"I went through a stage like this about three years ago. Not the exact reasons as you do, but enough to feel like utter shit. I'm trying to remember exactly what happened, but looking back, I feel like I lost almost 8 months fighting it off. It wasn't as much depression as it was apathy, and I couldn't stand living like that. I didn't give a **** about myself, or what I did, or the people around me. "
Exactly.... Thats exactly how it is.
"The answer, for me at least, was a relatively simple one. My last grandparent had just died, and this had given me another chance to re-examine life, death, and everything in between. But, y'know what? Unless the Buddhists are right, you've only got one chance to make your life count. Oh sure, you might say to yourself it doesn't matter when you die, but why should that bother you? You should be concerning yourself with now. And, depending on what you believe in, you can reach the afterlife and look back at your mortal existence and remember what you did, and how much fun you had doing it"
Good logic, and I would love to beleive in that I could look back on myself, and see what I accomplished. Also, I have tried to get it off my mind, but it never works. It always slips itself into my mind while I lay awake in my bed. Andd Usually after that I just turn and shuffle while thinking about it, so I come on KMC or play games to try and get my mind away from it.
Despite what you might think, the people around you do care. Your parents might be giving you a hard time, but you need to try talking to them. They're there for you, and sometimes even a hug is enough to brighten your day. Look to your friends, talk to them. Do the things you enjoy doing, be it reading, playing video games, sports, or just chillaxing with friends. It's not important, just do something.[/n]
Hah.. I'm just too, blah..I can't Hug or talk to them, its way too akward...Also my friends would just laugh and be like "Take Prozak Haha" But I do, do things to get my mind off it.
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I know we don't interact all that much, but if you want to talk, you can send me an IM. Never feel like you're alone, because you're not.
Hope you can get over this, pal.
Thanks alot, You really helped. And Yeah, I don't see much of you on the forum much, but I might give you a shout if I need to talk.
I've talked to you a tad, and I understand the problem to a certain personal extent. Here's how I like to think of it. Everyone has one life on earth. And everyone has their chance to make a difference using that life. You see, our bodies are prisons for our souls.
In school, you learn about what this guy did, or what how this man is honored and remembered. And I do believe that is how everyone would like to be, after they pass. That's certainly what I'm going for. You can get busy livin', or you can get busy dying, man.
Originally posted by Dusty
I've talked to you a tad, and I understand the problem to a certain personal extent. Here's how I like to think of it. Everyone has one life on earth. And everyone has their chance to make a difference using that life. You see, our bodies are prisons for our souls.In school, you learn about what this guy did, or what how this man is honored and remembered. And I do believe that is how everyone would like to be, after they pass. That's certainly what I'm going for. You can get busy livin', or you can get busy dying, man.
Yeah, well I do beleive that I will be remembered for something after I die, but I'm not 100% sure about souls. Its more of a "I'd like it to be that way" kind of thought, even though it just thrown in there with all those nihilist ones.
I have to go now… work’s over
I might not be able to get on line this weekend, so I’ll see everybody on Monday! 😉
Vinny if you’re feeling down this weekend, remember I’m there for you!
I’ll think of you this weekend so remember you ‘re not alone!
If there’s anything let me know I’ll get back to you as soon as possible, that’s a promise! 😛
Cya
Bye bye
Yep.
I feel worse then ever today. So many events today have led me from my progressing happiness away from my depression, into a further hole.
First of all, I had no sleep last night. Once again, awake all night due to my sleeping problem, and death. Then, I went to school and had people bug me for multiple reasons, one guy (the only guy who really bugs me) kept trying to destroy my self-esteem in Math, going on about me and how I'm useless etc etc... Also, The big part.. In history, We started talking about Death and Religion, Un****ingbeleivble. I didn't need to here this. So Everyone make a point, and I decide to suck it up and put my point in. Pretty much I told them I have no problem with people who are religious, its just how I believe religions act. I called Religions the Control Evil of the world, and we would be better off without it. I brought up points like the Crusades and other fights caused by religion. Before I finished, 14 Religious Freaks in my class got extremely offended by my opinion and who I was, so they started jumping down my throat about EVERYTHING, my views on death and religion. Out of 32 people, My three friends, and another guy I don't know much spoke in my defence. One said how they get mad when people don't let them have their opinions, but when I make one and its against religious, I'm evil and an *******. Anyway, I was badgered out by everyone, Including the girl I have had a crush on for a few months (Great, thats never going to happen weep ) Also, there is a HUGE snowstorm going on right now here, so my drive home was SO slow (I went to a buddies to finish a huge project) I worried every time a large truck passed, the roads were hardly plowed.
