Mum still isn't back from hospital. We thought she had an ear infection but it's actually probably turning out that she had a mini-stroke in her sleep. She hasn't been herself at all lately and keeps forgetting things and hadn't been thinking straight in general. I'm so ****ing tired and pissed off that God keeps throwing more and more shit at me and my family as if we don't already have enough to be dealing with. None of this would have happened if I hadn't come out as trans. I contravened God's law and it looks like he's going to kill my parents just to show me how disgusting a failure of humanity I am. If my mum has another stroke it will be because of me. I bdis all this to my family just because I wanted to be more comfortable in my own body it wasn't worth it it wasn't ****ing worth it
Originally posted by Scribbleoh man sorry scribs, hope she's okay
My mum was so healthy and spry up until last week and then she was walking around not knowing where she was or what was going on. I'm not emotionally ready to deal with this, I can't do it, my mum being strong and stable was one of my few positive constants and even that has been taken from me.