Originally posted by Blight
No but when I tried to go to bed yesterday I started feeling really shitty. I could not sleep. And I could not stop thinking about my ex bfrownI ended up going to the bathroom and threw up everything I had eaten the entire day...
I think (As of late) I haven't been treating my body very well. So I need to start drinking water a lot again.
I have had my heart broken twice
Originally posted by Blight
No but when I tried to go to bed yesterday I started feeling really shitty. I could not sleep. And I could not stop thinking about my ex bfrownI ended up going to the bathroom and threw up everything I had eaten the entire day...
I think (As of late) I haven't been treating my body very well. So I need to start drinking water a lot again.
I know how you feel bro. Try not to use the alcohol. That's where I'm at now...and trust me...that's not the path you want to take. Funny thing, with me, my ex called me up about three weeks ago. She wanted to get back together....I'm still in love with her...so, I was game. Well, she left me again...for the sixth time just a few days ago. I had to track her down...she wouldn't even call and tell me why she was leaving. I was beginning to think she was dead...until her aunt got her to call. She never would give me a clear cut reason why she left. Hell, the last three times she left me....she just vanished...never said a word....I had to track her down to get a reason. I know I deserve better than that...but that girl has etched her way into my soul...and I can't help but take her back anytime. I can no more hurt her than I could my own child...if I had one. I can't break free from her. Even when she's gone...I go to sleep at night...dreaming about her...because it is only then that she's still in my arms.....and for a little while...everything is ok...we're happy again. But when that alarm goes off...it's off to another day of hell....because I think about her almost 24/7. No woman has ever had this much of me....and I'm scared I"ll grow old being alone..because I can't give anyone else a chance.
It's a long road...these things just don't go away in a week. with me....it's been two years...and I'm still in love with only her. Best you can do is take it one day at a time...and if you need to talk....you have people on KMC that will listen to you man. You can vent anytime you want. I wish I can tell you things will get better soon...but, I can't lie to you...because they haven't with me. Just try to keep faith...and never lose your self-esteem. There is nothing wrong with you....it's her...that's what I have to tell myself.
Prayin' for ya man
Originally posted by charlemagne9746
I know how you feel bro. Try not to use the alcohol. That's where I'm at now...and trust me...that's not the path you want to take. Funny thing, with me, my ex called me up about three weeks ago. She wanted to get back together....I'm still in love with her...so, I was game. Well, she left me again...for the sixth time just a few days ago. I had to track her down...she wouldn't even call and tell me why she was leaving. I was beginning to think she was dead...until her aunt got her to call. She never would give me a clear cut reason why she left. Hell, the last three times she left me....she just vanished...never said a word....I had to track her down to get a reason. I know I deserve better than that...but that girl has etched her way into my soul...and I can't help but take her back anytime. I can no more hurt her than I could my own child...if I had one. I can't break free from her. Even when she's gone...I go to sleep at night...dreaming about her...because it is only then that she's still in my arms.....and for a little while...everything is ok...we're happy again. But when that alarm goes off...it's off to another day of hell....because I think about her almost 24/7. No woman has ever had this much of me....and I'm scared I"ll grow old being alone..because I can't give anyone else a chance.It's a long road...these things just don't go away in a week. with me....it's been two years...and I'm still in love with only her. Best you can do is take it one day at a time...and if you need to talk....you have people on KMC that will listen to you man. You can vent anytime you want. I wish I can tell you things will get better soon...but, I can't lie to you...because they haven't with me. Just try to keep faith...and never lose your self-esteem. There is nothing wrong with you....it's her...that's what I have to tell myself.
Prayin' for ya man
It hurts like hell. Find ur peace and give urself a chance to love another
I will pray for u both. Always here