And Now, I'm here. Feeling worse then I have in the last weeks. It just seems like as I go on, the hole keeps getting digger, and eventually I will have no way to escape...Blah... I just don't know anymore..
Originally posted by Vinny Valentine
Yep.I feel worse then ever today. So many events today have led me from my progressing happiness away from my depression, into a further hole.
First of all, I had no sleep last night. Once again, awake all night due to my sleeping problem, and death. Then, I went to school and had people bug me for multiple reasons, one guy (the only guy who really bugs me) kept trying to destroy my self-esteem in Math, going on about me and how I'm useless etc etc... Also, The big part.. In history, We started talking about Death and Religion, Un****ingbeleivble. I didn't need to here this. So Everyone make a point, and I decide to suck it up and put my point in. Pretty much I told them I have no problem with people who are religious, its just how I believe religions act. I called Religions the Control Evil of the world, and we would be better off without it. I brought up points like the Crusades and other fights caused by religion. Before I finished, 14 Religious Freaks in my class got extremely offended by my opinion and who I was, so they started jumping down my throat about EVERYTHING, my views on death and religion. Out of 32 people, My three friends, and another guy I don't know much spoke in my defence. One said how they get mad when people don't let them have their opinions, but when I make one and its against religious, I'm evil and an *******. Anyway, I was badgered out by everyone, Including the girl I have had a crush on for a few months (Great, thats never going to happen weep ) Also, there is a HUGE snowstorm going on right now here, so my drive home was SO slow (I went to a buddies to finish a huge project) I worried every time a large truck passed, the roads were hardly plowed.
And Now, I'm here. Feeling worse then I have in the last weeks. It just seems like as I go on, the hole keeps getting digger, and eventually I will have no way to escape...Blah... I just don't know anymore..
bye bye
Originally posted by Vinny ValentineAww buddy _cheer_up_hug_
Yep.I feel worse then ever today. So many events today have led me from my progressing happiness away from my depression, into a further hole.
First of all, I had no sleep last night. Once again, awake all night due to my sleeping problem, and death. Then, I went to school and had people bug me for multiple reasons, one guy (the only guy who really bugs me) kept trying to destroy my self-esteem in Math, going on about me and how I'm useless etc etc... Also, The big part.. In history, We started talking about Death and Religion, Un****ingbeleivble. I didn't need to here this. So Everyone make a point, and I decide to suck it up and put my point in. Pretty much I told them I have no problem with people who are religious, its just how I believe religions act. I called Religions the Control Evil of the world, and we would be better off without it. I brought up points like the Crusades and other fights caused by religion. Before I finished, 14 Religious Freaks in my class got extremely offended by my opinion and who I was, so they started jumping down my throat about EVERYTHING, my views on death and religion. Out of 32 people, My three friends, and another guy I don't know much spoke in my defence. One said how they get mad when people don't let them have their opinions, but when I make one and its against religious, I'm evil and an *******. Anyway, I was badgered out by everyone, Including the girl I have had a crush on for a few months (Great, thats never going to happen weep ) Also, there is a HUGE snowstorm going on right now here, so my drive home was SO slow (I went to a buddies to finish a huge project) I worried every time a large truck passed, the roads were hardly plowed.
And Now, I'm here. Feeling worse then I have in the last weeks. It just seems like as I go on, the hole keeps getting digger, and eventually I will have no way to escape...Blah... I just don't know anymore..
People are as$holes. Nothing will ever change that.
As for the girl you have a crush on; if she's bugged by an opinion that's not her own, forget her. She doesn't deserve you attention, and you deserve better.
Remember that no matter how 'intelligent' people are, most of them lack common sense.
I hope sleeping made you feel better hug