Originally posted by darthmaul1
People commited suicide over avatar?
😑 Apparently so,For anyone interested,have a read of this
Hi,
I know you and I don't know each other. I have been lurking this website for weeks now, never posting, fearing it may increase my addiction.
I have "Avatar blues," although I do believe my situation is significantly worse than the average viewer. I don't get much support, and every person I've spoken to has dismissed my claims. You might think suicide is a bit extreme and I have to admit it is, but I am out of option. In my religion classes (Christian), I was told that if a person has lived a good life, he can go to whichever place he wants upon his death; I am simply hoping to rest on Pandora forever.
My story begins days before Christmas. I went to see Avatar because it was the movie to see, with my family. I remember liking it, but not "falling in love" with it. It was just a movie, like so many other. The first viewing was not particularly special for me. I liked it, I thought about the Na'vi for a few minutes afterwards, then went on to celebrate Christmas and forgot about it. I'll always regret seeing it a second time. Ironically, had I stopped there, nothing of this would have happened. Ironic that the second viewing of this movie changed everything.
After New Year's Eve, I went to see this movie again with friends because I felt it has more to offer. I liked the 3D effects and wanted to see it again.
Boy, was I wrong!
It completely devastated me. I had a whole different experience. It was happy, then sad, then even sadder, then shocking. Suddenly I couldn't do anything but think about the Na'vi - Neytiri and Jake, in particular. I was angry at the RDA and angry at our government, currently killing Iraqians for the same purpose (oil, unobtanium...) and suddenly I saw no sense in what I was doing. My friends didn't share much of my feelings, simply talking about the "simple plot" and that it was entertaining. But I was on a whole different level. I was emotionally shocked, traumatized.
I fell in love with the whole planet, then realized my whole life is pointless. I'll never meet the Na'vis or anything remotely exciting. I'll never go on Pandora and explore it myself. I am not even rich and will live a pointless life in a stupid job, while Jake is out there exploring with the Na'vis, living a true life on Pandora, the magnificent and beautiful Pandora! I am nothing, my whole life is nothing. I'm spending it studying numbers and letter while Jake does something that really counts, with the most amazing woman in the universe.
I went to see the movie again the next day, alone. Since then, I saw the movie almost every day. I have watched this movie over 15 times and simply can't get enough of it - it's an addiction, and I cannot get rid of it.
I have even downloaded the movie (illegally, I confessed) and watched it again - and then paid to watch it at the cinema again anyway! I downloaded the soundtrack and skipped school to play the video game (always as Na'vi, I will never know what the human side looks like). I read everything I could find about Avatar - both on the Internet or in writing.
I could not live without Avatar. I couldn't concentrate in class and got a 0 in an early exam. I know for a fact I won't be able to study and that this session will be disastrous. I only think about Avatar, all the time. I only want to see the movie again, join the beautiful Neytiri and close my eyes again as the Hometree is put down (which I've started to do the last times). I stopped talking to friends and spend most of my free time in my room, thinking about Avatar, writing Fan Fiction and drawing.
I hoped my situation would improve with time, but it did not - each day, it got more intense, up to a point I could not sleep. I have never felt this way before - I have watched tons of movies, loved them (such as Inglorious Bastards, this year) but never felt so obsessed. I fear it will never improve, and I fear my life is worthless.
Not only am I contributing (indirectly) to a kind of futuristic RDA, by working and paying taxes (later in my life), but I can never hope to be a Na'vi. I am a stupid human in a stupid school doing stupid crap. How can I find a sense in my life when Jake and the Na'vis are fighting for survival on the most beautiful planet? And why should I support a system that will later oppress people (if not Na'vi, other alien races) AND oppress population right now? I think not knowing is the worse. What happens to the Na'vis after the RDA leaves? Does the RDA comes back and kill everyone? Are the Na'vis happy? How can I know.
So I've come to think about suicide. I simply can't live like this any longer. I admit it looks sort of ridiculous - killing yourself for a movie? Nobody has understood what I was feeling. Nothing I've tried - even on this forum - has helped, and I fear it will never get better. I am simply too obsessed, too unhappy to continue. I think about Avatar, only Avatar, all Avatar. I want to be a Na'vi, meet Neytiri and visit Pandora. Tonight I will go watch the last evening show of Avatar and end my life thereafter. There is no point for me to continue to live. I'm too unhappy. You could tell me to wait for Avatar 2 to come out, but it's going to come out so late (if at all) I'm better off not thinking about it.
So, Reddit, thank you for allowing me to talk about it, and sorry for this long, interminable post. I only ask that you do not laugh about me. Too many people have already. I have spent part of the two last weeks on this forum and enjoyed the beautiful pictures, extra information, and chance to know the Avatar's environment even better. I feel privileged that I was able to watch this movie, but it did made me feel very depressed, and obsessed. It's definitely dangerous, and I want people to be warned about it.
I will not post again. Thank you again for listening to me, it really did help me to tell everything I was thinking about, and thank you again for this great forum.
😬 Thats pretty ****ed up