Why is it so F#$#@@@!!! hard to live in this world?

Started by DreamingWarrior69 pages

haha... well, i didnt quite get your post, Lara... haha..

Nun, yeah, i wander abit sometimes in my poems. Just my own style. Might make em, well, not up to what they could be, but that is me. When I write, it flows. I dont staunch it or direct it, it directs me. haha. but thanks for the input, i shall make efforts to do some with more focus.

Weight

Kneeling, falling closer to the dust,
Your sweat doesn't drip anymore,
it just slides to the ground silently.

Burning in bloodshot eyes,
Acrid fumes from the funeral pyre
Assault your senses and mind.

The sacrifice is done with,
The flames have licked clean the bones
The old burns to ash.

This penance has taken ages to come round,
And now the new flesh you have is weak,
The slightest touch bruises the skin.

You can barely hold up the sorrow,
That face overflowing with tears and shadows,
The living proof of despair.

Naked, your body turns blue in the cold winds,
Whipping about this cairn like angry spirits,
Threatening to drive you mad.

Your eyes cannot make out shapes,
The flames blind you and the darkeness robs you,
But you can hear over the roar someone close.

As quickly as you sense their presence,
Upon your shoulders is laid a rough cloth,
The cloak of this wanderer.

The winds cease their frantic howls,
The fire dies down, and warmth floods you,
Sweat and tears slow to a stop.

Drawing you close gently,
Cradling your frail form,
A whisper of hope pierces the gloom.

A soft kiss from a stubbly mouth,
You feel yourself carried away,
And lose the tenuous grasp on consciousness.

Awakening, you feel warmth in your belly,
A flask of brandy close at hand,
And a stranger sitting, staring at you.

Sitting upright, now you see who saved you,
And the lightning in his eyes lets you know,
It is the man from dreams of long ago.

He walks quietly to you, gently smiling again,
And lays you down upon the softest bed.
"Rest. The battle is won. Be at peace."

I have no idea where this came from, it just did.... 😮

Broken inside, crying my last,trying to mend...
On this cliff, close to the ledge, I see my end...
A sneer and a wink, I kiss Death, and let go...
And plunge into icy black seas, following their flow.

Now I see all that I missed when life was dead...
All of those that really loved me, the love I fled.
And all I hear is the demon's laugh and the final knell...
The time has come, now I'm in chains, this prison cell...

Held fast and gone, no hope no joy, there is no chance.
I missed my cue, fell on my face, lost in a glance...

My eyes open wide, the laughter's gone, now there's a light,
No tunnel, no, just a cold steel bed, it's so damn bright...
I blink back tears, and see silver glint, the surgeon speaks,
"We got you in time, you've been hurt, it'll take weeks."

Now I was revived, when I was gone, and slung into hell.
I'd kept it all inside my heart, I hid in this shell.
And through the days that followed that night, I see now truth,
I'd nearly lost all that love kept from my youth...

Now I know what it was like to face down my own darkness...
And I have my gift, though it hurts me so, it's used to bless....
So walk with me, and listen to love, the sounds of the earth...
Believe my words, and lean on my, remember your worth...

You were worth a lifetime of torment, a lifetime of pain,
Worth a lifetime of anguish and hatred.
And if I had to, I'd do it again.

to everyone and to no one..... just randomness again.... my mind is in a weird place right now....

Very nice. XD I especially like the opening.. "I kiss death and let go..."

The first one is actually different from your usual style, wouldn't you say? Like a lot of your latest.. I think your style/ technique's changed somewhat since you first started with the thread.. 🙂
Oh, but I thought it was well done.

Originally posted by Coldfire
That's awesome girl! 😄

Awesome ✅

Lol thanks, Cold. It's been a while since I've posted any poetry on kmc 😂

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
Weight

Kneeling, falling closer to the dust,
Your sweat doesn't drip anymore,
it just slides to the ground silently.

Burning in bloodshot eyes,
Acrid fumes from the funeral pyre
Assault your senses and mind.

The sacrifice is done with,
The flames have licked clean the bones
The old burns to ash.

This penance has taken ages to come round,
And now the new flesh you have is weak,
The slightest touch bruises the skin.

You can barely hold up the sorrow,
That face overflowing with tears and shadows,
The living proof of despair.

Naked, your body turns blue in the cold winds,
Whipping about this cairn like angry spirits,
Threatening to drive you mad.

Your eyes cannot make out shapes,
The flames blind you and the darkeness robs you,
But you can hear over the roar someone close.

