Aging
I'll never admit in my life, even imaginatively speaking, that I'll be old.
It terrifies me. It's my greatest fear I think.
I always said when I was younger that I'd like to die before I get and I still stand by this at age 19.
I'm already dreading my next Birthday, which is January 5th.
I'm dreading turning 20.
It's getting to that time where I'm just dreading my Birthdays now.
It just popped up on me.
I never imagined it to get like this but yeah.....
Even thinking to myself, I won't even imagine myself as an old person speak of a future where I'm old.
It just doesn't exist in my warped mind and I hope it never comes to fruition.
Typing this thread is hard enough, although I've been careful in my wording.
I understand aging and dying, but why can't we just age to a certain extent, like 20 for example, and just stay that age physically on the outside and continue to age in other ways where we can remain youthful looking?
I pray and pray frequently that Scientists and Researchers will discover a cure for this disease known as Aging.
Anata Wa Wakarimasu Ka.....