Originally posted by Capt_Fantastic
Once again, you repeat my words and act like you've observed me and figured out what I'm all about. However, this is a false victory for you since all you're doing is repeating everything I say about myself and passing it off as an astute observation on your part.What is it about what I've said that makes you think any of the "teaching" of gods love that I have experienced was done in a hateful manner? My time studying the bible was done so in a very nurturing environment. In fact the majority of my religion teachers went out of their way to explain the bible and christianity in a very difference-friendly manner. Face to face hatred is something I've rarely experienced. And hatred because of my sexuality is something I've experienced even less. In fact, the only time I've heard hatred is when I watch "christians" on television, spewing their hate rhetoric in one breathe and asking for a dollar in the next. Either that, or some bible thumping hypocrit like Ted Haggard who has politicized his religion for profit. It's always contrary to Jesus' message of unity and peace with them. They're HYPOCRITS. Do you know what that means?
As for my sex life, I've never felt unloved because of it. In fact, I can't recall ever feeling unloved, due to sex or otherwise. You think my disgust with your fairy tale religion comes from some emtpy place in my life. It doesn't. I've never sated my desire for greater understanding with sex. Sorry if you have in the past, but see we're two different people. So, if you want to know why I dislike christianity, simply re-read your post. I've quoted it so you don't have to go very far to see a copy of it.
As for "trying to be straight", I'll do it as soon as you try being gay. When you do, you'll be demonstrating how open minded you are. I understand that you preach this garbage, and maybe you're doing it to try and get under my skin, because you think you actually believe it. But if you had two grains of sense you wouldn't type such an easily dismissable post as though it were well-thought and compassionate. You need to understand that I dismiss your religion because I have educated myself. For gods sake, I just heard a preacher on TV say that people lived to be 400 and 500 years old before the biblical flood because they were vegitarians. Come on man, you peple can't be that naive. Does this explain how someone could survive in the stomach of a whale too?
But, as I have said many times before, people like you want everyone else to be exactly the same as yourself because you are scared. You're scared because you don't really have any clue what's going to happen to you when you die. You don't have a clue, neither does the Pope and neither did Jesus. And the louder you preach your narrow minded views, the better you feel about yourself and the unknown. If you don't have the confidence in your own beliefs to enjoy them quietly, then I guess you'll just have to tell everyone else how they should think and feel the same way you do.
I'm not scared to be a christian. I was one for a long time. But it can be drilled out of your head just as easily as it's drilled into your head. If you had a shitty life before you found christianity and it's turned your life around, that's good for you. I'm glad you found something to cling to during hard times. But I don't need it. So, while christianity has answered all your questions, it's provided very few for mine. And in my studies of other religions, I found no more reasonable or concrete answers either. So, while I'm not an atheist, I'm simply content knowing that it's okay not to have all the answers, because no one does.
No one is trying to proclaim victory over you. Again - everyone who is *critical* of you, isn't trying to condemn. I merely based my observation on what was posted. There seems to be much anger that resonates from your posts, particularly when you reference specific individuals who taught you the scriptures. I have no idea why this anger is there, however, it is very apparent that *is* there - upon reading each response(that you make).
Regarding your other request - I'm going to have to respectfully decline. As I have stated before, I've already engaged in sexual sin, so there really is no point for me to engage in further sexual sin in order to prove a point. Like yourself - the end result of this sin, was always much anger, as well as a feeling of hurt and rejection, usually followed by some very severe consequences. So again - I am not talking to you as a superior, I am talking to you as an equal, and an empathetic peer - or to simplify, I am talking to you as a sinner.
However the beauty(and perfection) of God - is his unlimited patience and love he has with his children. As long as the motivation to change is there, he is willing to forgive just about any sinner - so long as they are humble to admit that they are one(and have the motivation within their hearts to change). I feel like you do carry this humility within you to do this, seeing as how you have already acknowledged that you are the one responsible for the initial *rejection*.
Perhaps you could further divulge some specific scenarios, about the way in which you were taught the scriptures - and any other scenarios regarding your personal life, relating to what we have discussed. If you feel uncomfortable doing so on this forum, then you can always PM me.