is this for me? am i the one?
the reason this poems begun
i lost myself sometime ago
someone else i chose to show
i didnt fit in allthough i tried
lost my friends because i lied
my biggest failure in life will be
that i didnt really act like me
put on a show twice resigned
it all flows past me in my mind
when all is still i finally show
the real side of me ive never known
added color to my life, all for the rainbow to that which was grey
never forgotten, my first true form. all i am is evolution
i am the change that has enveloped. remember me as i was
cause i wont be the same tommorrow. another change begins
take this off and put this on. graduate then work then die
life and death are the only things that can be for certain.
when is the question and the answer remains the same
no one can truely forsee and your destiny is a smoked glass.
Originally posted by justjakk
is this for me? am i the one?
the reason this poems begun
i lost myself sometime ago
someone else i chose to showi didnt fit in allthough i tried
lost my friends because i lied
my biggest failure in life will be
that i didnt really act like meput on a show twice resigned
it all flows past me in my mind
when all is still i finally show
the real side of me ive never known
thank you all.. i have not been feeling well today. i have realized to what extent my job will protect me.
a cab driver called me to ask why i wrote him up on a previous date. i usually forget what happened the day before at work, and couldnt give him much answer. i told him i wouldnt be able to help him on stuff like that, and it would be better if he wouldnt confront me about stuff like that.
he became andry and called me a "white cracker". to that, he hung up his cell phone.
i went to my boss and was told that everyone will do something i dont like that i should put it behind me. the owner was in his office, overheard this and asked me who it was. the manager suddenly became interested and asked me when i took the call. he checked phone logs, and sure enough, heard the conversation. he then calls me to his office and tells me this. (What i can remember waiver)
"Danny, im not saying your wrong or hes right and he shouldnt have confronted you like that. I love my check. If we dont have cab drivers working and paying lease, we cant pay the bills and no one gets checks."
I told him that i didnt care who paid my check.
i cant understand. he says he talked to the driver and told him not to confront a dispatcher again for write-ups. what about the racist undertone? am i to suspect that if it were the other way around, and (God forbid that it should happen) i were to say the "N" word. does that meen i wouldnt get in trouble for it?
what do yall say? i guess i should be greatful that he said anything to the driver. and i guess my real thing is, if he could phone me to confront me about a write up, what would stop another from meeting me in the parking lot? what would it accomplish if i (or any dispatcher/operator) were to be confronted and maybe even hurt?
yanno, after i had told my manager about this, the accountant tells me she told him not to call me about it. he was in the front lobby all that time talking to her. with the way the conversation heated up, what could have stopped him?
i guess it goes to show you, you cant trust everyone with write ups. she had the write up in her office and said he overlooked it and thats how he knew. how did he see it and why was it still there if it were a write up from friday? i think i will ask the owner tommorrow when i go to work, but i dont wanna seem like someone who wants to stir up alot of stuff because the topic of racism was brought up. i dont even know if it would solve anything. i just know that this will be a reason why alot of workers in the radio room will want to hesitate about doing a write up.
Hey man, this crap hits way too often. You keep doin right bro. If it comes down to it, you can get another job. You got the skilz to pay thy bilz. Besides, (without bein racist at all) black folks and white folks in your area rarely have gotten along. The blacks hate us because we are whitey and supposedly bring them down, and the other whites hate the blacks and blame them for problems like drugs and street violence. it really comes down to our civic leaders who just dont give a damn about anyone but the money that they rip from out of our pockets to put into theirs. The city officials propitiate racial tensions with stupid remarks on tv and by not DOING what they say they will do. The average citizen helps the flow of hatred along by also not doing right, and by turning a blind eye to injustice and illegal or immoral activities. In the end it comes down to this: You, and only you, can stand up and do what YOU know is right. This world is circling the drain because folks don't wanna do the right thing, dude, but you do. Don't let these ill-educated and illogical people bring you down. ( I know it is easier said than done, but just do the right thing.) In the end, you and I know who has control and what these fools will face come the end of days. We all gotta account for our deeds whether good or bad, and man am I grateful I know the truth. I will keep it in my prayers also bro. And, hey! Haha this moron wants to take you on, just call me. Free ticket to you courtesy of a rich grandma and a 2 hour flight will land me by your side to fight any scheissekompf that dares challenge a brother of mine!
Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
Hey man, this crap hits way too often. You keep doin right bro. If it comes down to it, you can get another job. You got the skilz to pay thy bilz. Besides, (without bein racist at all) black folks and white folks in your area rarely have gotten along. The blacks hate us because we are whitey and supposedly bring them down, and the other whites hate the blacks and blame them for problems like drugs and street violence. it really comes down to our civic leaders who just dont give a damn about anyone but the money that they rip from out of our pockets to put into theirs. The city officials propitiate racial tensions with stupid remarks on tv and by not DOING what they say they will do. The average citizen helps the flow of hatred along by also not doing right, and by turning a blind eye to injustice and illegal or immoral activities. In the end it comes down to this: You, and only you, can stand up and do what YOU know is right. This world is circling the drain because folks don't wanna do the right thing, dude, but you do. Don't let these ill-educated and illogical people bring you down. ( I know it is easier said than done, but just do the right thing.) In the end, you and I know who has control and what these fools will face come the end of days. We all gotta account for our deeds whether good or bad, and man am I grateful I know the truth. I will keep it in my prayers also bro. And, hey! Haha this moron wants to take you on, just call me. Free ticket to you courtesy of a rich grandma and a 2 hour flight will land me by your side to fight any scheissekompf that dares challenge a brother of mine!
thanx dude. i bought a fridge for my bedroom.. now i can almost say i know what it is to have a 1 room apartment hahaha
how can i tell you a person i dont know?
ive been so many people its really hard to tell
one person from the next cant tell them all apart
and come up with the someone that others see in me
but what if that person staring back in my reflection
isnt really me but someone else in disguise?
am i really a wolf in sheeps clothing?
have i come to even fool myself?
i dont know my future and my past is but a dream
to fast did it slip by and rushed from out my mind
what do i really write? is this all about me?
or does everyone else have doubts to their own reflection?
Hm. If you look at the reflection and only see a face,
If you look to the eyes and only see the colors
If you look to the body and only see a shell.
If you can actually look and not see as well,
The deepness of the soul inside,
The awesome man that you try to hide,
You can't keep it secret from me you know.
I see through all facades and though
You cannot see who you are for real,
One day for sure I know she will.