Anorexia.
From ptsd from the past and of course bullying about being too small back in the day. Now I get bullied and criticizes for being too big. So I guess I can't win, eh? Haha.
Some people need to take time and grow up and work on themselves if they feel the need to bash someone for their looks and weights. That shows character defect. Having been bigger and severely underweight I can safely say that I have no room to judge any weight, and I think as long as someone is healthy (Functioning organs and energy.) and happy that is all that matters.
Originally posted by immaturerainbow
Anorexia.
From ptsd from the past and of course bullying about being too small back in the day. Now I get bullied and criticizes for being too big. So I guess I can't win, eh? Haha.Some people need to take time and grow up and work on themselves if they feel the need to bash someone for their looks and weights. That shows character defect. Having been bigger and severely underweight I can safely say that I have no room to judge any weight, and I think as long as someone is healthy (Functioning organs and energy.) and happy that is all that matters.
I couldn't agree more, I am sorry to Hear you have Post Traumatic stress disorder. I am heavily effected by it and it can easily slide me into depression and recall traumatic memories
Originally posted by Genesis-SoldierOh shit really? That's well good, I mean technically I'm a Tarrant and not a Higgins (my mum is Tarrant, dad is Higgins, but I have my mum's name 'cause my parents aren't married but they are together... kind of. It's a long story), but I have a lot of Higgins family, more Higgins family than Tarrant. How many Higgins do you know?
your a Higgins!I have a few family friends who are Higgins
mums side or dads ?
I'm sorry to hear that. It's no easy thing to deal with. I've managed to keep mine under control. I only flip out if I am around a gun, or if someone approaches me at a fast pace like they are going to hurt me.
I mostly try to 'control' things, and I'm hell bent on perfection which I know I'll never achieve. I bring up my flaws and obsess over them. Any criticism, I take to heart and try to fix.
But I'm working on not letting what everyone says be the factor into my changing myself. Because I'm striving to be the person I've really been all along rather than this fake person that I've built over the years to fit everyone's expectations.
Had I saw this two years ago, I'd have rethought about my weight, deleted the picture and made sure that any of my bigger, pouty picture were never posted on the internet ever again.
Originally posted by Scribble
Oh shit really? That's well good, I mean technically I'm a Tarrant and not a Higgins (my mum is Tarrant, dad is Higgins, but I have my mum's name 'cause my parents aren't married but they are together... kind of. It's a long story), but I have a lot of Higgins family, more Higgins family than Tarrant. How many Higgins do you know?
Originally posted by immaturerainbow
I'm sorry to hear that. It's no easy thing to deal with. I've managed to keep mine under control. I only flip out if I am around a gun, or if someone approaches me at a fast pace like they are going to hurt me.I mostly try to 'control' things, and I'm hell bent on perfection which I know I'll never achieve. I bring up my flaws and obsess over them. Any criticism, I take to heart and try to fix.
But I'm working on not letting what everyone says be the factor into my changing myself. Because I'm striving to be the person I've really been all along rather than this fake person that I've built over the years to fit everyone's expectations.
Had I saw this two years ago, I'd have rethought about my weight, deleted the picture and made sure that any of my bigger, pouty picture were never posted on the internet ever again.
I freak put when ever someone puts there hands around my neck or has a knife and is behind or infront of me.
sometimes I wake up feeling like I am being chocked out again and other times the scars of my back feel like they are burning again
not really, we think it will ease off when I am 30.
I blanked out a whole year of violence and beatings and bullying. I cant even watch a movie where a gun is put to someones head and having them threatened to blow there brains out.
I cant even go into a public toilet because when I do I fell like I am chocked and will be held down and cut again