Ive been trying to find a bf for a while now, due to lonleyness. Havent had much luck with sex either, almost as if someone hexed me. I live my life like a porn star its sad really. So yesterday at the mens club some guy blew me off and as soon as he saw how big i was he was tailing me all night. Slow night had sex once and headed to the pool for a swim. Worked out for a bit then went home alone. Im going to buy a dog.
So ive been a busy week mainly family shit, ive been wild for antonio but the 4 times we tried to meet we havent been able to. Today i picked up a guy and took him to the place where i met Antonio, we humped for a while and he cumedd i didnt. As we were leaving we passed by Antonio who was talking to an even hotter guy then me. He had a better body but i have a hotter face. Theres an enterence and i stood there and Antonio said bye to him and left: i thought oh **** ive ****ed up again. So i stood there alone and went back in, i was looking for another guy when antonio came back in. I was shocked, he left and i followed. We short talked till i told him that i didnt really get what i wanted with jason. We did it 2 and it was great. I told him okay thanks and left, he told me he had better. I have a little crush even tho hes a bad seed but im going to make him want me to death.
Finally had a real talk with antonio. You know that feeling when something seems to good to be true? Its almost as if u have a perfect image of a person then when u meet them their not exactly how u thought.. I spent the night listening to the story about Antonios ex. God what a pusssy. Turnoff big time. I like antonio but i dont want to be rebound. Dude needs to get a clue and balls. I want someone who wants me.