Overflowing

Because the people I come across generally find it easy to open up to me, I learn of the things that have hurt them. I am usually just there to listen. When I care about someone who tells me of there sorrows there pain literally becomes a part of me. There was a time in my life when I was 'overflowing' with so much that I couldn't even deal with my own issues and I shutdown. I was lost and confused. My emotions were out of control. I dont know I guess I was hyper sensitive to everything. Every emotion I felt was intense in away that words can't really describe and yet I try. After all that has happened between my ex and me, I feel hollow, broken, curious, and hopeful and hopeless. I feel completely numb sometimes and other times I feel like there is some feeling left in my heart. It seems that pain and saddess are the most identifiable feelings inside of me. It feels like I am somehow drawn to the pain in others. I'm just rambling on about things I'm sure none of you can relate to so I'll stop.

yus ✅

deep.....

Originally posted by Mistah DEVIL
Because the people I come across generally find it easy to open up to me, I learn of the things that have hurt them. I am usually just there to listen. When I care about someone who tells me of there sorrows there pain literally becomes a part of me. There was a time in my life when I was 'overflowing' with so much that I couldn't even deal with my own issues and I shutdown. I was lost and confused. My emotions were out of control. I dont know I guess I was hyper sensitive to everything. Every emotion I felt was intense in away that words can't really describe and yet I try. After all that has happened between my ex and me, I feel hollow, broken, curious, and hopeful and hopeless. I feel completely numb sometimes and other times I feel like there is some feeling left in my heart. It seems that pain and saddess are the most identifiable feelings inside of me. It feels like I am somehow drawn to the pain in others. I'm just rambling on about things I'm sure none of you can relate to so I'll stop.

you have empathy issues aswell 😱 ...
😮

Totally understand

I have a confession to make. The reason why I stopped where I did was because it hurt too much to post more. I'd much rather bury my feelings than deal with them. Feeling numb is safe. I am getting confused again. Lost in the pain. There is this heavy sadness in my heart. A sadness that I have only felt once before. My ex and I were very much in love and we had this connection. Whenever she was hurting I coul feel it and I knew I had to go see her or call her to try and make her feel better. She was definitely the best thing that has happened to me, but also the the one thing that has hurt me more than anything. I dont think I'll ever recover. Before her I was dead on the inside. Breathing and able to function but not truly alive.

And then she changed that. She built me up so high and I came crashing down so hard.

🙁 I'm sorry that happened

Originally posted by Kagome2005
🙁 I'm sorry that happened

(you keep changing your sig)

(my mood keeps changing 😛 Actually the other sig i just borrowed from a friend on a different site)

i am sorry

That's a good thing to feel.JM

heartache is a terrible thing to feel

Originally posted by -Funky Punk-
i am sorry

Originally posted by Jackie Malfoy
That's a good thing to feel.JM

Wow...you're a deep person! 😱 That's a good thing, buy the way. You sound like you're on the edge, you also sound like you're loosing hope. Don't give up! You'll make it through this! ✅

That does hurt. Hope you get through it man.

Mistah DEVIL > I feel for you and your heartache...I personally know someone going through the same thing and I know it isnt easy....but one thing I also know is there are 3 parts to every story like this...yours, hers and the conclusion...

...just the fact that you are talking about this openly shows some sign of moving on and trying to work to your conclusion...even if its baby steps...they will get you to where you should be in the end...just dont stop stepping...

Originally posted by Mistah DEVIL
Because the people I come across generally find it easy to open up to me, I learn of the things that have hurt them. I am usually just there to listen. When I care about someone who tells me of there sorrows there pain literally becomes a part of me. There was a time in my life when I was 'overflowing' with so much that I couldn't even deal with my own issues and I shutdown. I was lost and confused. My emotions were out of control. I dont know I guess I was hyper sensitive to everything. Every emotion I felt was intense in away that words can't really describe and yet I try. After all that has happened between my ex and me, I feel hollow, broken, curious, and hopeful and hopeless. I feel completely numb sometimes and other times I feel like there is some feeling left in my heart. It seems that pain and saddess are the most identifiable feelings inside of me. It feels like I am somehow drawn to the pain in others. I'm just rambling on about things I'm sure none of you can relate to so I'll stop.

Oddly enough, I used to be just like you. Always open to the mouth of the world. But then I learned one thing:
Learn to feel nothing for the world, for the world will feel nothing for you.

At the small cost of your emotions, you can feel pain free. Of everything, loss, gain, madness. You name it, it's gone. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not an evil psychotic twisted minded person. However there should only be two people in your life for this to work. God and you. No one else fits into the equation, becuase who's going to be there when you die? No one, but him and you...remember that.

Originally posted by Mistah DEVIL
And then she changed that. She built me up so high and I came crashing down so hard.

Never rely on others. They are destined to bring you down...

Originally posted by Mistah DEVIL
I have a confession to make. The reason why I stopped where I did was because it hurt too much to post more. I'd much rather bury my feelings than deal with them. Feeling numb is safe. I am getting confused again. Lost in the pain. There is this heavy sadness in my heart. A sadness that I have only felt once before. My ex and I were very much in love and we had this connection. Whenever she was hurting I coul feel it and I knew I had to go see her or call her to try and make her feel better. She was definitely the best thing that has happened to me, but also the the one thing that has hurt me more than anything. I dont think I'll ever recover. Before her I was dead on the inside. Breathing and able to function but not truly alive.

and how do you coup with it KD, or are you just trying to comfort him?