The Illuminati: Secretly in Control!!!

Originally posted by Entity
Just been back @ hell the last two days. I already can't wait till I get another holiday off. I think my next real vacation will be when I take my vacation for my birthday in April thou.

Floor Coordinator?
What exactly do you do?

Well I work in a real estate office and the floor coordinator basically gets the inquires from customers on the website and assigns it to the various agents in the office. Also I deal with the listings of properties and handling the files plus I'm functioning as the personal assistant of two of the partners in the company so I've kinda been spread a little thin.

Originally posted by Artemis1860
Nothing much, just working, trying to figure out some personal issues... as well as trying to figure out if i should change schools and major.

Why do you feel you need a change? What do you do now and what do you want to change to?

Originally posted by Artemis1860
Why would I PM you? 😕 😛

*sends random PM*

Originally posted by marvelprince
Why do you feel you need a change? What do you do now and what do you want to change to?

I'm a business major at a Christian College. But I'm thinking about changing colleges and becoming a teaching major. taking classes either in writing or literature.

Thing is, lately i've just wondered why i'm doing what i'm doing. Business is okay, but I have no passion for it.

I love writing, I want that to be my life, and I want to teach highschoolers what it's like to have that passion, and what it's like to write something other than a research paper or an essay, but instead something that's real to them, and teach them how to make it real to everyone else. Teach them how to share their loves in passion in the poetry of words.

Originally posted by Artemis1860
I'm a business major at a Christian College. But I'm thinking about changing colleges and becoming a teaching major. taking classes either in writing or literature.

Thing is, lately i've just wondered why i'm doing what i'm doing. Business is okay, but I have no passion for it.

I love writing, I want that to be my life, and I want to teach highschoolers what it's like to have that passion, and what it's like to write something other than a research paper or an essay, but instead something that's real to them, and teach them how to make it real to everyone else. Teach them how to share their loves in passion in the poetry of words.

Well you've said that you're really getting into the writing and with the success you have in the field I wouldn't say thats a bad idea at all

Originally posted by marvelprince
Well you've said that you're really getting into the writing and with the success you have in the field I wouldn't say thats a bad idea at all

co-signed

Sounds to me like you already on your way Artemis 👆

but i have more to think about than just me. My husband goes to school here, he's a preaching major. If I move colleges, he would have to as well, do I just ask him to give up everything he's worked for? I can't. I can always write, business major or not, though considering my grades in this current major, that probably won't go anywhere.

But I can always write, and to be honest, I thank you guys for the compliments, but there are so many out there better than me, if you don't believe me, than here. My work isn't all that great. I have no guarentees.

Originally posted by Artemis1860
but i have more to think about than just me. My husband goes to school here, he's a preaching major. If I move colleges, he would have to as well, do I just ask him to give up everything he's worked for? I can't. I can always write, business major or not, though considering my grades in this current major, that probably won't go anywhere.

But I can always write, and to be honest, I thank you guys for the compliments, but there are so many out there better than me, if you don't believe me, than here. My work isn't all that great. I have no guarentees.

Well, I know what you mean. I am probably absolutely no where near as good as you but, I too would love to be a comic writer and know that there is just no way I could compete with all the better writers out there. I also work with a guy that is an awesome (and I do mean AWESOME) artist that has been trying to get into the busyness for years and is still in the same shit hole job as the young and non gifted people like me. This guy can draw anything and make it look better than almost half of the comic artist in the industry, IMO. He still can get no where simply because of the sheer amount of competition. 🙁

PS: I also understand about the depression. I used to get depressed at random all the time and almost killed my self more than once and only chickend out because I was afraid I was wrong about death and there was a hell. Finally my friend David got me over it. What is really sad is shortly after helping me, we were in a car wreck and I made a full recovery and he was dead when they got there. I still wonder why died when he loved life and I was so willing to.

I still get depressed but not as often and I no longer consider death.

Originally posted by Entity
Well, I know what you mean. I am probably absolutely no where near as good as you but, I too would love to be a comic writer and know that there is just no way I could compete with all the better writers out there. I also work with a guy that is an awesome (and I do mean AWESOME) artist that has been trying to get into the busyness for years and is still in the same shit hole job as the young and non gifted people like me. This guy can draw anything and make it look better than almost half of the comic artist in the industry, IMO. He still can get no where simply because of the sheer amount of competition. 🙁

PS: I also understand about the depression. I used to get depressed at random all the time and almost killed my self more than once and only chickend out because I was afraid I was wrong about death and there was a hell. Finally my friend David got me over it. What is really sad is shortly after helping me, we were in a car wreck and I made a full recovery and he was dead when they got there. I still wonder why died when he loved life and I was so willing to.

I still get depressed but not as often and I no longer consider death.

I don't know, but sometimes I wonder the same. But I wasn't in a car accident. You see, I'm adopted. My birthmom was fourteen when she found out she was pregnant with me, and she was supposed to get an abortion. But instead, i was put up for adoption.
there's more on that issue, but I don't like pressing my faith on others, or shoving it in the faces of others. If someone wants to know anything about me or my faith, they can PM me, but only if they want a serious discussion, not to bait me into an argument.

