selph, i dunno if you know about the suicides in my town, but iv now lost a best and another friend who was also the girl i liked 🙁 i cant believe this is happening, nathaniel was meant to be at my wedding and we were supposed to go drinking and go on road trips and end up in jail after fighting Aussie police and have all these memories. but now hes gone 🙁 its just unbelievable, words can describe how much i miss him, he was such an awesome mate and just a great person and i never got to tell him how much he meant to me 🙁 and then 4 days after i heard he died in hospital after trying to hang himself, im told that another mate was found hanged from a tree 🙁 and she was always so happy and smiling, im still in shock. she always called me "lickle boy" and id say "hey, lickle girl", i still remember the first time we met at work, she was stoned and she came over and told me about her bastard of a boyfriend and then she went on about something, then she was getting some weed from her bra (that was kinda hot) and im never going to forget how mice she was, and how great nathaniel was. and my nan is in hospital after falling and hurting her leg/hip, and my cousin is getting married on st. davids day in northern ireland, and so me and my family are flying there on friday; which is the same day as nathaniel and kelly's (nathaniels cousin who hanged herself when she heard about nathaniel) funeral, so because we are flying to northern ireland i might not be able to go to the funeral. cry its really unbelievable 🙁 🙁🙁