand 2gether as they c the dark hand of death approch. in the end it is dark.....
for one, what makes you think i want to die, my words are dark yes, so, learn from them read them do what u will with them. life is a gift, even if dark, i entend to learn in it.
i dont write anymore.
i said i dont write anymore..i dont, somehow, i cant, not like i used to, i guess u could say its a good thing, i dunno why im doing this, but i miss it, the pain in the words, i cant bring that back in my writing. and i hate it..was it the lies that made me hate myself, but give me the gift to write like i once did. typing to no one but myself. if i close my eyes for one last time will i lose it forever?, was it the lack of sleep that caused my bloodshot eyes? what was it that hit me and made me want to write here everynight, was it the people i knew, was it something that happend that day? if so, why cant i do it anymore....i want that darkness back....come back.....
grip me close in the winter sound
take a walk with me down the dark allyway and find my sinfuly pleasures thumping like my rotting heart
call the reaper my time is coming
there is no desterney
take a ride on the wings of the night in darkness delight
im a posind lie
ive seen what ive become and what i was
sleepless nights without that darkness
come back...come back...
i was ment for this, i was put here for that reason, give it back, come back, i miss you....you took it away when i didnt want it...now i live to taste it again...please.....
make me that dark hearted person again....
throns around my wrists again
i found it
"ive found you finaly" says the cold voice of a fimular face
hes back
he chose me!!! IM FOR THIS!!!
a rivers beauty in your eyes drowning your cold cheeks
turn my back to you in the cold
i would never let you cry for me
but you do
sorrow for me, or falling for me
someone rasised in black can't love
a selfsh person am i?
WHAT ABOUT YOU!!! ALL YOU SAY IS FOR ME TO BE HAPPY!!! AND WHAT DO I WANT>!!!! LOOK AT ME!!!! the throns have found their way back to me, do you remember, they slit my throat with its throns and drained me on the white roses to taint them red.
the bleeding rose is back from its creators painful heart.
it cant die, soemthing thats sinful and cold will always be
if i go others will carry on. MY ROSE WILL BE SET AND CONTINUE TO BLEED!!!!
carry it through my veins, wrap around me tighter and bloom up my arm, hold me down to the ground with your roots like you once did, poisn me with your beauty, taste the rarety of its blood as the pettles fall over my lips, breathing heavily in touture and relife.
tighen the thorns around my body, be my straight jacket and never let me feel anything else. the hauntingness alone without you i cant bear. never bleed ur last drop, always be on my arm.
my painful heart once again calls upon the bleeding rose from within.
my creation.............its been far too long.....
if its ok heres my latest
as depression sets
i try not to stay
afraid of myself
trying to run away
from the pain
every single day
why must I hide
from my own damn life
why cant it be
just a little bright
i want to see daylight
but its like
my whole entire life
is just always night
its always filled with fright
and i always fear
that more depression is near
and now i think its here
i try to make it better
but it only gets worse
this is just the first
of the pain it will bring me
why's that nothing for me can be happy
now everything seems so crappy
why does it always get the best of me
why is everything so depressing
did you guys like it?
i carry these fears on my shoulders
you could never be so thoughtless
and the tears run from you
let me lay you to sleep in my heartfiled coffen
do you know how to feel?
girl you make me feel so heartless
feel the breath upon your cheek
cold as the darkest stone in the palm of my hand
sunlight can not touch me
open the coffen from my heart slowly
..be gentle....
dont shudder in my cold
so my arms lay around you as you wish as jelosy plays its part inside your heart
a touch form my lips to your ear in whisper
let me raise you in the blackest of nights..
i dont break hearts i dont' feel
you break yours urself
dont blame me
not a word just utter silence
you have no idea
a confusing person or so i seem
play a huge part in your life
"hearts take time to heal" you tell me this
really? let me know the next time i break yours
coz i certainly didnt this time around
so im the only guy whos touched you on some level
if you dont touch it, you sure as hell cant break it
so dont blame me.
dont blame me
close your eyes for one last time
deep sleep your way into the cold dark death
your symbol always with me
remember the times we had together
u were more than a friend and apart of this family
broken, but still family
u lived ur life recently in pain
i tried to cure that, i faild you
i know u must of been tired of living blind
so now rest, rest ur eyes
your pain
lay your head down and sleep sound
we will be together again
see you soon...pup...
RIP... i'll miss you... I already do..
MAKES YOU ASSUMPTIONS AND LIVE ME BY THEM!!!
EVERYONE ELSE DOES WHY SHOULD YOU BE DIFFRENT
BUT I KNOW YOU ARE JUST LIKE ME WHEN NO ONE ELSE IS AROUND TO SAVE YOU FROM YOURSELF!!!! LOOK TO ME WITH HOPE AND DREAMS AND I TEAR THEM IN THE RIVERS IN MY EYES AS THEY WATER!!! IM NOT THE HERO !!! IM NOT THE BAD GUY!!! IM NOT ANYTHING!!!!ANOTHER DEATH, ANOTHER!!!! so hes not human, but he was a compainion, and he never talked back and never judged me, never questiond me. but people. ALL PEOPLE EVER DO IS QUESTION!!!
