well it took me long enough to find this place!

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
LOL!!! * cockney accent* yew ah yew tahht yew!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!!! 😉

I'm no tart sir! *offended*

thanks for the defence cold, much appreciated. *bows*

Originally posted by Lara
I'm no tart sir! *offended*

thanks for the defence cold, much appreciated. *bows*

Originally posted by Coldfire
You're SUCH a dork 😂 😛

Originally posted by Lara
I'm no tart sir! *offended*

thanks for the defence cold, much appreciated. *bows*

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
LOL! yeah, well i dont care. hehehe! (besides, MADE YA LAUGH! hahaha!) heyyyyy babeh... there ain't nuthin wrong wit bein a tart! lol! 😉 ladies, your warrior is like really really deep in love. ahhhhhhhhh..... she stole my hoodie cause it smells like me, so i stole her shirt. LOL!! ahhhhhhh and it smell goooooood!!!!! in_love

Originally posted by Coldfire
lol well sure sounds like it! 😊 So happy for ya hun hug And now at least one of us has no reason to be upset haha 😉

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
lol..... yeah.....'cept i so badly want to spend more time with her...... argh......

OK guys heres something that I wasn't sure if I wanted to post or not but here you are.

I feel I'm doing something foolish
I'm slowly losing control
How can I stop this?
Before I dig myself an inescapable hole

Urges I find hard to ignore
Could hurt countless souls
Including my own
DAMN ME TO LIMBO!

tear away my skin
Reveal and torture what you find
Within this sickened mind
Desperately seeking help

Tear me shred from shred
Until there is nothing left
Lay me bare for the vultures
But even that is not fitting for a creature so foul!

Prick my finger tips
Write in my blood
upon parchments of splinters
I deserve all this as penance for my sins

Lash and whip
With what ever means you find
It still wont compare
With what is in my mind

Can you hear me laughing?
Screaming for more?
The beast withing thrives on the pain
This is it, I've really gone insane!

Torture me for eternity
I'll still scream for more
The doors now been forced open
I cant close it anymore

wow... really intense emotion... quite a morbid theme also, but I like it a lot 😊

another Christmas full of games
all the ones that drive me insane
I don't mean the fun ones
no not them at all
no these are the one that make me sink
make me fall
down that slippery slope again
round and round the coil bends
and in this place I don't want to be
hiding behind all the fake festivities

Hey! Where've ya been? hug

Originally posted by Coldfire
aww hug Well can be grateful that you aren't across the ocean from her or anything eh?

no I just seem to be slipping deeper into me pit these days.
I hate this time of year anyway every thing is so faulse it drives me nuts!
went to the center on friday got to go again this coming friday.
all they seem to be doing is tearing be to shreds all they keepsaying is "your angry, you need to vent, talking will help you vent"
yeah right, I'm sick of bloody talking!, I sound like a ****ing cracked record. how much longer do I havew to relive the crash and burn of my pathetic exsitance so far? nothing helps!
"your angry!" yeah I'm angry, cuz you keep saying "your angry!" your the one pissing me off! stupid piss arse *****.

sorry. *rant off*

no I just seem to be slipping deeper into me pit these days.
I hate this time of year anyway every thing is so faulse it drives me nuts!
went to the center on friday got to go again this coming friday.
all they seem to be doing is tearing be to shreds all they keep saying is "your angry, you need to vent, talking will help you vent"
yeah right, I'm sick of bloody talking!, I sound like a f***ing cracked record. how much longer do I havew to relive the crash and burn of my pathetic exsitance so far? nothing helps!
"your angry!" yeah I'm angry, cuz you keep saying "your angry!" your the one pissing me off! stupid piss arse B*TCH.

sorry. *rant off*

Originally posted by Lara
no I just seem to be slipping deeper into me pit these days.
I hate this time of year anyway every thing is so faulse it drives me nuts!
went to the center on friday got to go again this coming friday.
all they seem to be doing is tearing be to shreds all they keepsaying is "your angry, you need to vent, talking will help you vent"
yeah right, I'm sick of bloody talking!, I sound like a ****ing cracked record. how much longer do I havew to relive the crash and burn of my pathetic exsitance so far? nothing helps!
"your angry!" yeah I'm angry, cuz you keep saying "your angry!" your the one pissing me off! stupid piss arse *****.

sorry. *rant off*

ok for all of you that keep going on at me to get published I have started my search into the beguiling world of the publisher, god knows where this one will end up but if I dont try i cant gain and if even if I try and I dont gain anything then I havent lost anything either, just learned a lesson, not to be quite so grandure with my ambitions 😂
I will keep you up to date if I can, if not I can tell you where you can find up to date news on my activities, just PM me or mail me and I'll give you the addy I cant here cuz of the spamming rules which I'm sure we are all reminded of quite clearly on a regular basis 😂
no offence to the mods. I wuv you wele! 😄

take care guys. have fun.

Originally posted by Lara
ok for all of you that keep going on at me to get published I have started my search into the beguiling world of the publisher, god knows where this one will end up but if I dont try i cant gain and if even if I try and I dont gain anything then I havent lost anything either, just learned a lesson, not to be quite so grandure with my ambitions 😂
I will keep you up to date if I can, if not I can tell you where you can find up to date news on my activities, just PM me or mail me and I'll give you the addy I cant here cuz of the spamming rules which I'm sure we are all reminded of quite clearly on a regular basis 😂
no offence to the mods. I wuv you wele! 😄

take care guys. have fun.

proving to be alot of hard work 😂 although it is some thing I really want to do. so I cant be really proud of my self andbe able to say, I've be published and my work paid off.
I need to do some thing for myslef for a change and this could be the turning point for me. 😄

Originally posted by Lara
proving to be alot of hard work 😂 although it is some thing I really want to do. so I cant be really proud of my self andbe able to say, I've be published and my work paid off.
I need to do some thing for myslef for a change and this could be the turning point for me. 😄

well. I've been searching like mad and found a pulishers which publish work written by people with mental health problems so I'll try them so fingers crossed.

oh and the psychiatrist has diagnosed me with bipolar disorder.