I feel it bubbling
Wanting to burst free
Escape from everyday
Away from the mundane
A spirit inside so carefree...
...so untamed
Trapped by a world of obligations
Aways need to impress, succeed and conform
...always being judged by those whom are not any more superior in life....
I find myself welcoming an end...
... more like a beginning
To be able to sore free...
.... free from this so called "reality"
This may be societies "reality" but not mine...
I hate these feelings this world causes...
I crave an escape, an end... a beginning
I am going crazy.
This is my silent cry
My mind is wondering in ways I never though passable....again
Selfish yes I know.
Though I am not wanting any spot lights.
So marks won't be necessary.
They don't know... well one does
But this time I can hide it.
I hate this
No matter how much I argue with myself...
It's bad but I smile when I think of ...
I can't say it....
Imposable
I can't
No!
I have not shed one tear though it's all I think of.
I show just about no signs
Their not looking
Ha I just grinned in accomplishment
Geeze I gotta get away.... my mind ...
Why am I thinking this
... a silent cry...
My Next Chapter
This is a new chapter
I can see the pages
And the words as their written
But if I peek ahead
I see nothing
No clear destination
Only faint ideas
If I glace behind
I only see...
Worn down paths
Old choices chosen
Whats been done
And I already know what is to come
Clinging to these words for dear life
Hoping to brace this unknown
With determination and good grace
Feeling uneasy but with a smile on my face
I am turning this page...
I'm breaking you down
Smashing you to pieces
No longer will you hold me back
Even if it means showing my weakness
I'm breaking you down
Opening up
Finally about to breath
After so long
I'm breaking you down
Letting him in
I will NOT let you take him from me
I will NOT let you steer me away
I'm breaking you down
Letting him in
Letting him in
I'm breaking you down damn-it!
And I AM going to love him