Why is it so F#$#@@@!!! hard to live in this world?

Written 10-14-03 10:16 a.m.

Dreamlover leave not me,
Again with you I long to be,
To feel your hands upon my chest,
Our heartbeats drown all sound as I rest,
Touch me again with lips sweet as honey,
That Nectar no normal man can taste,
I laugh at your jokes so funny,
You dance with me and I hold your waist,
We kiss deep under the stars twinkling,
Then I away, you are gone, my heart sinking,
I wish to visit again you in a dream,
Free; me; And together with you, I dream.

For that beautiful woman who haunts my every waking thought, from so many dreams over the years. I shall find you.

Sir Willy

8-6-02 For Katherine

You cry on my shoulder now, You scream it's unfair,
You wail of him and how He hurt you, left you there.

Years later, you turn around, Years later you'll see,
Years later I'm not around, Years later neither is he.

You sit with me on your porch, We stare at the stars.
We talk of the sun's scorch, and moons and Mars.

I'm gone and I leave a note for you to see.
It's only for you I wrote, I've set you free.

Years later, will we meet?
Years later you'll see.
Years later, It was a treat,
And It Could Have Been Me.

Sue and De Press

5-6-03

Driving around I turn my mind to old tunes,
I hear the familiar song, about alone under moons,
Sue, she sings so softly in my ears,
De Press, the ring to try my fears,
They both call me and warm feelings arise,
I used to be a groupie but now them I despise,
Yet still I listen, as I veer towards a flight,
70, 80, 90 miles an hour for tonight,
I see a ramp and my favorite ravine,
Maybe now my soul could feel clean
The song is passed though, By thoughts of someone,
Out there is someone who cares, maybe one,
I tap up on my brakes to slow down life,
Or maybe, perhaps I slow down Death's strife,
I shan't meet you by my hand, not me.
But It will come someday as it should be.
I pull back to a pattern of flight secure,
And return even if I'm unsure.
Maybe one is still out there for me, I don't know,
Eventually, I hope she'll finally show...

clapping Fantastic! 😄

danke. When I got right with God in 2000, I found I still had a lot of pent up emotions that had to be bled out. over the last 5 years, I have found the best way to do this was by putting my soul on paper. It has greatly helped, as each poem I write makes me feel that much better adn less stressed. Of course, some are also when I am really freakin happy, and reflect thusly.

✅ My inspiration has nothing to do with a higher plane. It is no more, and no less, than the plane I'm living on. Life, love and losses 😬

Ha ha ha ha ha. Yeah, it is a funny thing. sometimes you get like, " wow i gotta f$#$# write!!!" and others not so much that.... haha. God is inspiring to me, but I do a lot of my life in my poems. Lotta growing up and realizing things.

Definitely... writing down my life experiences is a way of personally counselling myself 😂

Ja ja. Ist gut, nein? heh.

For M'Lady D'Winter
From her Once and Always Knight.

Here my armor clinking as I ride to war,
See my fathers in my mind as they did before,
The only thing I'll miss if I died today,
Was how I never told you that I felt this way.

My love for you was an ocean that I drowned myself in,
Nothing for you was too great, naught was a burden.
I would have willingly jumped off a cliff for you,
I would have done anything to show my love was true.

I wish I had more time, but the battle draws so near.
I can see you in my mind and I can see you so clear.
Your raven hair flowing down such pale lovely skin,
And those ruby lips entrancing, pleading for my sin.

Your crystal eyes reflecting the fire in my own.
Your smile that would have any man thinking a star had shone,
The smell of your skin next to me has got chaos roaring,
And the softest of your touches has my heart soaring.

God, I wish I could just hold you one last time,
And with my last breath, I would ask to be thyne.

For Valentine's Day

Another day dawns upon us all,
Another day with no one to call,
Another day that bring back tears,
Another day to remember past years.

This day is made for lovers in bloom,
This day has seen my eternal doom,
This day is supposed to be so great.
This day makes me wish it came late.

500 Years born out of place and time,
500 Years should have been a nursery rhyme.
500 Years but still the heart of a Knight.
500 Years and no dragons to fight.

The blue of knight causes tears to well,
The blue of knight pierces my armored shell,
The blue of knight lost in side my soul.
The blue of knight takes the final toll.

These I remember and recall this day.
As Valentino goes on it's merry F@$#@$@ way.

Sir Willy 2-14-2005

Here is a new one for March.

Goodbye.

Listen to the silence as the wind passes by,
Ignore the pain in your heart as you begin to cry,
Start thinking and asking yourself why oh why,
Begin again and wonder how you let our love die.

The cold claw of anger grasps at your heartstrings tight,
And you can remember my face as i walked out of the light.
Returning to my dark embrace as my wings take me aflight.
And now you know the truth behind the meaning of "In Spite"

What will you do now with your life alone and dead?
Will you sit alone whining and cradling your sad head?
Will you stand and finally be your own person instead?
Or will you end up like so many and end up spirit-dead?

I fight on and I will go as I have gone before.
The only thing left of mine is my coat behind the door.
You never even heard my boots as they walked across the floor.
And I will continue to grow stronger more and more.

Sir Willy 3-11-05

Take the pain from my soul, purify me with fire.
Take my heart for a roll, destroy my desire.
Take my ego down to size, kiss me, leave me hanging.
Take my ego for your prize, kill me, leave me strangling.
Take my love and dont return, laugh at my tears flowing.
Take my love and watch me burn, the third cock is crowing.
4-4-05

Stay with it bubbah. You still rock dude.

tanks bro.

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
Can anybody tell me, can anyone actually show me they care?
Can anyone see the pain, the weight the scars I bear?
Could anyone look into those deep blue seas of my eternal soul?
Would they be able to take the suffering as a whole?
No, I dont believe so.

I have seen you try and I have always seen you fail.
I have heard your lies and it is time for the truth to tell.
You mock me with compassion comfort and false love.
I just want to lie down and be carried off by black doves.
I think that would be nice.

The joy you have is nothing but a blades you plunge deep into me,
The happiness you garner is from my blood and my misery,
My eyes i would gouge out if just to stop my acidic tears.
My heart ripped out by you as you all display my deepest fears.
Welcome to my hell.

If not for my belief and cowardice I would rip out my own soul,
I would tear it and destroy it so that it could never again be made whole.
I would end my own wretched existence if not for the hope I have in God.
I pray day and night to see my eternal reward and be removed from this sod.
I cant wait.

Does anybody truly know what it is to feel so lowly and rent apart?
Do any of you even feel the slightest compassion in your heart?
More I believe more that i am a mockery of a man, and mocked thusly so.
God I wish for one moment one person this feeling to understand, to show.
But I am alone.

Beautiful, beautiful!
All your poems are lovely. Don't stop! 😄

Thank you very much. for some reason everyone likes that one poem.

Well I do too!! 😄 Keep up the good writing!!

thanks. 🙂

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