Living with myself in like being in a very abusive relationship where the abusive partner puts out cigarettes on his partner's arm, threatens her with knives, smashes crockery, screaming at shouting, saying they're shit and deserve to die, and the next day they're like "sorry babe I'll make it up to you, let's get pizza and watch a film, you know I love you right, you'd never leave me right, I'd kill myself if you left me haha, I love you, sit down let's get some pizza, SIT DOWN"
Originally posted by QuincyMore hectic than eclectic but yeah this year in particular my goal has been to expand what I usually listen to the most. I've focused too closely on rock/alt/punk at the expense of fully exploring other genres, especially electronic, metal, hip-hop, extreme genres, classical etc. so my general thing this year is "no trademark alternative rock like Pavement, Parquet Courts etc. or even Ween" and to get more into the stuff I've always liked but has been too much of a commitment to adapt to fully in the past
Your taste has always been pretty eclectic
Originally posted by QuincyI wish that were the case but a lot of abused people find it impossible to leave their abuser as they become codependent on them and obviously are scared what the person will do if they do leave and they have seemingly nowhere to escape to so they just take it until they're eventually murdered
If you recognize it, that's a good thing. You can grow just from noticing that connection.