The night you left, I held you tight.
The first day with out you, didn’t feel the same.
My mind was replaying the moments we shared.
I laugh to my self of all the good times we shared.
My body misses yours. When you held me close ,
I felt so warm so safe.
I miss the time when your lips had met mine.
And for a moment it felt like time was slowed.
And the moon light shined down on us, like a spotlight of our love.
Remember when we sat in the grass, as the stars shined a little brighter that night.
And we talked about everything our hearts held so dear.
I remember when you looked me in the eyes, and it seemed as though nothing else was near.
I remember your goodbye , when my heart seem to weigh down to the floor.
Knowing it will be a while till we will see each other.
Off you go into the world, to collage .
The doors have opened.
And you are heading out.
But when you left I told you.
“To keep my heart close.”
Because when it feels like no one else cares.
You can look down and know ill always be there.
But when I look to my hand, I feel the sadness.
Because the spaces between my fingers
Is where yours fit perfectly.
But I know in a year, you’ll be home.
Right where you belong.
-Camille
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I wrote you a letter, But I burned it
I made you a picture, I colored over it.
I wrote you a song, but changed the lyrics .
I gave you my heart, And I don’t want it back.
I give you all my love, for you to feel every day,
Miles apart, or right across town.
It doesn’t matter to me, because your always with me.
Might not be in person, It might not be much.
But I always have you in my heart.
I wont write you a sappy love song.
I wont draw you a cute little picture.
I’ll just open my heart.
Because at the end of the night, I might not be sure on a lot.
But I am sure about you, about my love for you, that stays strong.
Love at first sight, yeah that will never happen.
But with one glance of you , I was already head over heals.
Sounds corny ,but that’s how I feel.
I loved you once, I love you now, ill love you forever.
Every day , ever moment.
I will always be in love.
You took a part of my heart and fix it right up.
Now it’s in your care.
Some time your brake it, yet you find a way to fix it.
And all I want to say is
‘I love you’
-Camille
So I was looking around the web.
Internet seem to be my best friend.
Crossing pages , of everyone around town.
My eye caught by one page, I never seen before.
My heart started to flutter, none of this made sense.
I click to add , this mysteries guy .
Wanting to know more, I wanted to know him.
Though I went on in my life.
Living with my son , having everyone at my side.
But one day, he said hello.
And I knew I just lost the game.
-Camille
How I fell into a hole.
That I have dug for my self.
Now I lay here .
Not making a sound.
I made so much of my life.
I birthed my son.
I was sixteen, I couldn’t see.
That after a few months, Everything would change.
Some for the better.
And for the worst.
Caught off guard.
I never knew I could feel this again.
I was afraid to take another chance.
My heart was so weak.
So broken into pieces .
-Camille
Oh the pain of it all.
The simple joy of it.
The pain deep within us.
Comes leaking out.
It runs through our veins.
Like a virus that will never die.
The neighbor to the heart .
Stringing us like a puppet that’s putting on a show.
A murder that makes no peep.
Creeps around us.
Prays on us all.
Yet we go searching for it.
Signing our death certificate.
Signing our life away.
We make it seem so lovely
That it brings no harm.
Yet it’s a test for us all.
To either brake us or make us.
It’s the realest feeling in this world.
Yet it could the worst pain ever felt.
Yet we keep it around.
And never lose it.
It stays forever in us.
This is what we call love.
-Camille
The beautiful snow fall.
Seems to come down hard this year.
Covering the ground , freezing the earth.
The snippy wind whipping around.
The darken skys, look so beautiful.
Showing little hope, but enough to believe.
How i wait here for your return.
While the snow falls all around.
My eyes watching the snow fall.
I can see my even breaths.
Pulse forward from my body.
Flash back of us.
And what we used to be.
Can bring a single tear to a frozen eye.
How my arms long for your return.
Your foot steps in the snow
are quickly erased.
Like you never have been here.
Now I will never have anything to remind me.
That you were here.
I wait for your return.
In the beautiful snow fall.
I am waiting for your return.
I am waiting for your embrace.
-Camille.
I don't know how good this , It was just running through my head ,and i just had to write it down.
I watch the screen
I watch your face.
No movement at all.
Heartbreak came to fast.
I am waiting for your voice,
To rise and to speak.
But my ears fall on silence.
And tears seem to squeeze.
Can you feel me?.
Can you feel my touch?.
Can you hear my voice?.
Can you feel anything at all?.
Are you in pain?.
Are you alright.?.
Are you safe?.
Are you feeling alright ?.
Are you at peace?.
Are you still holding on?,
What happened to you?.
What went down?.
What is your story?.
What are were you doing?.
All i know is your heart rate on the screen.
Seems to grow dull , after weeks of sleep.
Will you ever awaken?
Will you ever come back to me?
Will you please stay alive?
I need you.
I love you.
I feel for you.
I fear for you.
I want you.
Please hold on.
As long as you can.
Because without you.
I'll waste away.
As the days slip away
-Camille.
I heard a tale
A long time ago.
I heard this rumor
That i didn't believe was true.
Love was the rumor.
How many stories flew.
How love could bring happiness
or much sorrow to you .
How i grew up on this fairy tale on love.
It was my blind side.
I never built my guard up.
I never knew love could kill.
When love knocked on my door.
I didn't know how to handle it.
It took every piece of me.
Took everything i had,
It drained me dry.
All the way to the core.
I fell in love.
I cared so much.
I never knew how love felt.
Till you came walking through my door.
Than i never were the same.
My world was now flipped upside down.
Forever in this sick love game.
And now i hurt .
All over the place.
My heart feels heavy
It feels so out of place.
Your miles away from me.
Doing your own thing.
I am waiting for your return.
And it seems like a life time.
How i long for your hug
for that warm embrace
For that kiss ,
those warm lips across my rose red lips.
For that eye lock, that melts the world away.
Yet i had to wait, for you to return.
When you returned, i had already lost this game.
Lost in heartbrake and pain.
We took two different ways a while ago.
Now i feel this mistake.
When we came face to face.
I had nothing to say.
Nothing but a fast heart rate.
And glossy eyes.
Now that we are friends again.
I'll hold everything in.
Just to spear your feelings.
And to stop my breaking heart.
But to just let you know.
When you drive back home.
That i am still in love with you,
-Camille.