Originally posted by rudester
I don't know what to say any more I've run out of words..have to turn back and go back a few steps..back to the start only everybody's gone left...I'm all alone. No one can see me touch me or hear me...its my fault.
I purposefully sabotage all relations with people who I am attracted to, in order to ensure that I wont be attracted to them/date/pursue them.
I hate all the significant others of my same sex friends, I despise them because they took away the friends I invested in for years. My friends chose to let our friendships wither in favor of developing their significant others, all the loyalty, sacrifice, faith, trust, kindness, devotion I invested into them they threw away.