"How long until the Dream arrives?" Axel finished putting all the needed information into the PDA he was holding before handing it to the Lieutenant. He eyed the taller man, but refused to say anything else that was on his mind. It was pointless.
"Tomorrow." The response came, calm and cold. "I probably won't be joining you when you give your final goodbyes to your friends." The Lieutenant said. "After the act you pulled I don't think they'd want me to show that kind of respect to the person arranging their 'funeral.'"
"He deserved it." Axel's reply was simple, half distracted as he read over the PDA the Lieutenant had given him. "Besides... he hit me first."
"So that's it? Some form of immature revenge? He hit you first so you beat him to the edge of death?" The Lieutenant glared. "Look at me when I'm talking to you!" He barked. "I'm still your superior officer and you will act accordingly! Or did you forget about those regulations?"
Axel looked at him. He winced, the words stung. "Aye, sir. And no. It wasn't revenge."
"Then what? What was it?" The Lieutenant exhaled slowly. "What the hell is wrong with you?"
"Well..." Axel trailed off. "Aside from everything going wrong and everyone dying nothing really. I got into a war, and my side lost." Picking up the line casually. He glared back. "Are we done? Sir?"
"No. We're not." The Lieutenant sighed. "Is that how they would want to be remembered Axel? With acts of anger? That the person who lead them, the one they looked up to, was the kind of person to kill people he simply didn't like?"
"I didn't kill him!"
"No... you didn't. This time. But you're very lucky you didn't. If he wasn't a Spartan, if everything hadn't gone perfect, he would be dead. And his blood would be your hands."
"But it's not." Axel said, defensively.
"Really? Then why did you have to clean it off?" The Lieutenant took a step forward, challenging him. "Why did you have to go and find a way to apologize to Spartan 116 without saying the word itself?"
"Because I am..." Axel's mouth snapped shut. "Because what I did was wrong! Is that what you wanted to hear?!"
"Why?! Why is it so hard for you to admit that?" The Lieutenant checked his voice as several heads turn to look at the two. "I'll ask you again." He said, softly. "Is that how your family would want to be remembered?"
Axel didn't say anything for several seconds. "No..."
The Lieutenant straightened. "So what are you going to do about it?"
"What?" Axel frowned, not understanding.
"You can't hide what happened. Maybe you can fail at hiding it from yourself, but you can't even start hiding it from others. You and your soldiers... You already did what you did. They will be remembered by what you have done. You're nothing compared to what you used to be." The Lieutenant let venom seep into his tone. "But even as a fraction of the person I saw on Onyx I don't believe you'll stand by without trying to change things."
"I... don't know." Axel looked away.
"Bullshit you don't. What are you? Confused? Blind? Afraid?"
"I'm all of those." He shouted. "And now everyone's dead because of it!"
"No. They're not." The Lieutenant looked behind Axel, at the Gym doors. "Some of them are in there. I'm standing right here... You're company is dead. I understand that. But it's the last of three. You didn't blame yourself for the loss of Alpha Company."
"Because I wasn't there. They weren't my responsiblity." Axel growled.
"What if you were? Would it have made a difference?"
Axel didn't respond.
"Exactly. You were an exceptional Spartan. Your influence was bigger than most peoples, but you aren't important. Your a Spartan. Your a soldier. You told me that yourself. Axel, the Spartan's here are your equals. Be part of a team. Get used to it."
"It'll take some getting used too..." The teenager trailed off.
The Lieutenant took a step forward and slapped him across the face. "Wake up! You've been sleeping. You're better than this. It's been a week already, now get over it."