Fresh Start

Well I guess I killed my other thread lol.
Time to start over.....

Such a gift!
A precious gift, born out of such grief.
How can something so perfect and pure,
Come from something so saturated in deceit?

Never mind the past,
may it never taint you.
Here I am and will always be.
When ever, what ever your need.

May they never get the chance,
May they never see the opportunity,
To harm and abuse you,
As they did me.

This I pledge, my sweet sweet cherub,
For you there is no request too extreme.
For now I see the future,
I am redeemed.

Astounding workmanship of words and depth, Lara!

Watching you as you sleep,
Feeling your skin against mine,
I am absolved,
I am revived.

What I gave so willingly the first time round,
Now I see, was foolish.
It was acknowledged and abused.
I was manipulated and used.

Now here with you I feel so much more!
Your deserving of what I have to give.
You give so much yourself,
And of that I'm unworthy.

In the darkness, tucked in your embrase,
I know I'm here in the right place.
And if I get lost I know you'll find me,
There is no one else I'd want to be with.

A truly gifted poet.

Back to the earth,
Down I slump.
An abused and battered mess,
Bruised and bitter, sobbing again.
The sinking feeling my mistress.

I feel the darkness surrounding me,
Closing me in.
It calls me out, withdrawing me,
Reminding me, I've always been less.
And with this affirmation I know she walks again.

Lonely, black and frozen.
Blue in mind and heart.
So fulfilled with the company of dispare,
sickend to the pitt.
Stomach churns and nightmares stir,
The nonsense in her head.

In with the tide that just keeps coming,
Just letting it roll over head.
No urge to fight, to swim for air.
Closed eyes calling upon death.

Starring down the barrel,
Cut off from the other side.
Hiding in the shadows,
Away from your lies.

Fury's clutches, strong and firm,
Thoughts reeling, blood rushing.
Through pushing you'll learn,
As its you I start crushing.

Torrid lies and filthy looks,
Screaming, I'm not heard.
Frustration leaking tears,
My vision blurred.

Again and again I heard your sighs,
Sinking me lower each time.
Ignoring your taunts,
Trying to take what is mine.

you spelled embrace wrong. i dont care.

its good, i like your style, it feels different.
im sorry i cant concentrate right now, i felt i owed you, but i am not being very helpful. perhaps in the near future i could come back.

havent written in a while but I'm working on it 😄

Ah! well I knew I'd get there at some point 😂
this is quite a bad piece but its a start 😄

thanks to😛oB

We stand alone,
Only responsible for ourselves.
We stand alone,
Empty and hollow shells.

We rely on others,
For truth and validation.
We rely on others,
For love and consolidation.

We vent,
To release what we cannot contain.
Hate, hurt, rage and pain.
We vent.

Self-destructive, we are,
An island, each standing alone.
Forcing for the painless isolation and numbness.
Man cannot live by bread alone.

i really like the first four. i love how you have words that normally would't been thrown together in a rhyming scheme, but they somehow work...

'tis quite brilliant.

the last one's okay, but definetly not your best (of what i've read).

aw thankyou, yeah I kow it kinda sucks but I havent written for so long, I need to ease myself back into it slowly if you know what I mean 😂

I have another thread here too, its old but I've posted loads there. I stopped posting there as it has a rep for being very morbid so if you're in the mood for that sort of thing feel free to browse 😄
http://www.killermovies.com/forums/f83/t330335.html

thanks again :d

aw thankyou, yeah I kow it kinda sucks but I havent written for so long, I need to ease myself back into it slowly if you know what I mean

god i know that feeling. ^.^

you're welcome, and sure i'll check out your other stuff. if it's as good as the first four, i should be very entertained, to say the least.

plus morbid doesn't really bother me that much, lolz. 🙂

I'm working on a few at the moment but I'm not sure what the outcome will be and I'm O-so not impressed with myself at the moment so I apologise, for me even these are bad!!! 😖

across my little red note book, and I found a wealth of stuff I'd written in it and forgotten about so I'll post some of those instead 😄

At 17 the world made you it's victim,
Chewed you up and spat you out.
Not once did you fight back, no!
You just drank it all in.

You drank until you were saturated,
The vemon, poisoned you deep.
The vessel, so potent,
Left you concentrated.

Some where deep within,
You found the antidote,
Dose after dose,
Time the great healer.

20 now, but still healing,
Trying to forget.

Drawn back you,
after finally breaking free,
after doing all I could to forget,
to remove you from memory's view.

Now your back, drawing me down,
Haunting my dreamless sleep,
Raping me still,
Body and mind.

Sauded affliction,
you infect me still,
unbind me, remedy me,
You'll never permit it!
You'll never quit,
Until I'm as diseased as you!
PARASITE!

Crippling me, undying pain,
All the more soul destroying to see,
The sick smile on your face,
The twisted ways you enjoy me.

PARASITE!

you'll never let me go,
Your manipulation never faulters,
Can you see where your poison spreads?

PARASITE!!

Sauded affliction,
Infecting me still,
Your manipulation never faulters,
The twised ways you enjoy me.

PARASITE! PARASITE! PARASITE!

The sick smile on your face,
My undying pain,
Your twisted enjoyment,
You'll never let me go.

PARASITE!!!!

A little strange but cool, good work, I like the first on of the two newbies! x

strange how?

Sullenness washes over me,
Tainting how I feel,
Two-tone in its transparency,
I still feel what I did before.

A double moon, no! A single mood,
That’s invaded, contaminated, undermined,
By the selfish left behinds,
Of a sick and unstable mind.

An on going battle with no victories,
Just one dirty tactic after another.
How can I be truly happy,
When I'm governed by another?

Wow!

For Lara, and our Dying World

In your poem's I see truth,
As if the very foundations of life,
Could be so easily described.

In you words I find your emotions,
The way you feel when you put to words,
The wrongness of ur world.

I understand this world we live in,
I can see it, hear it, smell it, fear it, hide from it,
Nothing but dark corners of dark street.

Suffering and misery,
Our world is lost,
Gone; its dark bloody trail but a wishfully fogotten memory.

How in our short time on this Earth we have brought the planet to destruction,
What with drugs, pollution, lies, dispear, deciet, jealously,
All things must come to an end.

So if I say good night,
It will mean my parting from this world,
I leave behind this message.

Inspiried by your poems, Lara.

😂

Wow, thankyou Reaper 😄

Take these thoughts,
Break them down.
Still the equation,
Equals a frown.
Nothing more,
Nothing less.
What is this before you?
A wretched mess!
Take me away,
Bring me peace.
A holiday of sorts,
Some temporary release.
Give me some silence,
Deafen my ears.
Bind my eyes,
Wind back the years.
Back to the begining.
Where it all began,
When you should have explained to me,
This life and its horrid plan.