There's competition everywhere, and I'm actually talking to my husband right now about what would be best, and what we want to do.

Originally posted by Artemis1860
but i have more to think about than just me. My husband goes to school here, he's a preaching major. If I move colleges, he would have to as well, do I just ask him to give up everything he's worked for? I can't. I can always write, business major or not, though considering my grades in this current major, that probably won't go anywhere.

But I can always write, and to be honest, I thank you guys for the compliments, but there are so many out there better than me, if you don't believe me, than here. My work isn't all that great. I have no guarentees.

Writings tough. Anyone ever tell you otherwise is a fool. Point is though you still shouldn't be scared to follow your dream. Have you considered just working full time till your husband is done with his major and then you can go after your own thing. There are always options

Originally posted by Entity
Well, I know what you mean. I am probably absolutely no where near as good as you but, I too would love to be a comic writer and know that there is just no way I could compete with all the better writers out there. I also work with a guy that is an awesome (and I do mean AWESOME) artist that has been trying to get into the busyness for years and is still in the same shit hole job as the young and non gifted people like me. This guy can draw anything and make it look better than almost half of the comic artist in the industry, IMO. He still can get no where simply because of the sheer amount of competition. 🙁

PS: I also understand about the depression. I used to get depressed at random all the time and almost killed my self more than once and only chickend out because I was afraid I was wrong about death and there was a hell. Finally my friend David got me over it. What is really sad is shortly after helping me, we were in a car wreck and I made a full recovery and he was dead when they got there. I still wonder why died when he loved life and I was so willing to.

I still get depressed but not as often and I no longer consider death.

Wow. Sounds really rough. Honestly depression isn't really something I've ever had to dealt with. A while ago I made a decision to stop being emotional so mostly I come across as uncaring or insensitive. I have a few friends who've been through bouts of depression so I know its not easy to go through. Its better for you to have someone to help you through though. Your friend dying was a tradegy I'm sure but I hope his death at least put things in perspective for you and showed you how precious your life is

Originally posted by marvelprince
Writings tough. Anyone ever tell you otherwise is a fool. Point is though you still shouldn't be scared to follow your dream. Have you considered just working full time till your husband is done with his major and then you can go after your own thing. There are always options

I know there are always options, but you have to understand, in my background... I was the kid that got all the pressure, I had no social life, everything was expected of me, and daily I was called a failure. Many think I'm emotionally abused, and I know I'm not always emotionally stable.

Right now I'm honestly thinking of saving up some money this next semester, and getting a house this summer, taking time off school, pay off some of my loans, and just write.

By my own goals, I should've had my second book finished and ready to be published by now. I'm still on the first ten chapters of the first book. I'm not exactly happy with myself on that.

But I'm tired of living under the shadow my parents left, and I want to live my own life. For once.

Originally posted by Artemis1860
I know there are always options, but you have to understand, in my background... I was the kid that got all the pressure, I had no social life, everything was expected of me, and daily I was called a failure. Many think I'm emotionally abused, and I know I'm not always emotionally stable.

Right now I'm honestly thinking of saving up some money this next semester, and getting a house this summer, taking time off school, pay off some of my loans, and just write.

By my own goals, I should've had my second book finished and ready to be published by now. I'm still on the first ten chapters of the first book. I'm not exactly happy with myself on that.

But I'm tired of living under the shadow my parents left, and I want to live my own life. For once.

Don't be so hard on yourself. Block out those outside voices, ignore past failures and resolve right now to do what you want to do. There's no point in going about life like some drone if you aren't happy with what you do. You want to be happy? Wanna prove your not a failure? Then get out there and do whatever the hell it is you want to do

Wow that's really rough.no offense but i think i'm turning suicidal just reading this thread

Originally posted by marvelprince
Don't be so hard on yourself. Block out those outside voices, ignore past failures and resolve right now to do what you want to do. There's no point in going about life like some drone if you aren't happy with what you do. You want to be happy? Wanna prove your not a failure? Then get out there and do whatever the hell it is you want to do

That's what I'm going to try and do, it's just hard to force myself to do it I guess. I'm not a risk taker. But I'm going to talk to my boss about full time work next time I see her, so I can try to set things up. Or start to anyway. Then I can start thinking about getting something other than an apartment. lol.

Howdy everyone,it seems that Nvr is back in town and he brought friends.

Anyone in tonight or am I all by me lonesome?

I'm around, off and on.

Hello

Originally posted by Artemis1860
I'm around, off and on.

Did you and your husband talk about your future plans?

Originally posted by Martian_mind
Hello

Whats up? Any good debates in the vs forum?

Originally posted by marvelprince
Did you and your husband talk about your future plans?

We talked about it. I'm trying for one more semester, while he tries to get a good paying job, so then come this summer we can try and get a house in town. I'll take a year off maybe, and we'll go from there. In the meantime, I'll devote more time to my writing as well.

Sounds good. At least you're making some progress