Justjakk in the box twisted lyrics.

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Originally posted by justjakk
i failed to save you...a chaos loveloss

i told you i loved you, you said you knew..and to this day
i wonder why you turned away and left me all alone

you found a guy who made you happy, i was so glad
that you did find someone to call your very own

i heard small runours, glimpses of your every day,
and wondered if you ever thought of me too

bad news, good news came my way, and i often wished
i were the one who shared it all with you

he broke your heart and i really wish that i was there to hold
you close and wipe the tears from off your face

you hurt yourself and i am often blamming me for not
trying harder and bringing you to a safer place

Aww. cry

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
well thats too bad isnt it? 😐 but hey thats life...
kool, you broke your silence.....that's great...but yeah a girl i liked alot moved and found a guy...he left her and she tried suicide

Originally posted by justjakk
kool, you broke your silence.....that's great...but yeah a girl i liked alot moved and found a guy...he left her and she tried suicide

why dont they ever notice when you like them? and suicide is hard, man....

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
why dont they ever notice when you like them? and suicide is hard, man....
what sucks is she told me she knew i loved her....she left to florida and every so often i would hear news about her and she seemed to be doing ok until she met this dude and she fell for him and they started to hang out very seriously...she lost her job and she started to over-do her makeup.....she used to look so beautiful...she changed....and she changed alot for him...my cousin would say different and would say she wouldnt have changed for anyone, but she did...they had been getting into some bad fights ...last thing i heard was she tried to commit suicide and it didnt work...she is now in a rehab facility and i totally hate it....i just dont know...

hug

i know that if you're there for her, and she knows it, she'll get over it.

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
hug

i know that if you're there for her, and she knows it, she'll get over it.

unfortunately i cant....shes in a hospital for the mentally disturbed

what a lucky *****

wow i didnt know they put the stars in for you.... amazing

and you dont have to be there in person

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
what a lucky *****

wow i didnt know they put the stars in for you.... amazing

and you dont have to be there in person

she tried to kill herself....she mustn't have thought i was there then......sorry...i didnt mean that.....its juat she was obviously depressed, but she never told me anything...makes me feel helpless...

Originally posted by justjakk
i failed to save you...a chaos loveloss

i told you i loved you, you said you knew..and to this day
i wonder why you turned away and left me all alone

you found a guy who made you happy, i was so glad
that you did find someone to call your very own

i heard small runours, glimpses of your every day,
and wondered if you ever thought of me too

bad news, good news came my way, and i often wished
i were the one who shared it all with you

he broke your heart and i really wish that i was there to hold
you close and wipe the tears from off your face

you hurt yourself and i am often blamming me for not
trying harder and bringing you to a safer place


cry
Originally posted by justjakk
she tried to kill herself....she mustn't have thought i was there then......sorry...i didnt mean that.....its juat she was obviously depressed, but she never told me anything...makes me feel helpless...

That must be the most horrible thing in the world. I wish I could do something to help hug

Originally posted by Coldfire
cry

That must be the most horrible thing in the world. I wish I could do something to help hug

yeah but you cant so, what're you gonna do, eh?

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
yeah but you cant so, what're you gonna do, eh?

Not much to be done really *shrugs*

Domestic violence from a victims eyes

outlandish they call it, but you say you like blood.
you covered it up, then you were allways like that.
to hang on every word is the same for a rope to place
and dangle from the very roof we built so long ago.

to stand so upright makes you so evil indeed.
and then we look inside to the real you and shutter.
but if we saw it at first, we wouldn't be in this mess
and hanging like we are, our bodies tangled in fish hooks.

how about it? you said so yourself. you hate us all, don't you?
you change your lines so many times, it makes me stop and think.
to have known you when there's someone else
but when they're gone, your true form shows..

Originally posted by justjakk
Domestic violence from a victims eyes

outlandish they call it, but you say you like blood.
you covered it up, then you were allways like that.
to hang on every word is the same for a rope to place
and dangle from the very roof we built so long ago.

to stand so upright makes you so evil indeed.
and then we look inside to the real you and shutter.
but if we saw it at first, we wouldn't be in this mess
and hanging like we are, our bodies tangled in fish hooks.

how about it? you said so yourself. you hate us all, don't you?
you change your lines so many times, it makes me stop and think.
to have known you when there's someone else
but when they're gone, your true form shows..


hug

Originally posted by Coldfire
hug
yeah, you hear so much on the news or on talk shows about people who marry and afterwards begin to act strange. either he acts very kind and she is quiet and you start seeing the black-eye or bruise. then maybe she is such a good person and he dsoes every little thing she tells him, but you hear stories now and then where she throws a chair or something.....i dunno, is strange..

yep, doesnt life just suck?

Originally posted by justjakk
yeah, you hear so much on the news or on talk shows about people who marry and afterwards begin to act strange. either he acts very kind and she is quiet and you start seeing the black-eye or bruise. then maybe she is such a good person and he dsoes every little thing she tells him, but you hear stories now and then where she throws a chair or something.....i dunno, is strange..