As quickly as you sense their presence,
Upon your shoulders is laid a rough cloth,
The cloak of this wanderer.

The winds cease their frantic howls,
The fire dies down, and warmth floods you,
Sweat and tears slow to a stop.

Drawing you close gently,
Cradling your frail form,
A whisper of hope pierces the gloom.

A soft kiss from a stubbly mouth,
You feel yourself carried away,
And lose the tenuous grasp on consciousness.

Awakening, you feel warmth in your belly,
A flask of brandy close at hand,
And a stranger sitting, staring at you.

Sitting upright, now you see who saved you,
And the lightning in his eyes lets you know,
It is the man from dreams of long ago.

He walks quietly to you, gently smiling again,
And lays you down upon the softest bed.
"Rest. The battle is won. Be at peace."

I have no idea where this came from, it just did.... 😮


Whoa I had this really strong image in my head of everything that was happening there 😱 C'est bien mon chere 😊
Originally posted by Tassie
Very nice. XD I especially like the opening.. "I kiss death and let go..."

The first one is actually different from your usual style, wouldn't you say? Like a lot of your latest.. I think your style/ technique's changed somewhat since you first started with the thread.. 🙂
Oh, but I thought it was well done.

Lol thanks, Cold. It's been a while since I've posted any poetry on kmc 😂


You're welcome 😊

I wish some one would save me.

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
Weight

Kneeling, falling closer to the dust,
Your sweat doesn't drip anymore,
it just slides to the ground silently.

Burning in bloodshot eyes,
Acrid fumes from the funeral pyre
Assault your senses and mind.

The sacrifice is done with,
The flames have licked clean the bones
The old burns to ash.

This penance has taken ages to come round,
And now the new flesh you have is weak,
The slightest touch bruises the skin.

You can barely hold up the sorrow,
That face overflowing with tears and shadows,
The living proof of despair.

Naked, your body turns blue in the cold winds,
Whipping about this cairn like angry spirits,
Threatening to drive you mad.

Your eyes cannot make out shapes,
The flames blind you and the darkeness robs you,
But you can hear over the roar someone close.

As quickly as you sense their presence,
Upon your shoulders is laid a rough cloth,
The cloak of this wanderer.

The winds cease their frantic howls,
The fire dies down, and warmth floods you,
Sweat and tears slow to a stop.

Drawing you close gently,
Cradling your frail form,
A whisper of hope pierces the gloom.

A soft kiss from a stubbly mouth,
You feel yourself carried away,
And lose the tenuous grasp on consciousness.

Awakening, you feel warmth in your belly,
A flask of brandy close at hand,
And a stranger sitting, staring at you.

Sitting upright, now you see who saved you,
And the lightning in his eyes lets you know,
It is the man from dreams of long ago.

He walks quietly to you, gently smiling again,
And lays you down upon the softest bed.
"Rest. The battle is won. Be at peace."

I have no idea where this came from, it just did.... 😮

I like this....great images..... 🙂

Originally posted by Tassie
Very nice. XD I especially like the opening.. "I kiss death and let go..."

The first one is actually different from your usual style, wouldn't you say? Like a lot of your latest.. I think your style/ technique's changed somewhat since you first started with the thread.. 🙂
Oh, but I thought it was well done.

Lol thanks, Cold. It's been a while since I've posted any poetry on kmc 😂

Ha.... see what I mean!?! It IS a great poem! yours, not mine....

Yeah, just been in a weird place as of a few days ago... heh... hard to explain. Doing good, just .... I feel something weird. dunno. gotta introspect and see. 😄

Originally posted by Coldfire
Whoa I had this really strong image in my head of everything that was happening there 😱 C'est bien mon chere 😊

You're welcome 😊

Danke, mein mouschie.

Originally posted by debbiejo
I like this....great images..... 🙂
Ha... well, glad it came off well... I got no Idea where it came from... well, sorta, but not gonna share it here... ha.

Originally posted by Lara
I wish some one would save me.

😉 Always here cheri. And always prepared.

Originally posted by Lara
I wish some one would save me.
i'm sure mighty mouse is available...😛 I joke!! I joke!!

Originally posted by Fëanor
i'm sure mighty mouse is available...😛 I joke!! I joke!!

schweinhund.... 😂

The bad man, the sad man...

