tell the truth about your self...

by being this needy, clingy, depressing, constantly picking fights *******.

i shouldnt have done it, i know i shouldnt have, yet i kept doing it.
and i hate it, i hate that i did it.
i tried not to

stfu

but that's who you are, she should have been able to deal, anyone who really loves the person they're with should be able to deal with whatever's thrown at them
hell, Mike is able to deal with the fact that im constantly putting myself down, im twice his size, im crazy as all hell and that i rarely talk at all and i can deal with the fact that he's 100 times hotter than me, has a job that makes it that i don't see him as often as we'd both like and even when i do see him, he's tired a lot of the time we spend together

Originally posted by Mairuzu
stfu

and you're still going to make jokes?

this whole thread is about telling the truth, about getting shit off your chest.
and thats what im doing.

I feel like shit.
and im airing it out.

because theres a human being i care more about than anything, and i am constantly ****ing up, and constantly hating myself for it.

i want to be a better man, im trying t be a better man, its not ****ing easy.
you all know its hard to change shit about yourselves.

im just gonna walk away and get something to eat then take a ****ing shower cause i can't seem to help -.-
you already know you can rant on in a PM if need be -.-

you listening was helping.

*****.

Originally posted by Dave_97
you know what, ive been a whiny little ***** on kmc for years, and for once its about something that i honestly give a shit about.

and you're still going to make jokes?

this whole thread is about telling the truth, about getting shit off your chest.
and thats what im doing.

Originally posted by Dave_97
I feel like shit.
and im airing it out.

because theres a human being i care more about than anything, and i am constantly ****ing up, and constantly hating myself for it.

i want to be a better man, im trying t be a better man, its not ****ing easy.
you all know its hard to change shit about yourselves.

Dave, you look her(it's a her, right?) in the eye (not the brown-eye) and you tell her "You make me want to be a better man."

she does make me want to be a better man.
she makes me feel things i didnt know i even could feel.

the things i value,its nothing compared to how i value her.
if i could give her one thing, it would be a smile.
shes got my heart, shes got my mind, shes got everything i am.
and i'll always want to give her more.

I lost my ****ing keys.

Originally posted by Dave_97
you listening was helping.

*****.

I just spent a lot of money.

Originally posted by AbnormalButSane
I just spent a lot of money.

Did you have an abortion?

How did you know?

Originally posted by AbnormalButSane
How did you know?

Elementary, my dear Sane.

Very sage.

Originally posted by AbnormalButSane
Very sage.

Thank you, I sure am.

Mike knows about some of my internet life now
never told him before, but he noticed how tired i was when we were out for ice cream and i told him i'd been up all night talking to my friend
didn't tell him a lot, just that i had a very close friend up in Canada and we ended up chatting for a long time last night
he got a bit jelly haermm

Originally posted by Dave_97
she does make me want to be a better man.
she makes me feel things i didnt know i even could feel.

the things i value,its nothing compared to how i value her.
if i could give her one thing, it would be a smile.
shes got my heart, shes got my mind, shes got everything i am.
and i'll always want to give her more.

Honest to gosh Dave I read through your posts and felt like it was what happened with me and my last gf.. the first girl I felt was the one.. yah know? at the end of it.. i let her go.. cause i realized if i really loved her.. then i had to.. because i never showed it to her when i was there.. in fact she wondered why i read so many comic books.. etc.. i'll tell you i haven't picked up a new comic in almost 6 months.. i hardly "vent" like i used to. I manned up. figured out that talking is talking.. but doing is doing.. and when i talk i looked for confirmation... like what i was doing was right.. someone to make you feel better... but the only one at the end of the day that is going to make you a better you.. is you..

have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and not recognized the man on the other side? I did. At 28 years old I looked at that mirror and I hated what I saw there. I'm 29 now. I finally realized, that a lot of it.. was really self loathing... planted there by my childhood.. but that i was never willing to let go.. I'm guessing you are like me.. and not dealing with whatever deep rooted issues you have.

take time to yourself. leave her alone. find out who you are without anyone. friends. girlfriends. etc. when you are a better man alone, then you will be a great man when you are surrounded by your friends.

oh.. also.. it took getting rid of "old friends" because they were depressing and keeping me down. sadly... its hard to grow when your friends refuse to. good luck.