Yeah it really is strange... life is a horrible thing sometimes...

thinking on finishing some old projects....would like feedback on this. tell me if its a good idea to finish it..

Felion a 2-sided story...........................................by: Justjakk

~Introduction~

If you told me two years ago the fate of the world was on my sholders, I would have said "The world has problems." . See back then I didn't know many people, only kids in the orphan home were my family at that time. My name was Deacon. I had no last name cause no one wanted a 16 year old, they wanted younger children and I was almost age to leave the home and go out on my own. On my leaving day the head Minister came to me with a large box. He told me it was left for me and when I leave the home it was to be given to me. He said it was my "Birthright" (As if anyone really gave a care about me at all to leave me anything), and I would take it with me. In the old box was a large sword, a couple medalions and some old pictures. Sorting through all the micelaneous nick-nacks, I came upon a picture of a man dressed in an old military outfit. Surely this was my father. Maybe someone from the town could tell me who it is and I can find out where everything went wrong. Maybe he was killed in the line of duty and my mother couldn't keep me so she left me at the home. Maybe I still have family and they just don't know I'm even alive. Well I put it to mind that I was going to find my family and put an end to my waiting. It never really occured to me that maybe I was left for a more important reason. It never occured to me that I was not meant to return.

As luck would have it, I wasn't the only one searching for truth and it may have well put us both in danger.

I guess by now you wonder if I truly found out anything. Your guess would be right, I did. Fortunately at just the right time. Finds out the man in the photo was my grandfather, Kannon Lei, and he used to be a great samurai warrior. The sword left to me was known as the Blackfire Dragontooth. Claimed in battle many years ago, it was forged from a black dragons tooth. This sword was given to the most respected samurai warrior, and as you would also guess, it was given to my grandfather. Along with the sword was given a gold necklace linked to a beautiful green stone. This stone was the dragons right eye. Another stone (the left eye) like it was centered in the handguard of the sword. Only the wearer of the amulet and a sibling could wield the sword. Grandfather had a twin brother who also liked the sword and did much wrong with it. So the sword was locked in one box and the amulet in another, until one day when a decendant would have two children. That happened faster than grandfather would have expected. I was born almost twenty years later by his daughter, Ohren Lei. She was to marry a tactful business man named Dubea Kahn, but then I just happened to come along and Dubea wanted nothing to do with an unclean wife. He knew of this for they had never been intimate or close at all. She was being married off to him for the heritage class. No one knew how this could happen. The whole family was in shock. The only way to hide this was to give the infant away. So now you know how it came to me being in the home. Now lets get along with the rest of the story.
Since the disgrace on the head of the family, no one would ever get anywhere close to my mother, not even to grandfather who was trying to marry her off. They all figured no unclean woman could make a good wife until one day in the market, while mother gathered fruit she happened to bump into a lonely farmer. The farmer was Daniel Howen, an American who came to China for better life. At that moment, they both fell madly in love for each other.Soon after meeting, they were married and much sooner after that, they had a child. She was named Mea Alexandra Howen named after an aunt and Daniels' mother. So recapping, I was born, tossed into a home with no one who cared for me and I have a half sister I don't know about. And at that time I was just turning 5. What a life. I don't think I could come up with anything else to make it more perfect. Oh but wait! I was cursed in the process!! Eventhough I know my grandfather, mother and half sister really exhist, I can't come into contact with them. I know I'm not supposed to know that but try to go to your house and all of a sudden be thrusted a mile and a half away. Now try thinking you're not cursed!! Doesn't come out right now does it!! See I'm not supposed to find them, they are supposed to come looking and find me. I don't think they are going to be looking too hard for someone they have obviously forgotten about now are they!? Thats what I thought. See old uncle whatshisface, found out I was still alive and he went out to get the amulet from grandfather so he could get the power of the sword back. Seems like he was a little too late. While I was given the sword, my half sister was given the amulet. Its all a matter of time til we are both together.

