pain poems

anything you want from me
everything you want from me
i gave you.
dont talk to me about death
why would i want to hear it?
haven't i had it enough yet?
my world changed long ago

you think u can change it back?

you
u act like u know so much
compared to me what do u really know?
u judge me saying u know me
u know how i act?
how i think?
think again kid...i aint like any other guy u'll know

so im different...
doesnt mean its good
the difference...me...

the difference between life and death...

you have no idea..

im not who i make out to be
u see me
dark..
black clothing, black hair, cold eyes...
dark eyeliner painting my face in shadows..
cold skin..pale, hands always cold like the grave of ur lost loved one
ever been scared?...ever been scared every waking minute?..
i have..

what am i..two different people, one soul..
two faces
the one i show..the one everyone knows me as.
then me, no one knows..under all the make up..all the pain and darkness
theres just a teenager wanting to know what i do next.

should i get up?

or just lay down and die?..

who am i?..im nobody, just like you.

no matter how hard we try
people can take their shots
break our dreams and hopes in two
all our sins are simple
and in my heart i dont know light anymore

religion, trying to find their way into heaven
did i miss something? fall down the stairway?
once people are gone why do we cry?
no matter how hard we shead our tears they cant hear us
im mortal, a human teenage boy
i know pain
i know fear
i know many things

i know the past doesnt repeat itself
but i know the past makes me the man i am today
did i ever make you proud?
while u sit in the next room to me..do u know im here..?
if i droped dead would u come to my grave?
did u go to your first sons?.......no...then why mine?..

was i a good son?...did i make the right choice?
my faith is dead and cold like its never been before
should i call?
SHOULD I EVER F*CKING COUNT ON YOU!!!!???
SHOULD I GIVE UP!!!!!!??
i try so....so mother f*cking hard to understand you...

once again with my back against the wall
i dont know you like i did
in this f*cked up life im not so sure about anything anymore

but i still try to understand...ive wanted to let go for so long..

take ur empty words, all your lies and broken promises
all the time uve watched over me did u ever really look?
im doing everything i should have!!!

i knew i would f*ck up somewhere along the line..
but i will never...

never be...
just
like
you....

do I make you cry?...
do i bring you anger?..frustration?..pain?...and sorrow?
u said you loved me..
i said im sorry
every night I look at the sky
call a name and wonder why...
a name never heard, a name silent and unknown
even to me..
do you love me?..
fear me?..
are you scared?..is it my fault?
do you look at me as i were a human being?
or something else?..
something out of a shattered window in a dark ally..
memories stay in our lives its true
but memories can be forgotten
can i just for once be nothing more but a shattered window to you?
nothing more than a guy u walk past on the street that you wouldnt even take another look at..

did i ever make you cry?..cry from my hurtfilled words, my agression..
i get told i shut people out
no one gets in, no one gets hurt
seems logical doesnt it?...

then why doesnt it work...

you figure it out...

ive learnt lessons in my life
mostly the hard way
either through failure
or through blood burses and tears
kids...teenagers are so predictable today
you think high skool is so hard
ive been there...and i know how turly mean people can be
look at me..i'll admit i to can be one to kick someone down
but who doesnt
i dont hide anything, people asume i do
i just show all thats needed to be shown
from that people make up what they want
believe what they want and think they see

high skool aint so hard..so dont make it out to be
"my life is ruined"
u sure?..then make a new one, i did

i had to

they are REALLY good! keep writing ur awesome

you are realli awsum at writin these poems...

keep writin!!

My pain poems (your release?)

blood on the sheets
blood on the kinfe
i dont know darkness within my light

blood on the kinfe
blood on the sheets
are my pain poems your release?

i dunno why
i sit and cry
come on mother f*cker tell me I'm gonna die!!!

shes a girl
call me crazy but I think i love her
i dont know what to do
i cant
just hold you in my arms and cry
coz shes so far away

will i be ur release into the night?
can my words take u higher than any god?

blood on the sheets
blood on the kinfe
i dont know darkness within my light

blood on the kinfe
blood on the sheets
are my pain poems your release?

i dunno why
i sit and cry
come on mother f*cker tell me I'm gonna die!!!

hold me like you are alone
touch me i feel so cold
burning my soul and feeding...