Tell me I'm wrong, tell me you're right,
Ignore my apologies, snicker out of sight,
Laugh behind my back, "He's mad again, haha"
You took my life off track, all I feel is FAUGH!
F@#k you and your bulls#!!, you special little thing,
I am sick of being the excuse for all this bickering,
When I stop you go on, and then you walk away,
You think yours is more special in every single way.
Why is mine not as good? Not as important?? Not as worthy?????
My anger and my tears flood my mind, making my world so blurry,
So hard to type this bitter prose as I think of the uncaring,
I wanted so badly to just understand what the f@#k you were sharing,
Instead of reason, you fell to anger, and I naturally defended,
So f@#ing sad that this is the way our relationship is ended,
I am no longer willing to hear have hold or listen to this group,
String up the damned noose, I'll put my own head through the loop,
You are in control of your own emotions, yet you blame ME???!!!???
You ignore my attempts to talk it out with decency,
I spend my hard-earned cash to try and reason with you,
But you take what you want, ignoring the rest, my heart too.
Now I burn, and sleep flees my grasp, anger and sadness deeply wound,
This whipping boy is a boy no more, a man who dances to his own tune,
I make my own path, and now you're mad, you cannot influence it,
All I have to say to you;"F#@k it, you and all this bulls#!!."
I am on my own, I'll be fine, I don't want to hear anymore lies:
"You are the reason we're all falling apart" the care in me dies,
Blaming others for no communion? Damn straight, I now do,
But not that night, you just didn't listen or pay attention now did you?
Apparently not, and when you read this, and your feelings feel bruised,
Remember first the one YOU HURT, the one alone and feeling used.
You tell me think of others, THAT IS ALL I F@#KING THINK ABOUT!
But you don't know me worth a damn, so how would you know?
How would you be able to see how I have changed, and grown?
But no. That doesnt even enter your mind, just "wow, you are stuck on me mode."
No, I was not, and my day was fine, but talking with you makes my joy erode,
All I hear is how unreasonable, how uncaring I am to those close to me.
You don't bother to look for the truth, HA! That move will never come to be.
I could list how much I care, and how much I give, but my actions speak for themself.
You miss all of it because you are wrapped up in the hand you've been dealt.
I have tried for years to keep everyone talking and together,
But all my efforts are like Picasso, sand and rainy weather,
Washed away before they're done, and never even remembered.
So how 'bout you live yours, I'll live mine, and to my hope surrender.

Not a poem meant for anyone here. I wrote it cause I am absolutely sick of the bs and drama I have gone through lately... If you read this and get offended, too damn bad. I am NOT gonna play nice with you anymore. Ya think YOU hurt??? Try thinking about what you say before you say it, and what you do before you do it. Anyways, sorry KMC,

RANT=OFF

😆

anyways, how ya'll doin? hopefully grand! Fea, UG, Cold, Tass, El, Vay, JJ, AOR, Debs, LARA, Bor, the rest of ya too! hahaa!

This song pretty much sums up me at the moment...

FLOGGING MOLLY LYRICS

"These Exiled Years"

It's four in the mornin'
Battered and numb
A loaded room, an empty gun
I whistle a tune, I heard years before
The clock started tickin'
Where did the time go
I danced to the mornin'
She called out my name
The wind was a howlin'
And down came the rain
Her arms they caressed me
Sweet was her brow
She opened my eyes
To banish the doubt
Wash me down in all of your joy
But don't drag me through this again

I've heard all your sad songs I can hear
It's in with the whiskey and out with the gin
I've heard all your sad songs I can hear
It's another day older
In These Exiled Years

The dew on the ground
Blankets the face
Cold was the night
Gone her embrace
For your land of the free
Now prisons me
To rot in this jail
Of lost liberty

Wash me down in all of your joy
But don't drag me through this again

I've heard all your sad songs I can hear
It's in with the whiskey and out with the gin
I've heard all your sad songs I can hear
It's another day older
In These Exiled Years

Walk away, watch me as I wave
One foot here, but sure the other's in the grave
Walk away, walk away

I've heard all your sad songs I can hear
It's in with the whiskey and out with the gin
I've heard all your sad songs I can hear
It's another day older
In These Exiled Years

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
The bad man, the sad man...

