i dont judge peoples writing because how can i, what does it matter what i think when it should only matter what u think, u want tips or help go to skool or a libary, i write what i know and witness, to me it doesnt matter weather u love, hate or and displeased with my writing. its my words not theirs
just like urs are not mine
this isnt a poem..i just gotta say somethings
Nightskye...me luke, its been 2 years since i met you Casey, your not here anymore, u dont talk to me on msn, i cant call you or txt you, ur married...i dunno if ur ever gonna see this or not
i grew up..strange no?..me...ur lil koffie turning 18 this friday
you made me a promise to save me from this life i lived when i turned 18..i havent heard from you, we spoke once..once in months, i forgot you. my brithday coming brought this up, i dunno if u even remember me or give me another thought, i still have every email, picture, txt u have ever sent me, i dont love you anymore..i told you everything i opend up and let you in.
i was broken up inside, i led a dark life, changed my image.
2 years and your still not here in my door way..i dont expect you to be.
i dont expect anything of you, u played me, i was foolish, i saw everything but i still brought all ur words of love.
im not happy, still hurting and i dunno how long for
i have questions i know i will never get the answers
why i write this? to be honnest i really dont know, is there a point to this? no not really, why would u people care what i write?
im writing this not so you know i still hate you Casey
just to let you know im not a kid anymore, im not koffie..im not nightskye...im not skye.
but i still am.....your muse
im sorry you died...im even more sorry you came back.
but somewhere along the line...i died too..
and i still do
your muse
Nightskye...
Im just lost again..
i think you know it too
through out all of this pain and confusion
i hope u can see that your the one i want
i want to be there with you through it all
through the fights, passion, love and lust
you can't tell me that this aint real
because its all ive got to hold on
lonly nights again
you've got me watching your eyes
could you ever look at me and smile?
will things ever go my way?
pretty faces but i could only see you
i dont want to change the way i am
i just want you to be here with me..
let me hold you..because right now im so cold
im lonley...i need not someone..i need you to hold me at say everythings gonna be alright..when i finaly get my chance..would you kiss me?..
i can't change the way i feel..
i want to tell you..
but first...could u look at me?...
just..
......kiss me.....
from the core of the bottom in my heart darkness lays still growing, silently like a plague, falling back to memories of the past once again waiting untill the sun touches my skin for the first time. when i look into my eyes theres nothing there to see..im still here but im not me...but something else..shaking in the corner of my room...feeling things i havent felt before, i know pain..i know emotion..i know love, but this...i havent felt. im pushing people away...ive cried tears of blood in my life, tears like a crow, and smiled insain, dark and wild like the shadows.
no matter what you see, no matter what you know, its so hard to be left all alone...theres nothing left behind this time, im asking why!!!??? god knows i cant go on crying!!!! it hurts to much i just need to live!!!...i gotta find another place to breath, standing still here i just cant take the words in my head...
I GET THE F*CKING POINT!!!!
lost and broken...
my soul is bleeding while i try to make it seem ok
a smile on the out side
scars beneath my skin
u were the one to help me heal them shut
but im open
and im bleeding
this time i need someone to help me dew them up
i didnt want this to go this way
i only wanted to spend my life with you
jump into heaven now before its too late
there it goes again
just like life
murder
so tell me what i did that was so bad
ive been walking...the rain wont let me be
so im diffrent...so im dark...so my life is painful
because of that..i guess thats what i get
i get to be alone
just me...hah..no one else...
me alone bleeding...
someone hear me?....please....
so you come along, i push you away
so what?
im the bad guy?
maybe i am
maybe im not
this time around im done, i dont give a f*ck whos wrong or right
nobody seems to be listing
dont try to understand me
just do the things I F*CKING SAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!
im not like any other guy ull ever met
cant deal with that?
then dont start talking to me
u want love
i want my life back
i cant have it
then neither can you
grow up...
no matter how hard you cry i cant hear you
i cant come running to your side
stop ur crying
dry ur tears and start with the person infront of the mirror
i did
its your trun
i dont want this to end
i dont want to be the bad guy
i dont know why i do this'
but i do, its bad enough
i once wanted to reach up into heaven to thankgod for my perfect angel
you say no ones perfect
then i guess ur not my angel of light like i thought u were
i guess im not your dark angel either
no ones perfect? angels are
some angel i turned out to be
what is it..?
something isn't right
should i fight this?
accept it?
play along?
i pull away...
somethings wrong
but i dunno what..
it doesnt feel right...not now
am i not ready for this?
should i let it be?
am i just the kid crying for so much more?
whats the matter with me.
something so right...but i pull away..over and over..
"are you afriad of affection?"
am i?..
i don't understand...
just sitting here spining my ring around my finger
just..sitting...thinking...
all my dreams..hopes
just dont matter to me anymore
i was lost but i found my way
does anyone really know whats happening?
does anyone really care?
im not so diffrent from anyone else
darkness is the colour i feel inside
ashamed of it? me?
why hide apart of me..
I wont..
Originally posted by kofmaster
this isnt a poem..i just gotta say somethingsNightskye...me luke, its been 2 years since i met you Casey, your not here anymore, u dont talk to me on msn, i cant call you or txt you, ur married...i dunno if ur ever gonna see this or not
i grew up..strange no?..me...ur lil koffie turning 18 this friday
you made me a promise to save me from this life i lived when i turned 18..i havent heard from you, we spoke once..once in months, i forgot you. my brithday coming brought this up, i dunno if u even remember me or give me another thought, i still have every email, picture, txt u have ever sent me, i dont love you anymore..i told you everything i opend up and let you in.i was broken up inside, i led a dark life, changed my image.
2 years and your still not here in my door way..i dont expect you to be.
i dont expect anything of you, u played me, i was foolish, i saw everything but i still brought all ur words of love.im not happy, still hurting and i dunno how long for
i have questions i know i will never get the answers
why i write this? to be honnest i really dont know, is there a point to this? no not really, why would u people care what i write?
im writing this not so you know i still hate you Casey
just to let you know im not a kid anymore, im not koffie..im not nightskye...im not skye.but i still am.....your muse
im sorry you died...im even more sorry you came back.
but somewhere along the line...i died too..and i still do
your muse
Nightskye...
oh, look... seems as if you know how I felt about you. you ****ed me up and it came back to you. That makes me smile
she smiles
she finds it funny that the sun light
shining yellow
when she leaves you
you want to follow her anywhere
dresses to tango
but you can't help but stare
shes a hot one
true love senorita
you know shes got the attitude
she'll tease you or please you
you feeling good? or burn you like i knew she would
true love senorita
you can show your emotions and secret side in the night
dont stop the music
not yet
dancing with the rythm
move in advance and take my hand
closer to your eyes
i cant control my life inside
two glances just isnt enough
dance with pain
dance with anger
dance with love
dont stop
dancing is free
its a saviour
its a release
a passion
if you havent danced yet what the f*ck did you come for?
could it be that you wonna be more like me?
dream on..
i hope i somehow get to you
i dunno where my soul is
did i lose it or give it away?
is this real or pretend?
in the end either way its all i got
so im gonna hold on and on...
while watching your eyes
im watching just to see you looking back at me
i dunno where my home is
i dunno where my heart is
i dunno where my family is
i dunno where my trust is
i dunno where my words come from
you cant tell me how to feel
always sitting here thinking back
back to a time when memories seem hurtful
lost? confused? angry? sad?
there are many dark things in this world
human and creatures alike
im just simply one of them
dont hold it against me..