MY HEART!!!!!!

before i cry..

love me like the kiss of the surpent sun
i am the warth of dark
and nightmears in the waking eye
let me paint you this picture
scard and alone
burning my heart killing my blood

are u scared of the dark?
when all fears came alive and consumed me
take me to heaven for the first time tonight
do i belong there?
will u let me in?
the blood on my hands is the honer
not the shame

wont let go
blazing in my eyes
i stand still in time
come on and show me
my love

gods will kneel before i cry..

im time
i hope i can show u how to die
just like i did
darkness or light?
doesnt matter
in each there must be the other
we all wear masks
hide behind doors

cover my bed grave with rose pettles
lets ur blood drain its self from ur wrist
let it leek into my tomb
bleed into me, its makes me feel real
i will raise from the dead once again
even if ur love will be the death of me

summer kills off winter with a passion
darkness reborned me the very same
angles with sorrow, they witness me from heavens door
flowers blooming with poision
a simple kiss could kill them off
brushing the pettles over my lips slowly
droping it as they turn to black

pettles of black so dark and misunderstood
hiding behined a rose door to be safe
one look could change the way we see the world

u may stop to smell the roses..
i stop to slit my throat with its throns..

bleed me as i were nothing more than a rose to you

people have feelings..or did u forget that?
so im human and because of that im the bad guy?
its happend before
but this time it f*cking hurts
i admit that I loved you, my heat was yours
to prove me wrong u did this
i was killing my lonieliness with you
i would kiss her good night..but she doesnt seem to like that anymore.
i wanted to be chained with you together...
disapear in the light forever..forget that
watch me fade away into the darkness of loneiliness again...

let me lead u in the dark
home to me where i grew up
let me show u this painful shatterd soul
paint a picture from my drained lungs
no more breath within me
ill be the frozen heart to hurt you
ill be the nightmear to make u cry..
let me weep you this poem as heavens gates close
scard and alone...
waiting for your kiss to take me back home

one i've never known...

your true side of love took away all that matters
wots left of the remains?
killing me slowing in a unmarked grave
made to cry together
sheading tears of blood as we cry
two hearts, disapear in the power of death at once
in the warmth from your arms around me i feel safe
when will i feel that again?
just for you to hold me i would die
kill my pain coz i cant hold it anymore
what am i to you?
was i the light in ur darkness?
or the darkness in ur light?..
i hope she crys tonight..just like i have
like a raven in the night with posion tears burning my cheek.
fears that haunt me in ur smile..
so beautiful but hurtfull now..
ill learn how to die soon enough

I'm debating if I should move this to Poetry or keep it here...

Keep up the good work, Kof!

a final kiss yet its the frist
could i kill this pain off with you?
i dont want to feel the way that i do
just to feel as though there was soemthing i missed
tears of a life falling into dark light
i may come off cold..heartless
but even the most darkest of things cry..
kissing ur lips as they slip away like torne pettles..
dance with me in the winter night
and tell me ...tell me am i still so cold?..

[QUOTE=5454380]Originally posted by kofmaster
[B]My pain poems (your release?)

that is such a awsum poem
i luv it

how did u get so good at writin poems??

Originally posted by bloody_tears
[QUOTE=5454380]Originally posted by kofmaster
[B]My pain poems (your release?)

that is such a awsum poem
i luv it

how did u get so good at writin poems??

i dont know i just write

well ur realli awsum at it

how long u been writin for???

um....im not sure, bout just over 2 years?

ok kewlz

i wish i culd write like you
i write poems n stuff
my friends think they are really deep and stuff
n dey think they are really good

but i dont kno if i suld put them in here

so yer