Tell me I'm wrong, tell me you're right,
Ignore my apologies, snicker out of sight,
Laugh behind my back, "He's mad again, haha"
You took my life off track, all I feel is FAUGH!
F@#k you and your bulls#!!, you special little thing,
I am sick of being the excuse for all this bickering,
When I stop you go on, and then you walk away,
You think yours is more special in every single way.
Why is mine not as good? Not as important?? Not as worthy?????
My anger and my tears flood my mind, making my world so blurry,
So hard to type this bitter prose as I think of the uncaring,
I wanted so badly to just understand what the f@#k you were sharing,
Instead of reason, you fell to anger, and I naturally defended,
So f@#ing sad that this is the way our relationship is ended,
I am no longer willing to hear have hold or listen to this group,
String up the damned noose, I'll put my own head through the loop,
You are in control of your own emotions, yet you blame ME???!!!???
You ignore my attempts to talk it out with decency,
I spend my hard-earned cash to try and reason with you,
But you take what you want, ignoring the rest, my heart too.
Now I burn, and sleep flees my grasp, anger and sadness deeply wound,
This whipping boy is a boy no more, a man who dances to his own tune,
I make my own path, and now you're mad, you cannot influence it,
All I have to say to you;"F#@k it, you and all this bulls#!!."
I am on my own, I'll be fine, I don't want to hear anymore lies:
"You are the reason we're all falling apart" the care in me dies,
Blaming others for no communion? Damn straight, I now do,
But not that night, you just didn't listen or pay attention now did you?
Apparently not, and when you read this, and your feelings feel bruised,
Remember first the one YOU HURT, the one alone and feeling used.
You tell me think of others, THAT IS ALL I F@#KING THINK ABOUT!
But you don't know me worth a damn, so how would you know?
How would you be able to see how I have changed, and grown?
But no. That doesnt even enter your mind, just "wow, you are stuck on me mode."
No, I was not, and my day was fine, but talking with you makes my joy erode,
All I hear is how unreasonable, how uncaring I am to those close to me.
You don't bother to look for the truth, HA! That move will never come to be.
I could list how much I care, and how much I give, but my actions speak for themself.
You miss all of it because you are wrapped up in the hand you've been dealt.
I have tried for years to keep everyone talking and together,
But all my efforts are like Picasso, sand and rainy weather,
Washed away before they're done, and never even remembered.
So how 'bout you live yours, I'll live mine, and to my hope surrender.


Wow.... notworthy

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
Not a poem meant for anyone here. I wrote it cause I am absolutely sick of the bs and drama I have gone through lately... If you read this and get offended, too damn bad. I am NOT gonna play nice with you anymore. Ya think YOU hurt??? Try thinking about what you say before you say it, and what you do before you do it. Anyways, sorry KMC,

RANT=OFF

😆

anyways, how ya'll doin? hopefully grand! Fea, UG, Cold, Tass, El, Vay, JJ, AOR, Debs, LARA, Bor, the rest of ya too! hahaa!


Damn I wish I could express myself like that 😄

I's been pretty good 😛 Not likin homework at the moment tho haha

Originally posted by Coldfire
Damn I wish I could express myself like that 😄

I's been pretty good 😛 Not likin homework at the moment tho haha

😆 yeah, I bet... Lara needs to post something.... 😄

For my sweet, whoever yo are

Some die for love, some cry for love,
Some beg, cheat and try to steal some love,
Set apart from birth, circumstances of fate,
I learned of love berfore it was too late,
I found death pointless, tears a foolish ploy,
And a man doesn't beg, cheat, lie, or steal; that's a boy.
I chose to Live for love, and twenty plus have passed,
Dunno when or who, but to my love I'll last,
I've suffered the empty, cold, and lonely road for you,
Living for love, what else can I do?

I love you. Whoever you are.

Oi, and if ya'll wanna stop by, I finally got a xanga site going. check it out, there are poems I will be posting there that I will not be posting here. http://www.xanga.com/LoneImmortal

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
Oi, and if ya'll wanna stop by, I finally got a xanga site going. check it out, there are poems I will be posting there that I will not be posting here. http://www.xanga.com/LoneImmortal

Too many sites, not enough time 😖 lol
Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
For my sweet, whoever yo are

Some die for love, some cry for love,
Some beg, cheat and try to steal some love,
Set apart from birth, circumstances of fate,
I learned of love berfore it was too late,
I found death pointless, tears a foolish ploy,
And a man doesn't beg, cheat, lie, or steal; that's a boy.
I chose to Live for love, and twenty plus have passed,
Dunno when or who, but to my love I'll last,
I've suffered the empty, cold, and lonely road for you,
Living for love, what else can I do?

I love you. Whoever you are.


awwww that's so sweet 😍