TO ALL OF YOU!!! EVERY F*CKING ONE OF YOU THAT WRITE YOUR POEMS ON MY THREAD!!! F*CK YOU!!!!! THESE ARE MY WORDS!!! MY POEMS!!! MY SKILLS!!!! I DIDNT ASK FOR YOURS OR YOU TO SHARE YOURS!!! THIS IS MY RELEASE AND YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE APART OF IT!!!!
I KNOW I WILL GROW OLD AND LONLY AND REGRETING EVERYTHING BECAUSE I ALREADY HAVE !!!! IM 19 F*CKING YEARS OLD AND I STARTED THIS THING WHEN I WAS 16!!!!! YOU WANT TO KNOW ME!!!! THEN JUST F*CKING READ ABOUT IT!!!!!
BECAUSE NO ONE!!! NO ONE WILL EVER LISTEN TO YOU!!!!
thats...why i do this...
the past resurfaces again
watching you liek it always will do
you cant understand what i do or write
but im always gonna be here
THE PAST CANT BE IGNORED!!!
WHY ARE YOU HERE!!??
WHAT DO YOU WANT THIS TIME?!!!
LAUGH AT ME, YELL AT ME, WHAT?!!!
I WAS DONE WITH YOU!!!!
BUT NOW IT SEEMS YOU WILL ALWAYS WANT APART OF ME!!!!!!!
JUST TAKE MY SOUL AND CRUSH MY HEART!!!
I WAS MENT FOR MORE THAN THIS!!!!
IM ABOUT TO SHOOT MYSELF IN THE BACK AGAIN!!!!
BECAUSE YOU JUST WONT GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!
soon ill find a picture to put with this name
a face
a price...
a tomb stone alone with my past.
its like words in my head
walking theses memories
i must of been so bad
ill make sure to remind you of who i really am
tired of living like someone that doesnt excist
so what do you do
kill him?
start again?
i tried....ive tried so hard to kill him
taken such drastic measures to actually leave my home and start again
worst part is
i KNOW i will just continue him no matter where i am...
i envy him
i hate him
i want to be him
a lot of people do
i am him
because i made him up, a style, a face, a signature, a calling
even a name to put to him
i dont walk around with my head down infront of you
but if this keeps up soon it will be handing down with a rope around my neck.
im so very tired...
talking to you is the only way i feel this pain i yearn
its been years...
and i know she thinks im stronger than this
i know i have to fix myself
im so fed up with my memories
teasing me, laughing at me, hauting me
still your pictures by my bed
and your still the only one in my head
your smile, your touch
your throbbing heart
even if mine is drained
you can still make it twist and turn in pain and passion
so why can i put the pen down...
missing my words of love
i cant remember a time they were needed
I cant find away out of these problems
i gonna need you to forgive me...
Skyes not in the night no more
but he follows me no matter where I go
its getting hard to breath
choking on my tongue as words slip out
a voice never heard before
he will haunt for every life i live
even when desgiused in Ash...
even right now im finding it hard to be myself...
now i dont live
i just run for other peoples lives..
i dont know myself anymore
feeling so alone with the world turning its back on me
i know i feel like i cant find relife
darkness is right infront of me and i dont know how much more i can withstand
someone mend this shatterd person...
cause im giving up...
give me a heart... cause i am without one....
without one....
ONE MINUTE YOUR EVERYTHING U WANTED!!!
there are so many people that try to figure me out
not willing to say the things i need to say
so i find myself running just to get away
dont think uve won coz ill be back
hes always back says a voice in lies and rage
dance till u cant take it anymore
play till ur fingers bleed
and write till you cant withstand the grip on the pen no more
time wont heal me anymore this time
i dance to convice myself that without a doubt i am the monsters in my head
covered in a new form of Ash spitting down on night Skye like hes nothing
hes apart of me like ive never seen, plucking the strings on my guitar in a way ive never heard
sometimes i wonder why this is happening to me again, once all the pain was on display then it went dorment.
so what...is this......
why is it covering up Skye in Ash darkness and freedom.
you used to make me feel so beautiful
in the nights of fire when all wind and rain come to a hault
dancing naked here in your arms
collaps in the passing by of red leaves so cold in the autum breeze
ive got a image of you stuck in my head
its been there for 3 years...
but i know people are crul and im no better
she wont call me, she left when she wanted
but i know.
i know, you were just like me with the pen
drawing and writing in darkness yet passion
about each other
i felt like all my love was enough to satisfy you
broken in an act of lies and masks
you were the light in my sky blue eyes
a dark angle you called forth my name
your happiness just crept in and touched me
only yours..
if true love is real...you will never love another......than your frist love.
so this isnt my happy ending
but its gonna be fun pretending
i know im no good for you
but theres a peice of me always wanting to come home
calls your name.....even when i ride this train and eyes passing me by
write again....sing again...draw again.....and embrace urself in my arms again.
your smile warms my face of the faithless
im here...
im waiting....