I feel sad
Hey guys, I need to talk for a bit. I feel really depressed these days (not depressed that I am going to kill myself or anything, just down) because everytime I say something to my boyfriend, it seems to be something wrong. He gets irritated pretty easily and he blows things up. The latest thing happened just 5 minutes ago. He called me and was so happy, like usual. He asked me what I wanted to do today. Well, we are in the process of saving money so we can move into our own place so I prefer not to spend a lot of money. We have bills to pay so that doesn't help much with the saving. Anyways, I said to him that I didn't really want to spend money and he asked me what I wanted to do then that was cheap because there is nothing much to do when you don't spend money. We often go sit in the car by a lake and listen to the baseball game on the radio but today I didn't feel like sitting there and looking at the lake because we do it so often. I just wanted to do something different. I told him I didn't want to go and stare at the lake because it would be boring today. It's too hot and it would be uncomfortable to just sit there. Well, for some reason he got all mad at that comment and started saying how he doesn't want to bring me anywhere anymore and that "the Queen is too good for the lake" and tells me "ok Queen stay home then" and crap like that.
Did I say something wrong? Usually when we want to do something he asks me and I say I'll do whatever you want to do and he constantly tells me that I have an opinion too and I can suggest things once in a while but everytime I voice my opinion it seems like it is wrong. I KNOW he wants to go out. He was asking me when he was all happy on the phone but after what I said he got all mad and says he is going to the lake by himself and I pleaded with him for a good 15/20 minutes that he was taking what I said wrong and blowing it up. He thinks I said HE is boring when I clearly didn't and he says he feels uncomfortable taking me out now because I might be bored. I didn't do anything wrong that I know of. I don't know what to say anymore because it seems to be wrong and I always end up crying in the end. I am a nice person and would never say anything to make someone feel like crap.
Thanks for listening. I need to get it out.