I have all respect in the world for Ushgarak as a moderator. That said, a moderator is still a human being and I can not put that aside. If I have something on my mind, I feel it best to speak of it rather than keep it in.
Additionally, I respected his request. I simply discussed the matter with him in a friendly manner, which I can't imagine he has anything against. The last thing was on a very unrelated note, that simply originated from the previously held discussion.
Leaving something be doesn't dictate not using it as inspiration for a different topic.
As for the word you're looking for, I believe you want decaying. As for how I've been: As well as any cynical ***** can be 😉