"You have no idea what I feel!" she snapped through bloodied teeth, her ears pinning to her skull to protect what was left of them. "I do not forget what has happened to me; I never will. You cannot tell me that this isn't hell until you've lived it. This is hell to me." She snarled, violently knocking his body to the ground. She stood to the side of him, out of reach of his hind legs, her front right paw on his throat, restricting his windpipe. She was larger, and her weight would be much harder to fling off. "You cannot make me suffer. Nothing physical is suffering any longer, Kai. I go through more hell in one night than you've been through in your whole life." Her claws dug into his neck, carefully avoiding jugular veins and the windpipe but intentionally striking as many nerves as possible. If she hit it right, pain would flood his body.