~end of introduction~

chapter one...derr

Chapter1 Deacon comes into view

It was the end of the school year and mom decided she and Daniel were going to America in search for a new home. I would have lost all hope of reuniting with them until the terrible news came over the television:
Anchorman: "This just in, flight 7070 from Mainland, China to America, just crashed just north of Italy while making emergency landing. It is not known as of yet what caused the accident or even if there are any survivors. Updates to this story will come as they are recieved. This is Walter Suien signing off."
This was to be a bitter sweet development on my part for since they were not able to make it, sister would have to stay with grandfrather, but that means I won't have the chance to know my mother or this Daniel Howen. As I pondered this in my mind a knock came at the door. On opening the door, I noticed a envelope at my entranceway. No sign to who left it, just a return address. I ran to my desk and quickly read the letter, " Deat Deacon, You are needed. The curse has been lifted. Meet me at home you will gain insight in what you learn." I didn't know what to think. Who could have sent this letter? I looked at the front of the envelope and saw the address: "1516 Old Paynee Rd" No name to it, but I guess this should be the first place to look. I dawned myself into a black samurai practice outfit left to me in the box from when I left the Orphan home. Along with the sword and a couple bites of tofu, I lept into the night. Okay okay I didn't leap rather I walked slowly out the back door, it just sounds more stealthy that way....shesh. I arrived at the home of the sender and was at once greated by a man servant errr very cranky bulldog. I ran in through a back entrance and slammed the walldoor behind me. As I turned I was met by a very familiar yet old face. It was the man in the photo, it was my grandfather. "Grandfather?" I proclaimed, puzzeled to why I had not been summoned earlier. "Are you my grandfather?". The old man looked at me closer and wispered "Yes you know it is true and you are needed.:" He continued in regular tone. "You were left in the orphan home so many years ago so you would not be in harm. You were called now because your sister is in trouble." He turned and motioned for me to follow. We walked into what looked like a dojo and stopped near a highly decorated wall. "My brother still wants what you have as well as what is possessed by your sister. He will stop at nothing to take it from you. Be strong and you will learn your place in this." Grandfather walked over to a lonely staff which hung to the far left of the wall. He lifted it and turned it slightly to the right. He slowly stepped back and the wall began to slide, revealing a stairway seeming to come out of the very earth itself. We walked down the stairway almost forever when we finally came to an open room two stories below the home we were just in. Along the walls lay text of the sword and amulet and the powers that sleep within them. The Chineese zodiac also show beside the writings.
As I came closer to the animal drawings, one of them began to glow. It was the sign of the wolf. "A sign of knowledge and nobility." Proclaimed the old man. "You will take on this from." I stay silent as another sign began to glow. "Ah the mighty lion, king of beast. This is your sisters sign. The wolf must find the lion, must protect the lion....." As he spoke I broke in,"Okay I get that part but what has happened to my sister? Where is she? Why am I supposed to save her?". Turning towards me as to get a better glance grandfather exclaimed,"Such impatience. Your sister was kidnapped by my brother. He looks to reclaim the magic of the sword and amulet for himself. You must find your sister and stop my brother from taking the amulet or we could all be in real trouble."

~end of Chapter1~

chapter 2...heh, i have headers on the chapters..i guess i like to title it again with my purdy green font..

Chapter2 Mea tells her side

It was my thirteenth birthday party, everyone I knew was there, even grandpa. He is always working in his shop, so for him to come was a wonderful thing. He walked straight up to me looking in his playful gruff manner to make you think he was mad. "I could have been at work selling many things I made but noOo I had to come to your birthday party. I guess you want a present huh? Well I guess this will have to do this time insolent girl." He handed me a brown grocery bag wrapped around a small box. I quickly untied the shoe string used in place of a bow and opened the box. Contained in the box was a beautiful amulet necklace. A large green stone set in the middle of a gold piece. I looked up at grandpa and saw his smiling face. He suddenly turned gruff again. "If you don't like it I will sell it and give you fifty-fifty the profit so I can reopen the store." I lept up to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. "I love you so much grandpa. Thank you." Keeping up the game he said,"Don't change the subject. Are we going to sell it or not?"
Everyone was busy eating cake and ice cream. Others had just come to wish me a happy birthday and drop off presents.Mom and Dad had just left for the airport. They were going to America in search for a new home and when they found it they were going to come for me and grandpa. That night we watched news for the first time.The news man said their flight crashed and they didn't know if anyone made it out or not but they would keep us updated. Its a good thing grandpa was there. He held me close and rocked me in his arms like he did when I was younger. He looked at me deep into my eyes and told me that if they were gone they would be in a better place and if I remember what they taught me they would never leave my side. Then to bring some relief to the situation (he was always good at that), he said "Warriors never truly leave their post. Before you know it they will be back. You must keep strong or I will find the real you." Looking at him puzzeled I asked "The real me? What do you meen grandpa?" He reached into his pocket and grabbed a large feather. With that he tossed me on the couch and started tickling me. "I think its here, no wait here. Stop moving and laughing I might be able to find you, you insolent girl."
I went up to my room after grandpa finished tickling me out of me to go to bed. As I enter I noticed my window was open. I went to close it when suddenly everything went black. Before I knew it, I was in the far corner of what looked like a dungeon in one of those old movies. The only difference is the walls were white and Uncle Obenu (grandpas twin brother) was at the other side of the room. I started turning to get better glance of my environment only to see a huge cage that completely surrounded me. "Uncle Obenu, what is this? Please let me out of this cage uncle." He turned to me laughing and said in a light voice,"Awww Mea, do you find it unpleseant in your cage? Well just as soon as Your grandfather Kannon gives me what I want. Don't worry if he loves you he will give me what I ask for." He then turned away and walked through a doorway that when it closed, disappeared into nothing. If you hadn't seen it happen for yourself you would have thought it never happened. I waited for what seemed like hours crying, not finding any relief, I lay down on the cold white floor and went to sleep.

~end of Chapter2~

Jakk, it's really good hun! But it needs a lot of 'sprucing up'... I'll help with that if you like. I'm crap at writing short stories as my patience with that is kinda limited, but I'm great at perfecting spelling etc.